Can anybody in this sick depraved world show a homeless wretch any kindness?

Email  CHRIS@CHRISHEPBURN.COM

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I am homeless an abomination by the name of Elizabeth Gracen took everything.

I have never ever hated anybody the way I hate Gracen.

Gracen stole millions from my late daughters charity an myself and left me to  die on the streets of Paris.

Only 25 percent of what Gracen stole belonged to me,the rest belonged to my late daughters charity to aid the needy.

Now I am the one who is needy due to that fucking abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

Gracen is providing sexual favors to Mr Cracker,Bill Clinton so it is not prosecuted.

It is not tin foil hat time,just Google the name Elizabeth Gracen and it will confirm the Clinton connection.

Gracen first shared a bed with Clinton to obtain a Miss Arkansas Crown,this is well documented.

I will put up a preamble here in red and this is the last time.

I want to express my disgust with The Parasitic Entity,namely The Parasitic States of America,it is a cancer upon Mother Earth.

Mindless Americans utter almost like a phonic tic " God Bless America"

Lets pretend there is a God,surely that God would be disgusted with a such a toxic vulgar nation that makes Sodom and Gomorrah look like Monet's garden.

American ignorance goes back to Emma Lazarus and

" Throw me your retards yearning to fuck something up"

Brando explained it better when he spoke of the progenitors of The Parasitic Entity.

" We got the dregs of European society"

America is a nation of Golem's,that is not an insult,halachically speaking American's are Golem's.

The Pariah is a cancer upon the planet.

Over the last few weeks I have emailed every State Supreme Court Justice,over 300 Federal Judges including the S.C.O.T.U.S and not one of them stood up for what is right,just and noble.

The Pariah would not know right,just and noble if it fell from the heavens.

Using the clinical definition of sentience I suggest most Americans are not even sentient.

The Pariah has the Midas touch in reverse everything it touches turns to shit.

Only 2 options,I am telling the truth about Gracen stealing millions from my late daughters charity or I am a lunatic,either way I would need help.

The Parasitic Entity does not "do" help,they drop bombs on innocent children and the American Department of Terrorism The Pentagon call it acceptable collateral damage.

Something that speaks volumes of American ignorance and vulgarity.

My last emails were to all the senior cops in every State Police Department in every State and the senior cops in the largest city in every state.

They verbally masturbate on their websites using words like honor,pride and integrity.

They have no understanding of those words.

They do not have a clue,the whole ethos of law enforcement in the The Parasitic Entity is my gun is bigger than your gun.

Americans have never grown up,emotionally they are still children playing Cowboys and Indian's.

Even the tax man has an AR15,they are totally and utterly lacking in the number one quality that is required in law enforcement, compassion.

American law enforcement using words like honor and integrity is like Hitler saying modeh ani or looking for funds to open a mikvah.

America is a cancer upon the planet that has taken all the integrity and goodness out of the world.

It has also taken all the thought out of this world,people no longer think.

I came across something awful a few days ago Windoze 10.

it is awful,Linux is free but the mindless doff their caps to that abomination Microsoft.

People are paying over 100 Euro for induction pads to charge their phones,how dumb can people get,how difficult is it to plug in a phone to charge.

Ask the mindless to explain Lorentz or Maxwell Law's and they would not have a clue.

However they pull out their piece of plastic and doff their cap to the company store and buy crap as children starve to death in the world.

I noticed Christmas candy in the supermarket yesterday,utterly obscene,Christmas is 2 months away.

If one was to extrapolate from the actions in the Gospels of that guy that never existed Christ,he would be disgusted at mindless consumerism in his name.

The few replies I got from Law Enforcement Agency's were either insults or threats.

Not one of them said how are you Chris,how can I help Chris.

The Parasitic Entity fails moral integrity in every walk of life.

I have been in touch with rape crisis centers and offered them funding if they grew a moral backbone and worked with me and helped me recover funds that abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole.

Clinton is a serial rapist this is well documented,rape maybe considered socially acceptable within Arkansas no doubt akin to sending flowers.

However it is not acceptable to Clinton's victims that still have not secured justice and I have spoken with some of them.

Rape Crisis centers are staffed by good little chimps that have turned ineptitude into an art form.

They waste so much money talking fluent politically correct gibberish.

That money would be better spent aiding the victims of rape,too over simplify it is better to suffer in Tahiti than in a hovel in Washington Heights.

I must have emailed over a 100 rape crisis centers and not one of them stood up for what is right,just and noble.

So much money is wasted so idiots can talk crap,I noticed a little girl a few weeks ago with WBS,I was thinking of the pathology of WBS all day.

However what this little girl needed in many ways is the same as what rape victims need,they need somebody to genuinely care about how they are.

All rape victims in The Parasitic Entity get is formulaic counseling by good little chimps that are at best clutching a pretend degree from a pretend university.

One cannot learn empathy,one either has it or one does not.

Victims need love,warmth and compassion and I know a lot about that,I have been spiritually raped by that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and The Parasitic Entity.

Not a single rape crisis center stood up for what is right,just and noble.

Victims have nobody,NYC is a good example,I had a friend once that was a Detective with the NYPD,the NYPD are vile.

The CRS in France have a bad reputation however The CRS could teach The NYPD a lot about honor and integrity.

A  cop with the CRS saved my life in 98 or 99,the NYPD by their actions said fuck off and die Chris.

The friend I once had that was a Detective with the NYPD used to care about victims.

He went above and beyond and was sick of all the money being wasted by idiots "playing" at caring and politicians dressed up as cops at 1PP,NYPD Headquarters.

Not one of the rape crisis centers did the right thing.

I am aware that right,just and noble is forbidden within The Parasitic Entity,however looking after Anne Frank was also forbidden in occupied Amsterdam.

However some people stood up for what is right,just and noble.

That took moral integrity and moral integrity is sadly lacking within The Parasitic Entity.

A Presidential election next week,if he was not constitutionally bared that wooden idiot Schwarzenegger would already be President.

He blows shit up in his crappy movies,that is enough for people within The Parasitic Entity to elect him President if they could.

The election came and went,thank fuck the moron won.

Trump may be as dumb as a bag of rocks and comes across as the love child of Ming The Merciless and Roy Cohn.

However he has one redeeming quality,his name is not Hilary Clinton.

I reference this below,however I will put it up here also,if you hail from The Parasitic Entity hopefully a foreign national can explain it to you.

Words of wisdom from Martin Niemoller that are profound and prophetic.

" First they came for the Socialists and I did not speak out as I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists and I did not speak out as I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews and I did not speak out as I was not Jew.

Then they came for me and there was no one left to speak for me "

I guess his words are beyond those that failed children my late daughters charity would have aided and myself.

However if I got my money back I expect a slew of emails with give me give me give me.

Those that failed me will only get 2 words from me,FUCK OFF.

However if I got my money back,I would buy 3 shiny red Ferrari's for Jean-Pierre,Carol and MPD Carl,they were kind to me.

Alas the word kindness has been removed from Webster's in The Parasitic Entity.

Yesterday I swapped a few emails with an ex Federal Senator,83 years of age,no goodness within and would not know honor and integrity if they punched him on his nose.

I am sure he can respond to mindless Pavlovian stimuli and utter God Bless America,a nation of vulgar self obsessed morons lacking any vestige of integrity.

Surely it is time to retire Scott-Keys puerile vomit,The Star Spangled Banner.

If Dorothy and the Straw Man are okay with it " If I only had a brain" would be perfect as the national anthem for that pariah.

Within The Parasitic Entity the dumbest of the dumb are without doubt Texans,the mindless fucks utter God Bless America and tell their children violence is wrong whilst murdering people on death row.

I used to volunteer with attorneys that had clients the State wanted to murder.

I failed my JD but have a good knowledge of law.

I used to have a mental illness then called caring about other people.

The Parasitic Entity well and truly kicked that out of me.

All the years The Parasitic Entity stole from me,who came to my aid,NOBODY.

In theory I can get my money back,however I can never get back the 14 years of my life The Parasitic Entity stole from me.

I will never hear a child say Dad,I do not know how to trust,I could find a fellow basket case and we could make little basket cases,that is not how it should be.

Where I am White Trash brats sired by White Trash parents,that is not how it should be,I do not want to bring an unloved child into this world.

However love should equal 23 plus 23 equals magic,I do not know how any more.

I operate on adrenaline and hatred with one driving force,seeing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.

If America was a person and not a parasitic entity and took a PCL-R or was subject to a 730 hearing it would be considered psychotic and a sociopath.

As a nation it lacks empathy and they even codified their position as the school bully in the Monroe doctrine.

I was against the Death Penalty and yet if my pen had the power I would put an electric chair on the lawn of The White House and fry Obama.

However first I would fry his family and make him watch so he would know the pain and suffering he has caused me.

Restorative Justice with Promethean overtones,I am sure Mrs Doasyouaredoneby would approve.

The only power Clinton has to protect Gracen is the power Obama gives him.

History will remember Obama as an ineffectual buffoon and his Presidency as a non event.

8 years of nothingness,he never banned guns.

He did not even let an innocent black man out of jail,Mumia Abu-Jamal rots in jail as Uncle Tom plays in The White House.

I will remember him as a Black Hitler,he gave Clinton to power to protect Gracen and choreograph my psychological holocaust.

He is no towering intellect,however right and wrong is not about intellect.

I expect Dr King would be in tears if he was still alive that the first black President is in effect a male Stepford wife.

I do not take issue with that,I take issue with his depravity and perversity.

My justified hatred of The Parasitic Entity is akin to the hatred that a holocaust survivor would carry within his heart towards Nazi Germany.

Hatred is a learned response,The Parasitic Entity taught me to hate,people tend to hate what or whom abuses and violates them.

That fucking pariah The Parasitic States of America has abused and violated me for 14 years.

If I could I would personally pull the switch to fry Obama.

Talking of Nazi Germany,in another time and place every Judge I emailed over the last few weeks would author The Enabling Act of Nazi Germany if told to.

They lack moral integrity and introspection.

Think of The S.C.O.T.U.S.

9 morally bankrupt Chimps,what would Denning have to say about such dross if he was still alive?.

As a nation America lacks honor and integrity and has infected the planet with ignorance.

I asked a black Federal Judge why he thinks moral bankruptcy is endemic within The Parasitic Entity even within the judiciary.

He told me he disagrees with my premise then went on and deported himself in a morally and ethically bankrupt manner.

If one was to take emotion out of the loop and embrace a pure Hegelian Dialectic the world would be a better place if the crazies had blown The Parasitic Entity off the map on 911.

14 YEARS OF MY LIFE THAT PARIAH STOLE FROM ME.

This morning I was in tears that I am still alive,I long for death,however there is one thing and only 1 thing I want more in this world,I want to sit in a court room and see that obscenity Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.

I would carry a photo around of the Judge that sent Gracen to jail for the rest of my life and if I was ever felling sad I would gaze upon that photo and say thanks.

I have nothing,I even had a fucking obscenity a French Minister by the name of Marisol Touraine cancel my welfare payment.

Touraine is a fucking obscenity that could cost lives,what is somebody took their children's life and their own life after a depraved Minister cancels their welfare payment.

Touraine should be sitting in a jail cell in Fleury-Merogis,to abuse and violate a homeless man is utterly depraved.

I am sure the obscenity would say she is just doing what that sack of shit Hollande told her to do.

However I doubt Henri Vabres would accept such depraved reasoning.

Hollande being elected to office speaks volumes of how dumb this world has become.

Love them or hate them French Presidents come across with a certain aristocratic air,Hollande comes across like the manager of a K Mart in Iowa.

Fake plastic Socialist,I knew his kind 30 years ago in the UK,taking crap in the basement of The Fabian Society,selling Socialist Worker and misquoting Marx and Engels.

Somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself.

I have not known a day of happiness since Nov 8 th 2002 due to Gracen,my last day of happiness was taking the chopper from Vancouver to Victoria and The Empress a wonderful old CP hotel,I never even got to The Empress due to Gracen.

I noticed Scarlett Johanson in the French kiddy media today.

In theory I am sure playing Doctors and Nurses with her would be great fun.

However on reflection it would not be great fun,what on earth could I talk to her about post coital,she picked Team Bruckheimer not Team Hepburn,she never picked up a phone and said how can I help Chris.

What I truly want to do is for a good and decent mensch to say to me get in the car Chris,we are going to get you a coffee and a puppy.

Somebody with a good and gentle noble heart that would march through the gates of hell clutching a copy of Von Clausewitz if it was the right thing to do.

The right thing to do,that dynamic is beyond The Parasitic Entity and those that fester within her.

The parasitic entity has infected the planet with vulgarity and self obsession.

The Parasitic Entity lacks moral integrity in every walk of life,even in medicine last week I contacted Jeffrey Drazen a morally bankrupt man that has the audacity to put M.D after his name.

He is the editor of The New England Journal Of Medicine,Quacks,Witch Doctors and Galenist's know more about the ethical precepts of medicine than Drazen.

Drazen turned his back on me and on the children my late daughters charity would have aided.

He turned his back on us as cowards turned their back on European Jewry that Dr Mengele experimented upon.

Just this week I have been in touch with politicians in The NL,it used to be a wonderful country.

225 Politicians not one of them carries any kindness,goodness or integrity within their heart.

As a nation The NL has become a self obsessed air head.

That is so sad,I used to live there from a dump in The Bijlmer to a nice apartment on the Prisengracht.

It used to be special there is a Dutch word that does not translate well.

Gezellig,think warm and fuzzy,Holland is no longer Gezellig.

America destroyed the integrity and compassion that once lived within the NL.

The actions of 225 politicians in her Parliament suggest that in another time and place at best they would turn their back on Anne Frank and at worst they would tell The Nazis we will tell you where Anne Frank is if you give us an I Phone.

That is sad,The NL used to work well and as a nation it carried compassion and integrity within its heart.

Now the NL lacks integrity and compassion they march up and down the Kalverstraat and consume as de facto Americans.

Andre Hazes Amsterdam is no more.

I knew Andre and he told me stories about how after he became well known people came out of the woodwork with give me give me give me.

If I get my money back I will have the same to deal with,only 3 people would get anything from me,a French man a French lady from Menton and a British pianist with MPD.

They showed me kindness,kindness what a wonderful word and emotion one that has all but been removed from this world by The Parasitic Entity.

All over the world people have lost their sense of integrity,their sense of right and wrong due to The Parasitic Entity.

A few days ago a Reality TV chimp was either robbed at gunpoint in Paris or it was staged for publicity,they stole millions in jewels,this woman and her husband have zero talent,how can zero talent make millions to buy such jewelry is beyond me.

There was a woman from Idaho that I carried a torch for,this woman has millions but would not even give me a sandwich as I cried myself to sleep on the streets of Paris,11 years later not even a sorry Chris,that is the parasitic entity for you.

Christmas day 2005 I was so sure she would have been there for me,the emails I sent her would have had a toaster in tears.
 

Nothing inside her for all her money she is vulgar self obsessed white trash as white trash in Chanel is still white trash.

All these years later not even a sorry Chris let alone how can I help.

America's ignorance and vulgarity has infected the planet,it cannot be fixed.

I want no part of this world,I want Walden's Pond in Tuscany,I want to drink coffee with somebody that says to me,I am here for you Chris how can I help.

However the only thing my heart craves and the only thing that stops me from taking my own life is a dream of that abomination growing old and dying in a jail cell.

I want to sit on the CH side of Mont Blanc and listen to Pachelbel's Cannon and know as I am doing that Gracen suffers in a jail cell.

I will close this preamble by rewriting the utterance's of the mindless,God Fuck America.

If anybody anywhere can do the right thing SWIFT me or say get in the car Chris.

This preamble in red is my last update,I will despise those that failed me until I the day I die.

All I want to do is nail the door closed and never be seen again,this world is wrong,mans inhumanity towards man is wrong,mans lack of compassion is wrong.

America has destroyed the planet with ignorance,vulgarity and self obsession.

I am so ill,the medicine I need is not in a Merck,I need compassion,decency and integrity.

Not a day goes by when I do not think of my daughter,Anastasia Paris,murdered by her own Mother.

I told Gracen everything and Gracen took everything and left me to die on the streets of Paris,my hatred of that woman is all that keeps me alive,however after hating Gracen I hate myself for loving it,I should have known better.

If I ever recovered funds only 25 percent belong to me,75 percent always belonged to the needy.

That 75 percent would go direct to the homeless in 5k chunks,the first and last thing my late daughters charity would do fix the homeless problem in Paris.

75 percent of what Gracen stole never belonged to me,it always belonged to the needy.

A homeless convention in Notre Dame where funds would be handed out and we get to annoy a sack of shit called Andre 23 The Cardinal of Paris that has the audacity to call himself a man of God.

The homeless in Paris have nobody,scum like Hollande and Mayor Puta of Paris call themselves Socialists whilst leaving the homeless to die on the streets like rejects from a Delacroix painting.

Finally I am so fucking disgusted with the media and a news black out.

One cannot expect any better from Murdoch's chimps.

The person I despise the most is Christiane Amanpour,she has seen the blood and should know right from wrong.

I have never hit a woman in my life and I am a man of peace,however if I could have a sex change for the day I would so I could punch that depraved woman out.

I am so very ill,where I am at the moment is is Hick Central,that is not what bothers me,what bothers me is these toxic hicks would watch somebody bleed to death and not lift a finger to help.

I crave civilized moral people.

Of all the people in this world one man or possibly a woman I want to talk to,I want to talk with the Concierge in The Danieli this wonderful hotel in Venice.

I want to ask the Concierge where the animal shelter is,get a dog and walk and throw a ball for the dog,that is the medicine I need,not in a Merck or that comic a DSM.

Just taking a dog for a walk and watching Mother Earth do her thing.

I would be doing that yesterday if that sack of shit from Idaho felt some guilt and shame,disgusting woman.

I poured my heart out to her via email about my late daughter about Gracen and her actions or rather lack of actions said fuck off and die Chris.

If anybody can do the right thing,you know what to do,however I tend to think Cobweb Clooney has more chance of cloning himself so he can look into his cloned eyes and say you are amazing George,Fuck Me.

Out of words GOD FUCK AMERICA.

If anybody can do the right thing SWIFT me or say get in the car,I just want to nail the door closed never be seen again and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney.

Depth and compassion got me nowhere,maybe being a male valley girl like Cobweb Clooney will.

My last sentence all I want is to sit in a court room and see that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail,watching that woman go to jail would be like winning every lottery on the planert and sleeping with Ford's and Elites list one after another.

If I was a little old man on my death bed and somebody asked me what I think of the US the hatred and venom would still be in my heart.

All I want to do is go to Italy and take a dog for a walk,I would be doing that yesterday if that sack of shit from Idaho or anybody from The Parasitic Entity felt any guilt and shame and helped me.

That would take moral and ethical integrity and that parasitic nation has no understanding of such things.

I have been tweaking this over the last few days,finished now,I was looking on Ebay yesterday,noticed a KH750 I wanted to get on it and never be seen again.

I also noticed this Lipizanner for sale,for sale,I can buy neither and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself.

It is almost Christmas,my last Christmas was 2001 in The Bev Wil a hotel in LA.

I have not known Christmas since then,I have not known a day of happiness since Nov 8 th 2002.

I told somebody a few weeks ago I am anhedonic,that is not true in the clinical sense,I have not known any happiness since Nov 8th 2002.

To embrace an allegory if Rambo punches you on the nose you feel sad,if Julia Roberts takes her panties off and invites you to play you feel happy.

The Parasitic Entity has punched me on the nose day in day out since Nov 8 th 2002.

I waste my time saying this,however if anybody can feel and guilt or shame say get in the car Chris or SWIFT me.

All I want in this world is JUSTICE and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail.

This Christmas I just want to be so far away from the mindless that are busy with self obsession,playing with their I Phones and posting drivel on Facebook.

Lastly if anybody has the cell number of that sack of shit from Idaho,let me have it,insulting that woman would be so cathartic.

Out of words,so utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,children have died due to Gracen and the mindless are running around the mall like the love child of George Romero,mindless fucking zombies.

I am so very ill,the "medicine" I need is to be on the back of a horse that I would name Dr Ronnie Laing and be in the middle of nowhere.

One last paragraph for my old friend from Malibu,for years I have hoped you would see this and help me.

I have no idea where you are,nothing on your TRW for 6 years,no utils in LA or NYC,guess you finally went somewhere nice.

Please if you are reading this forgive me for what happened on Coldwater Canyon all of those years ago.

I was thinking of you a few nights ago,watching something set in N.O,remember stumbling around the Garden District with you drunk looking for the house we had borrowed,remember seeing who could keep a Yat accent going the longest.

Remember you saying all the houses are like people from WV they all look the same.

Happy Times.

Please if you are reading this help me.

If I cannot cry on your shoulder and kvetch,SWIFT me,I know a nice place to rent near Florence.

I am so utterly at my wits end,I just had a hick give me an attitude,part of me felt like screaming leave me the fuck alone in French.

However I did not,I bit my tongue this woman does not know any better she has the  social skills of a rock.

However I expect she is happier than I am in her mindless hick eco system.

I crave civilized cultured people not ignorant hicks,so fucking sick of people that come across as rejects from deliverance.

Please if you are reading this,I want a shoulder to cry on,I would not make a pass at you trying to rekindle what we once had,I am no good to you or anybody anymore.

If you cannot give me your shoulder please SWIFT me,I know a wonderful place 5 miles from town in between Pisa and Florence I can rent.

I am sorry about what happened,what can I say apart from I was young and stupid.

Please if you are reading this help me,I just want to go somewhere so far away from the mindless,the vile and the vulgar and try and finish my book.

Please if you are reading this a poxy 20k would help,I could rent a place in Italy and pay a man back in France I owe money to.

I am so utterly at my wits end,in tears again this morning that I am still alive,like that most mornings,all that keeps me alive is my hatred of Gracen and a dark primal need to see it go to jail.

I am in this awful town where they would watch you bleed to death and not lift a finger to help.

Peoples lack of humanity and integrity makes me want to puke.

Just yesterday in touch with an ex Doctor from Canada that now works for a man who's office violated me in 2002.

I had hoped this woman may have remembered some of the moral,ethical and philosophical precepts of medicine,however she is fucking vile.

I also contacted a Walter Mitty Type from New Brunswick,20 years ago I talked him through a business deal where he made about 100k,when I needed help it was fuck you,not in words but in actions or rather a lack of actions.

I have been in touch with a couple of hicks in a hick town I spent a few years in as a teenager.

I could not break bread with either of them they failed moral integrity,however I feel for them,one is messed up he thinks "THEY" are trying to kill him with AL powder.

The other a Facebook Revolutionary with a sign my petition,10 years younger than I,has the potential to be a writer but to wrapped up in herself.

The world is so banal,Kent State,Danny The Fake,May 68 is long gone,mindless drivel like sign my petition on change.org today.

I could not break bread with either of them,however I the fucked up guy feels sorry for them.

Who the fuck feels sorry for me.

I also emailed a writer that penned an enchanting book in the 70's.

I would have thought the character in the book would have done the right thing given how he deported himself.

The author failed to do the right thing,in another time and place he would have been cowering under his bed as Hitler murdered 6 million,he has no honor or integrity.

I think of that scum Moore,she is sick in the fucking head,however it poses the question what the fuck was the matter with me for being drawn to her,it is akin to a holocaust survivor being drawn to Ilse Koch.

20cm of snow in Val Thorens,would love to go and ski,it costs money,I have nothing,Gracen has everything.

I will not keep updating this,I am so ill,I can never get well,all it can ever be about for me is degrees of functionality.

Step 1 in achieving a greater degree of functionality would be to order a coffee in The Danieli.

Step 2 would be nailing the door closed and never being seen again,it is not that often The Cesspool By The Sea gets it right.

One time they got it right is an enchanting movie "Under The Tuscan Sun"

She restored the cottage and her heart,that is what I need to do.

I am so very ill,if you are reading this please find it in your heart to forgive me and help me.

My last sentences for you,today I would love to go to The Elysee and punch out that sack of shit Hollande "Therapy" whilst shouting pay me my welfare you owe me.

France has abused and violated me for years on the streets,not only did France fail to pay her debt a sack of shit Marisol Touraine canceled my welfare.

Some Romanian scum tried to mug me when I was asleep on the streets,I would not have been on the streets if France had paid her debt to me.

I chased them away I could not have done that if they dropped a rock on my head.

Punching Hollande out would be so cathartic,however I would end up in La Sante,not a good idea.

The "therapy"I need is to be in the middle of nowhere on the back of a horse.

I put my headphones on earlier to drown out toxic white trash brats,if I had a little magic wand I would have Debretts publish a guide "Social Graces For White Trash".

If I had a big magic wand I would send them to Roedean and Winchester to teach them social graces.

I the screwed up guy would use the magic wand for kindness,you do not need a magic wand for kindness.

You just need to press a few buttons and SWIFT me.

I was thinking something a few nights ago,I had an old school friend Paul A,dumb as a bag of rocks,clinically E.S.N.

However a really nice guy,I want to be a moron like Paul A rather than a screwed up intellectual.

Morons can never get hurt emotionally,please and I will not be updating this again,if you are reading this help me.

PLEASE and this is the last sentence,if you are reading this help me.

Just want to get away from WT and get on a horse.

NOTHING LEFT TO SAY.

I do have one last thing to say,my last Christmas was with you in The Bev Wil.

I have not had a Christmas since then,I want this Christmas PLEASE.

I have one last thought for you,we never know what tomorrow will bring.

De mortuis nil nisi bonum and all of that,however yesterday a Canadian writer died,he was a remarkable writer,however he failed to do the right thing when I called upon him to do the right thing.

If he ever pops into my head I will not be thinking of his body of work,I will be thinking that he failed to do the right thing.

He cannot do the right thing now as he is dead.

We did not know each other,we only knew of each other and shook hands once.

However about 6 weeks ago an Italian writer died,we did know each other.

We laughed and shared wine,he failed to do the right thing,my thoughts of him and not the wine and laughter that we shared but the fact that he failed to do the right thing.

I am pleading with you,if you are reading. this do THE RIGHT THING,I just want to get away from this WT and order a coffee in The Danieli.

In closing sorry again,forgive me and help me please,I am so very ill.

OUT OF WORDS

11 NOVEMBER

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All my years of hell at Gracen's hands I have only learned 2 things,there are more bad people than good people in this world and America is a cancer upon the planet.

I have received a few emails over the last few days asking if I pretended to be Peter Bart,I mention that below.

Yes I pretended to be Peter Bart,Bart is a vulgar knavish sack of shit that has spend his life doffing is cap to the major studios and writes like crap,he is no Andre Bazin.

Bart must be in his mid 80's by now,he will be dead soon and I want to dance a hopak on his grave and use his parietal cranium as an ashtray.

I despise Peter Bart the way a holocaust survivor would despise Julius Streicher,that obscenity Peter Bart was party to my psychological holocaust by killing a story about Gracen selling my show to Mr Celluloid Vomit Jerry Bruckheimer.

I have and never had any interest in The Cesspool By The Sea.(LA).

The industry does not impress me,Brando,Gielgud and Dietrich impressed me,they had class,honor and integrity.

Gielgud would not have been trying to sell overpriced coffee machines to terminally confused 30 something Vanity Fair readers (The mindless drivel put out by Chuck Townsend's Chimps at Conde Nast not Thackeray) like that fucking fake Cobweb Clooney.

I could could do Hamlet on my head whilst knitting a scarf and fucking Pammy Anderson.

I would never sell my soul to The Cesspool By The Sea.

LA knows as much about art as Cobweb Clooney knows about acting.

The fake has no range.

There is only one thing that interests me in this world and that is that abomination Elizabeth Gracen suffering in jail.

If I could have any job in this world,any job,I could be the asshole that runs that vile morally and ethically bankrupt company Apple,I could be the idiot on the 38th floor,I could be the asshole in 1600.

The job I would want,my dream job would be a Prison Guard in the jail that housed Gracen,double shifts,work holidays,weekends,watching that abomination Elizabeth Gracen suffer is the only job I want.

People that fail to do the right thing straight away are lost to me forever,if I owned a door it would be closed to them forever.

Few weeks ago I emailed a guy that had a few hits in the 80's.

He then became a junkie,got cleaned up and became a fat middle aged Queen.

He failed to do  the right thing,my door will always be closed to him.

I lost every friend I had as I was drunk between 1998 and 2002 after my daughter was murdered.

However I got in touch with 2 people that I did not wrong during my drunken years,one in NZ and one in a hick town in the UK.

I received friendly replies,however Mr Goldstein needed more than a friendly reply as the Nazi's murdered 6 million as do I,as do children in the 3 rd world that Gracen stole from vis a vis my late daughters charity.

Both of them are cowards,nothing they can do to redeem themselves,if I was walking past them and they were bleeding I would give them bandages and a hemostatic agent.

However I could never break bread with them.

I talk about Moore below,if her and I were the last 2 people in the world I would be jerking off rather than go near her.

There are some things in this world you only get one chance to get right,Martin Niemoller attests to that in "First They Came"

I also emailed 2 porn actresses troilism would have been therapeutic,however my email was professional not sexual,they  failed to do the right thing.

My door will always be closed to them and anybody that does not do the right thing straight away.

Honor and integrity demands it,without honor and integrity what are you?.

You are a de facto American a mindless vulgar morally bankrupt automaton.

Bonobo chimps know more about moral and ethical sensibilities than American's.

Bonobos use sex as a tool in conflict resolution,America drops bombs on innocent children,Bonobo's fuck.

Who is smarter?.

It could also be debated that using the true clinical definition of the word sentience that most Americans are not even sentient.

I have more emails asking why I hate America,see below however to be brief here.

The Fucking Pariah has stolen 14 years and counting from me,they are gone forever,if Uncle Tom found The Ethics Fairy in his cornflakes he cannot sign an EO and give me back the 14 years his parasitic nation has stolen from me.

I would like to put Uncle Tom (Obama) in an electric chair on The Ellipse and pull the fucking switch and watch the cunt fry.

Think of a guard in Auschwitz that is murdering Jews,his power comes from Hitler.

Where does Clinton's power to protect Gracen come from?,It comes from Uncle Tom,Obama.

I despise The Parasitic States of America and Uncle Tom the way a holocaust survivor would despise Hitler and Nazi Germany.

The pariah of a nation has stolen 14 years of my life from me I can never get back.

Watching Uncle Tom fry in the electric chair would be cathartic similar to a collective catharsis experienced by the worlds Jewry after Eichmann was hanged.

Obama and Eichmann have the same depraved souls,by soul I mean a sense of self not Christian Judaic drivel.

Is that sick?,I think not Harel went after Eichmann the dynamic is the same.

America is a cancer that has infested the planet with ignorance and vulgarity,a cancer lacking in honor and integrity.

If America was a person and not a parasitic pariah of a nation and it took a PCL-R it would be considered psychotic.

America has taken all the honor and integrity out of this world and replaced it with vulgarity,ignorance and self obsession.

When I was a kid British Television was awful,things like Coronation Street,an awful soap opera with 1 script and a horrendous regional accent.

I used to look forward to watching Star Trek,even that today is drivel,the last 3 Star Trek movies have not had a real director.

That Pariah of a nation has fucked up the planet,the mindless will be in line shortly for their I Phone 7's overpriced crap that does not even have a keyboard.

Apple's business model is the same as a crack dealer standing on the corner of 161st and Broadway,and the sheep say bah bah bah to Apple.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth that in the allegorical sense murdered Puff The Magic Dragon in the name of the almighty dollar and vulgarity and ignorance.

Even students today,mindless chimps that at best post on mindless drivel like change.org and tell themselves they are activists,Kent State,Danny The Fake and May 68 are long gone.

America is a spiritual level 4 Pathogen that has propagated her ignorance almost like cell mitosis,the pariah's ignorance is everywhere.

The latest drivel with Pokomon Go,people embrace vacuity as if it is a gift,it is not a gift it is cancer called America.

All I want is justice and to get so far away from the vile and the vulgar,find my own Walden's Pound and try and finish a book I started 18  years ago,and know that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is suffering the way it has made me suffer since Nov 8 the 2002

There is nothing left inside me,I operate on lower brain function,adrenaline and a hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and a need for justice.

I think of that fucking obscenity Moore,11 years later not even a sorry Chris.

If that woman was dying before me and I had a tablet in my hand  that would save her life my reply to her

" fuck off and die,where were you when I was crying myself to sleep under bridges in Paris,where the fuck were you when I would spend the few Euros I got begging in an internet cafe emailing you rather than buying food,where the fuck were you during my years on the streets?"

All the people that ignored my cries over the years are dead to me forever,I would not even call 911 if they were bleeding to death.

There are things in this world that cannot be atoned for.

I am so fucking ill,overwhelmed with cruelty and depravity.

I was in tears a few weeks ago,I emailed somebody half American and half Spanish,in another life watching the candlelight dance in her eyes as she told me my Spanish is awful would have been enchanting.

We do not know each other,we only know of each other,she turned out to be an idiot.

However if she had have turned out to be a wonderful person I could not have asked her out,I am dead inside,no good to anybody.

Then I was in tears when I realized that if she had have been a good person and asked me out,all I could say is not a good idea I am damaged goods.

All I want in this world is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail.

I  am so fucking ill,Gracen did not just take my money Gracen took my health.

I will with the exception of idiots like Amnesty International or the inept like UNICEF or the corrupt like RSF.ORG or Committee To Protect Journalists fund any charity that shows a little integrity and stands up for what is right.

Also 36 should investigate RSF for fraud,they are disgusting people.

However you need to grow a backbone and help me recover the monies that abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole from my late daughters charity,we are talking millions.

I quoted this to somebody this morning,it will be beyond Americans,however.

Aurelius," waste no time arguing what a good man should be,be one.

Children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity,ethical charities should be outraged.

All I want to do is sit under Mont Blanc,listen to Pachelbel's Cannon,hold onto the ostinato and let my mind wander with the other voices and know Gracen in suffering in a jail cell.

So much money is wasted by the inept playing at charity.

We have scum like Ken Roth The CEO of Human Rights Watch a pointless charity that just authors banal report after banal report take 340 K USD a year from donated funds as a salary.

Utterly Obscene,however if any " REAL" charities stand up for what is right,just and noble I will fund you.

That offer is only to charities I have not contacted.

I will despise charities that failed me and the children my late daughters charity would have aided until the day I die.

Also I would give nothing except a pride of lions to any christian charity,christian hypocrisy makes me want to puke.

I also doubt I would give anything to Africa any more,this is not racist this is behavioral.

Their own Diplomats do not care,they are busy "playing" in that big building in NYC where everybody talks crap,The UN.

I have also been in touch with African media they failed to do the right thing.

I also stuck up posters in African areas of Paris and the people there do not care about their own.

Also I have been very vocal in many quarters a lot of Africans want to get a look at me and not one walked up to me and said hello Chris how can I help.

Any charity that wants funding need's to get off your ass like Jean Moulin and his contemporaries did,doing the right thing and all of that.

I think of another charity that is overstaffed The WFP you could fire half the staff and use that money on aid and still be overstaffed.

However what I find sad is that Aunt Jemima,Ertharin Cousin the head of the WFP is morally and ethically bankrupt.

Anybody running any charity should crap honor and integrity and understand the wants,needs and desires of the people Piaf sings about in Les Momes De La Cloche.

If any charity wants to do the right thing get in touch.

If that does not work for you,fuck off and get in line at The Apple Store,a new dummy/pacifier an I Phone 7 is waiting for you.

As I said this offer is only to charities I have not contacted,those that ignored by cries make my skin crawl.

If only I was a lesbian that could not go to the high school prom,I expect that fucking buffoon Susan Herman and fellow buffoons at The ACLU would have helped me.

What an utter waste of money The ACLU is.

No common sense at work at The ACLU.

This world is wrong I want no part of it,I see Robert Titania De Guinea (De Niro) is at The Sarajevo Film Festival,busy being important.

However he was not there during The Siege of Sarajevo,I was so idiots like De Niro could pick up a news paper and utter what a shame.

He is a talented actor,not a talented human being,he lacks the backbone to stand up to Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer.

A talented actor that I think could do classical stage if he could get his vowels out of the gutter,however as a human being he is morally and ethically bankrupt.

I expect like most people in the industry he knows my property that Gracen sold to Bruckheimer was meant to supply food and meds for children in the 3 rd world.

Lastly as for people that want to email and tell me I seem angry or I am screwed up.

Do not bother,angry is an understatement I am livid,if I could I would burn The White House to the ground with Uncle Tom in it,1814 Part 2.

The only power Clinton has to protect Gracen from prosecution is the power Uncle Tom gives him.

I expect a holocaust survivor would want to burn the Reichstag to the ground with Hitler in it.

That sack of shit Uncle Tom is my Hitler,my blood and the blood of children my late daughters charity would have aided is all over his hands.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth that has stolen 13 years of my life from me,for what so Clinton could have his putrid pox ridden dick sucked by a 2 bit actress from Arkansas.

I despise the abomination of a nation from my toe nails up.

I am going to buy a jar of coffee now,alas they do not sell Cobalt 60 at the supermarket,what I truly want to buy are some nails so I can nail the door closed and never be seen again.

However I do not own a fucking door,that obscenity Elizabeth Gracen took every penny I had and left me to die on the streets of Paris.

I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,the one I despise most is Moore,millions in the bank but she would read my emails and do nothing as I was crying myself to sleep under bridges in Paris.

My daughter was murdered by her own Mother,4 years I was drunk,I gave my heart to that fucking abomination Elizabeth Gracen but it wanted my money.

It stole millions from my late daughters charity and myself and left me to die on the streets of Paris.

I poured my heart out to that sack of shit Moore,with millions in the bank Moore read my emails and did nothing.

10 years on and off  France abused and violated me and that abuse culminated with a sack of shit Minister by the name of Marisol Touraine canceling my welfare payment.

I can draw an historical parallel to the actions of that vulgar sack of shit Marisol Touraine and voter registration in the south of the Parasitic States of America leading up to the passage of the 64 Civil Rights Act.

Bunch of good ole crackers refusing to register black people to vote and administering arbitrary tests and 9 times out of 10 still not registering black people to vote.

I passed all the fucking tests CAF(WELFARE DEPT) subjected me to due to that sack of shit Marisol Touraine and the sack of shit cancels my welfare payment.

Something else that speaks of the lack of moral integrity in modern France.

I doubt they could have done anything as they are local government and that scum Marisol Touraine is L'Etat in essence Federal Government.

However that is not quite true,maybe they could not have done anything so that sack of shit Marisol Touraine paid me what I am legally entitled too.

However honor and integrity does not require a mandate,as people like Jean Moulin and Raoul Wallenberg's actions attested to.

Estrosi and Ciotti are without honor and integrity,their lack of moral integrity suggests that is another time and place they would have been Vichy Dross with Laval and Petain rather tan honorable men with De Gaulle and The Free French.

I have been in touch with Christian Estrosi and Eric Ciotti.

I know nothing about Ciotti apart from the fact he is a coward and or self obsessed,Estrosi is a sack of shit that has The Pretend Police,The Nice Municipal Police abuse and violate the homeless.

I had one of Estrosi's thugs from The Nice Municipal Police jump all over my cardboard sign Work Wanted/Je Cherche Travail.

My crime being homeless,in another time and place being Black or being Jewish was considered a crime.

Estrosi is the Mayor of Nice and Ciotti is the head of the regional council,they did nothing to help me just as their kind of yesteryear  did nothing to help France's Jewry as Laval and Petain doffed their cap to Hitler and rounded them up to be murdered.

France has learned nothing from her darkest hour,That sack of shit Marisol Touraine has my phone number,my email and my bank info to pay what she owes me and I get nothing.

Many years ago I lived in Donegal in Ireland and I was told by a Liam Ward the head of housing at Donegal Council we do not want your kind or niggers here,one cannot expect any better from Ireland,I however expected better from France.

I cannot help but wonder what Dr King would say about the first Black President being morally and ethically bankrupt and using his office to judicially violate people.

I am not angry,I am fucking livid,all that keeps me breathing is my hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and a dream of seeing it suffer the way it has made me suffer since Nov 8 th 2002.

All off of these years of pain  and suffering who stood up and came to my aid,NO FUCKER,who came to the aid of the children my late daughter charity would have aided,NO FUCKER.

I  would need more words than Richardson used in Clarissa to describe just how livid I am.

That sack of shit Moore with millions in the bank would not even give me a fucking sandwich as I cried myself to sleep under bridges in Paris.

I have tweaked this for the last time on Aug 19 TH,nice weather today,great day to punch Hollande out,buy a Ducati Monster and show Scarlett Johanssen my orgasmatron,however I would settle for drinking coffee with somebody wit a moral backbone.

I will not be tweaking or updating this again,I am so utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed.

Anybody I have not reached out that can "DO" moral integrity get in touch,it goes without saying such a person will not hail from The Parasitic States of America.

Back to The Parasitic Entity The USA.

It lacks moral integrity in every walk of life.

The progenitors of America were the dregs of European Society,that goes back to Emma Lazarus and her poem

" Throw me your retards yearning to fuck something up"

The 4 th of July the birth of the pariah I got a present from a Russell Green of The New York Police department the present was an email that stated " Fuck You " to protect and serve,excuse me whilst I vomit I would not entrust The NYPD with the welfare of a goldfish.

The NYPD are totally and utterly lacking in honor and integrity they do not engender any trust or respect,in another time and place they would round up Jews to be murdered in Nazi Germany.

They lack introspection and a systemic sense of right and wrong that lives within the hearts of good and noble people.

Donut munching schlub's that do what they are told,they could do with a little Richard Bach or Jostein Gaarder,maybe that would enkindle a little thought and integrity.

Sorry Chris how can I help is beyond Green and the entire NYPD.

Talking of cops when I was a kid British Cops used to help people and a lot of them taught integrity and morality by example.

Those days are long gone,The Metropolitan Police just arrest bad guys now,help and integrity is no more.

If The Metropolitan Police needed a new slogan " We Cannot Be Bothered " would be perfect.

As an organization The Metropolitan Police has no honor or integrity,that is sad.

When I was a kid yes assholes like The SPG kicking the crap out of black guys,however when I was a kid most British Cops crapped integrity,those days are long gone.

I knew a cop when I was a kid,he was like a Father to me,he will be spinning in his grave at how cold and empty the British Police are today.

Moving On.

I wonder what Dr King or Rosa Parks would have to say about the first black President being morally and ethically bankrupt.

The only power Clinton has to protect Gracen from prosecution is the power Uncle Tom (Obama) gives him.

I have no hidden agenda,all I want is JUSTICE and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail and I want to nail the door closed never be seen again and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney.

Depth and compassion got me nowhere,maybe being a Male Valley Girl like Clooney will.

I talk about this below,why do I hate America as people ask via email,I despise the fucking pariah from my toe nails up.

Why did Holocaust Survivors hate Nazi Germany,that is my hatred of America,the pariah choreographed my psychological holocaust.

The first  thing I do every morning is check the media and hope the 911 wackos have taken The White House and Uncle Tom out.

Does that sound sick?,I think not a Holocaust Survivor would say the same thing about Nazi Germany.

As for the Presidential Election,Donald Trump is a semi literate moron that makes Bush seem like an intellectual,however I would carry Trump to The White House on my back to keep that abomination Clinton out of The White House.

Trump is a moron,however he has never abused or violated me.

President Affirmative Action,Uncle Tom has.

The man is a morally and ethically bankrupt obscenity.

Lastly I will close with an allegory,I do not agree with Israeli Foreign Policy namely

" Fuck With Them Before They Fuck With Us"

However I understand it,Jews have been fucked with for so long.

That fucking pariah The USA fucked with me for 13 years.

As Shylock said Prick Us Do We Not Bleed,I have been spiritually exsanguinated by that pariah the USA.

Israel as a nation could not care about anybody else,they told me to fuck off when I wanted to go to Jerusalem to finish my book.

History kicked their kindness out of them,That pariah the USA kicked my kindness out of me.

As I say below I just want to nail the door closed and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney,depth and compassion got me nowhere,maybe being a male valley girl like Clooney will.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth,I see they murdered The Chelsea Hotel,I used to live there,it was once so special.

Stanley the owner was a gentleman,The hotel was murdered by property developers.

That is America for you an abomination of a nation.

I tweaked this on July 5 th 2016,for the last time,nothing left to say apart from I am utterly disgusted with cowards,the self obsessed,France,Moore,I am also disgusted with Pinch at The NYT.

Pinch's Father was a man of honor and integrity that bled ink,the vile spawn of his loins Pinch would not know integrity if it fell out of the heavens and landed before him.

I can hear a plane above at V4 how I wish I was on a plane going to Ubud to play with the monkeys.

Maybe you think this is sick,however would not a holocaust survivor say the same about Hitler,Uncle Tom is my Hitler.

If I had a magic wand,I would use that magic wand to give all his family cancer,I would also use that magic wand to make him live to be a 1000 years.

He would then know the pain and suffering he has caused me.

Restorative justice with Promethean Overtones.

This world is wrong,America has taken all the honor,decency and integrity out of this world.

All I want in this world is JUSTICE and Gracen suffering in jail.

I talk about her below,this woman from Idaho I used to pour my heart out to about Gracen and my late daughter,she was the only thing I ever wanted in this world.

However the version I wanted was a construct within my heart,in truth Moore is  a vulgar woman that has iced water in her veins,White Trash in Channel is still White Trash.

I showed her my soul,by soul I mean a sense of self,not Christian Judaic drivel.

She could not show me hers,it was removed to make way for Juvaderm.

Over 10 years later,not even a sorry Chris.

Now I would not piss on her if she was on fire,she failed me,she has millions but so dark and ugly on the inside.

How that woman could read my Emails with millions in the bank do nothing and crawl into a warm bed as I was crying myself to sleep under a bridge is beyond me.

I crave somebody else that does not exist,I crave the person that came running to my aid uttering I am here for you Chris.

I will never forgive those that failed me and I will not be changing this anymore,I waste my time saying this,however if anybody can do the right thing start with how can I help Chris.

I am ill,the medicine I need is not in a Merck,I need to sit down and drink coffee with a decent human beings that are morally outraged at a woman stealing from charity.

Everything below predates this is red and I will not be updating this anymore.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me and children in the 3 rd world that my late daughters charity would have aided,I will despise such people until the day I die.

I have an envelope with about 8 places scribbled on the back,thats it ran out of people to email looking for justice.

My last emails speak volumes about what a vulgar morally bankrupt pariah the USA truly is,I emailed simians masquerading as Professors of law in alleged august law schools.

Not one of them has any vestige of moral integrity,they pump out self obsessed dross,the smart guys will bill 80 to 100 hours a week for dross like DLA Piper and the dummies will chase ambulances.

So far I have emailed every Professor (SIC)(RECTE CHIMP) at 29 law schools not one of them has any vestige of moral integrity

That is America a cancer upon Mother Earth.

America is a cancer upon the planet,Clinton or Trump for President both morally and ethically bankrupt uneducated dross.

Surely The Presidency should not be an ADA hire.

Susan Sontag would have made a good President,I knew her,very intense at times.

However she called it as it was as do I, as does Nicky Marotta from Times Square one of my desert island movies.

I was happy then,I think back,to The Blitz Club and The Kit Kat Club,I had my garbage bag and I would put on a Brooklyn Accent.

Egan and Strange did something special at The Blitz.

An eclectic bunch of people,we all looked out for each another,everybody got old,even George O'Dowd looks like Hilda Ogden these days.

Decent Times and good people,Ted Knight in The Peoples Popular Republic of Lambeth.

Today dross like Boris Johnson and now somebody called Kahn who's parents made it off the Banana Boat,Knight cared,Kahn does not even care about children from Pakistan they are his kith and kin.

I will never know happiness again due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

I have nothing left to say,I will close with an allegory,a movie by De Sica,it will be beyond Americans,the movie was called The Bicycle Thief,I want my bicycle back.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me.

Some things in this world cannot be forgiven.

If anybody can do the right thing start with how can I help Chris.

Everything below predates this,out of words unless dross like Simon and Shyster or RH give me 6 figures.

Lastly and this is my last sentence ever if anybody has Moore,s current cell number let me have it,insulting that woman would be so cathartic.

My last sentence ever,Shame on you Moore,somewhere deep down in that toxic heart of yours you know I would not have failed you,you know I could not have climbed into a warm bed and have done nothing if you were crying yourself to sleep under bridges in Paris.

I have emails asking why do I hate America,who knows maybe because the Pariah stole 13 years of my life from me.

America is a " Hostis Humani  Generis " that has committed an act of Cultural Genocide against the planet.

July 18 18.51 Z

I am so very ill,my daughter was murdered by my partner,the woman I thought I would grow old with took every penny I had and left me to die on the streets,a woman from Idaho that I would pour my heart out to about Gracen and my late daughter failed me and she has millions.

I keep hoping she will feel some guilt and shame and throw some money at me and I can go and play with the monkeys in Ubud,however she never will,for all of Moore's money she is dark,ugly and vulgar on the inside.

I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering for 13 plus years and nobody had the decency to come to my aid.

There is one thing and one thing alone in this world I want more than death,I want to sit in a court room and see that fucking abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.

Nobody stood up and came to my aid,nobody stood up and came to the aid of children in the 3 rd world that Gracen stole from.

I ache to get out of France,Dreyfus,Vichy and now Hepburn,I could treat no living thing the way France has treated me.

I would not know how to be so depraved.

France has subjected me to years of psychological terrorism.

I just want to get out of France and wash away the stench of France's depravity and cruelty from my heart and soul.

An abomination by the name of Elizabeth Gracen stole millions from my late daughters charity and myself and left me to die upon the streets of Paris.

I am homeless I am also emotionally and spiritually dead due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

My late daughters charity was flawed,in 13 years I have learned we are a mistake we being the human race.

An ideal charity would have been we will give you an I Phone is you get sterilized.

I am 51 years or age,the only thing I ever wanted in this world never existed,there was a woman from Idaho,but she never existed,I turned white trash into a renaissance woman in my heart.

I would pour my heart out to her via email as I lived under a bridge about Gracen and about my murdered daughter,she has a lot of money but she failed me.

10 years later she has no even said sorry let alone helped me,White Trash in Channel is still White Trash.

Christmas Day 2005 as begged on the Blvd St Germain I waited and I waited for her,so sure she would have come to my aid,I will never ever forgive her.

There is nothing inside Moore,no center of integrity or compassion,no guilt or shame,no sorry Chris.

I would not want her if she was the last woman on the planet,all I would see is a woman that failed me.

However she could feel some guilt and shame and throw some money at me so I can get out of this toxic vulgar country,however she never will.

She has had so many chances to redeem herself and failed time and time again.

The only thing I want is justice and to get out of France,I once loved France,however after all the abuse and psychological torture I hate France from my toe nails up.

I would give an arm and a leg to go mano a mano with that sack of shit Francois Hollande.

I challenged that sack of shit Hollande to a duel.

First blood with a foil,like any coward he is hiding under his bed or rather hiding behind The Republican Guard.

This is my challenge to Hollande in the vein of Zola's J'Accuse

Hollande, Je vous accuse d'ethiquement et moralement faillite.

Hollande, Je ne suis pas Emile Zola Je suis Chris Hepburn.

Je vous accuse egalement d'etre un lache,apres avoir refuse de vous battre en duel avec moi.

Je vous provoque a nouveau un duel au premier sang avec une epee.

Seul un lache refuserait de battre un duel.

Hollande,enfin je vous accuse de perversite  et depravation en utilisant votre postion pour atteinte a mes droits et en abuser moi.

J'exige satisfaction.

Chris Hepburn.

The coward was scared to fight a duel,if anybody wants to give Hollande a backbone

His Head Chimp in The Elysee is JEAN-PIERRE.JOUYET@ELYSEE.FR and the Head Chimp at The Quai D,Orsay is JEAN-MARC.AYRAULT@DIPLOMATIE.GOUV.FR

Maybe a Professional Idiot and Fake Socialist could facilitate installing the backbone HARLEM.DESIR@DIPLOMATIE.GOUV.FR

I am so fucking disgusted with France,years of my life France stole from me,even now not sorry Chris,that toxic sack of shit Marisol Touraine steals a benefit from me I am legally entitled to.

This world is wrong,talking of Diplomats,who the fuck in their right mind would make Boris Johnson The Foreign Secretary that is like Hitler issuing "Gets"

Johnson is vile,self obsessed and without honor and integrity,it was people of his ilk that raped the planet and committed genocide during the days of The British Empire.

I loved France once but Hollande is the scum of the earth,in a just and ethical world he would be tied to a tree outside The International Criminal Court and flogged.

I hate that obscenity Hollande the way a holocaust survivor would hate Hitler.

France no longer has the death penalty,or does it.

I suggest France sentenced me to death,I will not ramble,I am going somewhere with this.

Stress is a killer,I will die earlier due to all the psychological torture France has subjected me to.

France has subjected me to years of Psychological Terrorism there are no other words.

I talk about this below,however the last straw was this fucking obscenity by the name of Marisol Touraine,The Minister of Health.

France does not feel any guilt or shame for all the cruelty and depravity she has puked all over my heart and soul,France owes me.

Not only does France fail to pay her debt,that fucking obscenity Marisol Touraine cancels my Welfare payments.

Marisol Touraine should be sterilized,and those are not the words of a wacko that wants to start a eugenics commission.

Those are the words of a man that has been abused and violated by that fucking toxic sack of shit Marisol Touraine.

The Marisol Touraine's of this world make my skin crawl.

Hollande's entire cabinet are inept and are a satirists wet dream,they all lack honor and integrity.

However Touraine is fucking vile,not only does France fail to pay her debt,Touraine cancels benefits I am legally entitled to.

I loved France once,maybe Mr Goldstein loved Germany once but after the holocaust I expect he was disgusted with Germany.

I am disgusted with France and that vulgar sack of shit Hollande,France choreographed my psychological holocaust as a favor to the US.

I am in a toxic town at the moment,so many people know of my pain and suffering and all the depravity France has subjected me to.

Yet not a soul walks up to me and says my country has wronged you,how can I help Chris.

France has become a nation of de facto American's,late last night I hear car horns being blasted.

I wondered what happened,World Peace,has somebody cured AIDS,maybe Cancer,nothing so august,their football team won.

To be so dumb it matters what football team wins must be bliss.

France was once a learned and cultured nation.

France has become the 51 st state in the moral and intellectual sense,The French have become as dumb,vulgar and as ignorant as American's.

It is not just France,America has infested the planet with vulgarity and ignorance.

If I knew how to laugh I would be right now a 2 bit French actress is fucking Hollande for publicity,JUST SAD.

Moral Bankruptcy is endemic in modern France,even the 2 largest unions in France are morally and ethically bankrupt.

I loved France once,now I hate France the way a holocaust survivor would hate Nazi Germany.

I never ever thought I could say such a thing,but think of your sweet little old granny if somebody hit her enough times I expect she would be hiding behind the door with a stick.

However if somebody could wire me with C4 and get me into The Elysee I would go,I would look into Hollande's eyes and say fuck you and hit the switch.

Over 10 years of psychological abuse France has subjected me to,starting November 2005 as I slept outside the market on Blvd Magenta.

I suggest if you fuck with anybody long enoughthey would want to wire themselves with C4 and hit the switch and take out the scumbag that fucked with them.

I am so utterly disgusted with France.

France owes me,does France pay her debt,no that toxic low life cunt Marisol Touraine cancels my welfare payment.

Moral bankruptcy is endemic in France,even in Trade Unions that were once the voice of the people.

The head of both unions a Martinez and a Mailly are morally and ethically bankrupt cowards that are cut from the same cloth as those that did nothing as Laval's thugs rounded up Jews to be butchered under The Vichy Regime.

In all of these years of searching I only found one decent human being a man called Jean-Pierre.

Just last night I emailed a French actor,must be in his mid 60's now,I wanted him to feel guilt and shame for failing to do the right thing,I have no email from him,or text or phone call.

The lack of moral and ethical integrity in modern France is unbelievable,France has become a nation of French speaking American's.

I would however have plenty of people wanting to be my friend if I got my money back,however all they would get from me is " Fuck Off Scum,where were you when I needed help"

Also I would rather give money to junkies than to charity's where senior management are on 200k plus a year.

A junkie is honest he just wants to put shit up his arm,they do not "play" at caring like 99 percent of charity's do.

This world is just wrong,I see Elie Wiesel has died and the chimps with crayons are calling him a great humanitarian,Excuse whilst I vomit,he masturbated in ink and dined out on the Holocaust for decades.

If I was saying Kadish, "Fuck You".

He never called me up and said how can I help Chris.

He stood by as I was abused and violated as people stood by and did nothing except hang wringing as Evian

This world is just wrong.

I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering,however one thing I want more than death I want to see that obscenity Elizabeth Gracen rot in jail.

I also ache to get my hands on Hollande when he has left office and no longer has a CQP detail.

I rant and rave at times,my only outlet,the Republican Guard will not let me punch Hollande out,Scarlett Johansen will not fuck me,Mr Aston Martin will not give me a DB9 I rant to let the shit out.

What France has done to me is fucking obscene,I do not use the words Psychological Terrorism lightly,there are no other words.

What speaks volumes of how lacking in moral integrity modern France is so many people know of my pain and suffering,a lot in the arts with a lot of money and not one of them says to me,my country has violated you let me help you.

If my pen had the power I would execute Hollande,I expect a sweet little old Jewish lady that was a holocaust survivor could execute Hitler.

Morally speaking Hollande and Hitler are kith and kin.

However just signing the warrant to have his executed would not be enough.

I would want to look in his eyes and say

             "Geh Tren Zikh"

As I pulled the lever to drop the guillotine,I doubt he would understand the Yiddish.

However I do and it speaks volumes about France's perversity,First Dreyfus,then Vichy and now Hepburn.

France has learned nothing from her past.

The only thing I ever wanted in this world never existed,I refer to a woman from Idaho,I would pour my heart out to her via Email as I lived under a bridge in Paris.

How she could read my emails and do nothing is beyond me,10 years later not even a sorry Chris.

As a broken down wretch all I want is justice and to get the fuck out of France,I say again and for the last time I could treat no living thing the way France has treated me,I could not be that depraved and perverse.

I expect if there is an afterlife Charles de Gaulle and Jean Moulin are be in tears knowing that France is being run by that sack of shit Francoise Hollande a man utterly lacking in honor and integrity.

France was once a civilized cultured nation,alas in 2016 it has become a nation of de facto Americans.

I have emailed every member of both houses of Parliament and every Minister and all the staff in The Elysee.

Not one of them stood up for what is right,all I got was a fucking obscenity The Minister of Health Marisol Touraine cancel my RSA (welfare)

They did nothing just as the their contemporaries did nothing as Laval's thugs rounded up Jews under The Vichy Regime to be taken to Drancy and then onto Germany to be murdered.

France has learned nothing from her darkest hour,first Dreyfus,then Vichy and now Hepburn.

I just want to be in the middle of nowhere on the back of a horse listening to Pachelbel's cannon and know that obscenity Elizabeth Gracen is suffering in jail.

Gracen first shared a bed with Mr Cracker,Bill Clinton to obtain a Miss Arkansas Crown and is still sharing a bed with Clinton now so that it is not prosecuted.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth.

In the metaphoric sense America murdered Puff The Magic Dragon in the name of the almighty dollar.

For over a decade peoples knee jerk reaction is Chris is a lunatic,Chris is deluded,they they confirm the Gracen/Clinton connection and they do not want to get involved,COWARDS.

Children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity.

I will tidy this up and remove a lot of text where I rant and repeat myself,it is my only outlet.

I just want to get the fuck out of France and take a dog for a walk,I am so disgusted with France.

I can never get back all the years of my life that man has stolen from me,I can never remove all the depravity and perversity that France puked all over my heart and soul.

Hollande is doing the US a favor and abusing and violating me.

I tried again to get help in France.

I tried to claim benefits I am legally entitled to,I have this toxic Minister by the name of Marisol Touraine fucking with me for months and finally she refused me benefits.

I am sure Touraine would say she is jut doing what she is told,However I doubt Robert Falco would accept that.

Rather  that ramble I will put up a copy of a letter I sent to all the judges at The ICC and ECHR.

This is what I send to all The Supreme Court Justices in the UK as a preamble to my letter to Judges at The ICC and ECJ.

" Your Lordship,

I will if I may send you a copy of one last email.

As I see it The ICC is good in theory however in actuality it is a tower of babel,also trying too hard to be PC with Judges from 3rd world countries that lack learning.

In essence like Lay Magistrates listening to the clerk that has a Mickey Mouse LLB and a copy of Stones.

However where is the outrage at a woman stealing from charity.

Where is the outrage at how France abused and violated me and continues to abuse and violate me.

There is so much ignorance in this world,America's gift (SIC) to the planet.

I am so very ill,the medicine I need is to get out of France,drink coffee and share bon mots with somebody with a moral backbone.

I would not care if they were old or young,male or female,learned or village idiot.

The only thing I would care about is that they know words like ethics,honor and integrity.

Just drinking coffee with such a person would be spiritually orgasmic.

I want to get out of France and wash away the stench of France's depravity and perversity from my heart and soul.

Children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity and the mindless are playing with their I Phones and disseminating mindless drivel on Facebook.

No hope for this world.

Regards,Chris Hepburn

And this is what I sent to the Judges at The ICC.

Your Honor,

I  received an email from somebody at The ICC that told me The ICC only have a limited mandate.

I will talk of people that had no mandate whatsoever.

The people that looked after Anne Frank in occupied Amsterdam.

They did the right thing from no other reason than it was the right thing.

From the tenor of your email it suggests that in another time and place The ICC would tell Anne Frank that our mandate does not include looking after little Jewish girls.

Doing the right thing does not require a mandate all it requires is honor and integrity within a persons heart.

Personally I am so fucking disgusted with France,they have learned nothing from their darkest hour,first Dreyfus,then Vichy and now Hepburn.

That Minister Marisol Touraine is a fucking obscenity,there are no other words.

For years France abused and violated me,the last thing waiting months for benefits,Touraine's website states it takes 10 days to process.

Finally Touraine refuses my RSA that I am legally entitled to,I am so utterly disgusted with France,France owes me,not only did France fail to pay her debt,Touraine steals a benefit from me that I am legally entitled to.

I will tell you somebody that has no opinion on the matter,children in the 3 rd world that have died due to Gracen stealing funds from my late daughters charity that should have aided them.

They have no opinion as they are dead and that makes sentience and the ability to utter musings a tad problematic.

Please do the right thing,children have died due to that obscenity Elizabeth Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity.

As for myself,after Touraine's bullshit with my benefits I looked at a kitchen knife for over half an hour and thought all I have to do is open my wrists and the pain stops.

All that stopped me and all that keeps me alive is my hatred of Gracen and a need for justice.

All I want to do is get out of France and scream Fuck You at France across the border,I expect a holocaust survivor would want to shout Fuck You at Nazi Germany.

France choreographed my psychological holocaust.

Please do  the right thing Your Honor.

Regards,Chris Hepburn

I want no part of this world it is wrong.

I cannot help but wonder what Jean Moulin would have to say if he was still alive at how vacuous and self obsessed France has become,I also wonder what he would have to say about that sack of shit Marisol Touraine that has taken food out of my mouth.

If I had children should they starve to death or go shoplifting,Marisol Touraine is the scum of the earth.

Today the weather is nice,a one night stand with somebody that can count past 10 would be therapeutic,however I cannot even go to a bar and get laid,I look like crap,I have no money and I can no longer do charming.

Also trawling bars at 51 to get laid would make me a sad old fuck that has embraced The Jack Nicholson school of dating.

I want no part of this world,I just want to go to Italy and nail the door closed.

The world is wrong,all this drivel about Euro 2016,it must be bliss being so dumb that it actually mater's what football team wins.

The world is wrong,I see in the kiddy media,Uncle Tom endorses Clinton as the democrats nomination.

Who with a modicum of intellect or common sense would endorse the Clinton's for anything,surely history should not have to endure another Clinton infesting The White House.

America needs a new National Anthem,time to retire Scott-Key's puerile vomit.

If Dorothy and The Straw Man are okay with it " If I only had a brain " would be a perfect National Anthem for that parasitic nation America.

I see today a bunch of assholes from The UN are wasting millions talking shit and being important with a

" World Humanitarian Summit",

That money would aid a lot of hungry children.

The UN is utterly pointless given the poor quality of staff from that fucking self obsessed idiot Jan Elisson the Deputy Sec Gen down.

I am so fucking disgusted with France,I could treat no living thing the way France has treated me.

I just want to get out of France go to Italy and try and finish my book)

Children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity.

Get off your ass and do something or fuck off to the mall and consume.

All I want is justice and too nail the door closed and never be seen again.

I ache from my toe nails up to get out France.

I could leave,I ache to go to Italy,however if I spent 1 night on the streets of Italy I would never ever be able to move to Italy and try and finish a book I started 18 years ago.

I will put up a preamble here,France stole from me,France stole years of my life from me,years of my life that can never ever be returned.

What did the French media do,nothing they watched as a fellow journalist cried himself to sleep under bridges,they practiced a news blackout.

The 2 I truly and utterly despise are Serge July and Laurent Joffrin.

They pretend to be the Vox Populi with their fake left of center musings whilst buying polo ponies for their vile spawn and buying property in the 16eme and Neuilly Sur Seine.

My blood and the blood of children in the 3 rd world that my late daughters charity is all over their hands.

The lack of moral integrity in modern France makes me so sad,I once loved France,Paris was my friend,lover and teacher.

Maybe Mr Goldstein loved Germany before Hitler started his vulgar rhetoric in 1933,France choreographed my psychological holocaust as a favor to the US.

My blood is all over France's hands,I just want to leave and take a dog for a walk.

The lack of moral integrity in modern France is endemic.

I see a new labor law in France.

I need to use 2 technical words to describe the legislation (FUCKING DEPRAVED) Alleged Socialists attempting to pass such legislation again those 2 technical words Fucking Depraved.

The Parti Socialiste doing the bidding of Big Business and attempting to pass legislation to screw over the little guy,Jean Jaures will be spinning in his grave.

However on a personal level what I find very sad is that the head of the largest union in France Philippe Martinez is morally and ethically bankrupt.

I have contacted him about a woman stealing from charity and he does not want to get involved.

Many years ago self obsessed cowards like Philippe Martinez did nothing as Laval's thugs rounded up Jews to be murdered and then there was the good guys Jean Moulin et al.

To rewrite the lady herself.

"Where have all the good guys gone far far away".

Even the way people are dealing with this speaks volumes of the lack of moral integrity in the world,fighting with The CRS is not the answer.

I have been reading the constitution of the 5th Republic.

All people need to do is go and sit on the peripherique and E19 and it would bring the country to a standstill,no violence.

The trains were on strike for a few days,not long enough,a few weeks would work.

A General Strike is the way to win not fighting with the CRS.

Again it speaks to the lack of Moral Integrity in modern France,idiots want to fight with the CRS not make things right.

Article 49 of The Constitution of The 5 The Republic would bring Hollande's Gov down.

People no longer think,America is guilty of an act of Cultural Genocide perpetrated against the planet.

The only way to mobilize the great unwashed would be if their phones stopped working.

I loved France once,however after being abused and violated by France on and off for over a decade I just want to leave.

After all the years of psychological torture France has subjected me to,not a sorry Chris and a cheque,I have Marisol Tournaine a vulgar toxic moraly bankrupt Minister screwing with me.

The lack of moral integrity is everywhere at the moment I am in a vulgar toxic town,given how vocal I have been so many people know who I am and how I have suffered and not a soul walks up to me and says how can I help.

This town has a vulgar self obsessed Mayor I have a blah blah blah Email from one of his Chimps,What I do not have from the Mayor is how can I help Chris.

As for all the emails I have from people telling me I am screwed up.

No shit,thank you Doctor for being diagnostic and prognostic,Frankly how can I not be screwed up.

My daughter was murdered by her own Mother,the woman I thought I would grow old with took every penny I had and left me to die on the streets,also a woman from Idaho that I carried a torch for that has millions well her actions or rather her lack of actions said fuck off and die Chris.

To this day I do not know how Moore could read my emails and do nothing,10 years later not even a sorry Chris.

I tried to do good in this world with a charity in my late daughters name,personally I only know of 2 corrupt charities RSF corrupt dross that raise funds allegedly to help journalists but just talk shit and line their own pockets and Committee To Protect Journalists.

They are both utterly corrupt and should be investigated for Fraud,however forgetting the corrupt for a moment,lets address the incompetent and the inept.

Look at people like Amnesty International and HRW an utter waste of money so idiots can author banal report after banal report,people donate to such dross at HRW their head Chimp takes a salary of 340k USD from donated funds.

People think they are helping the needy when in actuality they are buying that asshole Ken Roth property in The Hamptons.

My late daughters charity was honest and ethical and that fucking abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole milllions from my late daughters charity and myself and left me to die on the streets of Paris.

In closing this preamble,there is a sack of shit on the periphery of the entertainment industry in France called Thierry Fremaux,I despise this man,again in the metaphoric sense my blood is all over his hands.

Well I emailed him couple of week ago and gave him the chance to redeem himself,he failed.

I am a man of peace and yet I had a dream about kicking the crap out of Fremaux,I want nice dreams,I want to dream about monkeys that can make pizza and play Brahms,I want to dream about playing Doctors and Nurses with this woman 20 years younger than I.

However right now all I want to  do is to get the fuck out of France and take a Dog for a walk.

Even if The Ethics Fairy was slumming it in The Elysee and that sack of shit Hollande had a moral epiphany he cannot give me back what France stole from me,namely years of my life.

Liberte,Egalite,Fraternite,EXCUSE ME WHILST I VOMIT,France stole from me,France stole something from me that can never be returned to me.

Everything below predates my preamble above,it is the May 26 th,I just want to get the fuck out of France and take a dog for a walk.

I am so utterly disgusted with France,I will not be changing or updating this,utterly at my wits end.

I will attempt to clean this up,however I cannot face it at the moment,scroll down.

10 years on and off on the streets in France and I only found 1 decent person that helped me.

I am so utterly disgusted with France and that sack of shit Hollande.

All the pain and suffering France has caused me and not a soul walks up to me and says how can I help Chris.

Over 10 years later that sack of shit Moore has felt no guilt and shame,I was so sure she would have arrived Christmas Day 2005 and helped me.

10 years later not even a sorry Chris,how she could read my emails and do nothing is beyond me.

Also as a teenager I spent a few years in a hick town in the North West of the UK,I have been in touch with assorted hicks there,the best I get is Take Care.

Yet if I got my money back I would have a legion of hicks contacting me with remember me can you buy me a 911.

Not one of them would get anything from me,except a maybe a copy of Magna Moralia that I would translate into hick for them.

Only one man in this world a Frenchman I would help.

I would jump out of a plane with a parachute and a copy of Von Clausewitz if he needed me.

He is the only man in this world that has been constantly kind to me.

However I talk about this below,75 percent of what Gracen stole never belonged to me,it belonged to my late daughters charity,those funds would be given direct to the homeless in Paris.

It would be the first and last thing my late daughters charity would ever do.

I could do with a fling with somebody interesting that knows the works of Dr Kegel and can go from Homer DOH to Homer KALISPERA.

However I can no longer do such things,the medicine I need is to be on the back of a horse in Italy with Pachelbel's Cannon on the cans.

I am sick of everything,I just want to go to Italy and try and heal.

All I want in this world is justice and Gracen in jail.

I will say this in closing,if I had 3 choices,Warren Buffet's money,a 3 way with these 2 enchanting Czech Porn Actresses or that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail I would have Gracen in jail.

The money cannot fix what Gracen has destroyed within me,the sex would be fleeting.

I want to sit under Mont Blanc and know that abomination Elizabeth Gracen suffers in jail.

I reference this a few times below,however I will reference it here again.

If you hail from The Parasitic Entity known as the USA hopefully a foreign national can explain it to you.

Words of wisdom from Martin Niemoller.

" First they came for the Socialists and I did not speak out as I was not a socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists and I did not speak out as I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews and I did not speak out as I was not a Jew.

Then they come for me and there was nobody left to speak for me"

Food for thought or you could play with your I Phone and consume whilst intoning me,myself and I .

I am so utterly disgusted with France,I also come across something last week that speaks to how utterly screwed up this world is.

Jerusalem is so old,so much inspiration there for a writer.

Israel told me to fuck off in a similar manner to how the world told European Jewry to fuck off at The Evian Conference.

No hope for this world,I just wantto go to Italy and nail the door closed.

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Think of this as a defacto Red Notice.

I put this up in red out of context on 23 RD April.

Somebody gave me a current address for Gracen and their is a cop in LA that confirms it,I have also confirmed in with public databases.

I doubt Gracen lives there full time and it is using Cramer as a last name for certain things.

Burbank has nothing going for it and is not the kind of place anybody would live with the kind of money Gracen stole from me.

However it is a start if anybody wants to go and get my money back from Gracen keep 75 percent with my blessing.

75 percent of what Gracen stole from me never belonged to me,it was meant for the needy,however not a single person on the planet cares if I live or die.

I could not care less about the needy,my logic is sound nobody cares about me.

However to be true to my word if I got my money back,I could start relaxing as soon as I get rid of 75 percent of what Gracen stole.

Get my money back from Gracen and take 75 percent with my friendship and love,we are talking millions.

The address is 900 E Santa Anita Ave Burbank,California.

POTS 818 238 0005

CELL  818 679 0395

Gracen has been seen at that address last week.

As I said if anybody wants to go and get my money 75 percent is yours with my lifelong love and friendship.

For over a decade peoples knee jerk reaction is Chris is a lunatic,then they confirm the Gracen Clinton connection and do not want to get involved,COWARDS.

I guess people are scared of Clinton as he is such a tough guy,after all it takes a tough guy like Clinton to rape women.

Rape may be considered acceptable in Arkansas,however his victims could have been your wife,mother or sister.

Cowards that lack the backbone to stand up to Clinton are cut from the same cloth as those that cowered under their bed under their bed as Hitler murdered 6 million,the dynamic is the same one person or 6 million.

I think more and more about swimming out to sea and when I can swim no more just going to sleep so the pain ends.

All that keeps me alive is my hatred of Gracen and a dream of seeing it go to jail.

If I could do anything in France,Fairy Godmother stuff,I would want to go to The Elysee and go mano a mano with Hollande.

I doubt The Republican Guard would let me,however I know somebody who would,alas he was not real Dumas created him.

Captain Treville would let me in,he was a man of honor,I am also a man of honor,Hollande is not.

I mention this below,I need money,I ache from my toe nails up to get out of France.

However if I had a Fairy Godmother with 3 wishes,not one about money.

1 Gracen rots in jail.

2 I punch Clinton out.

3 I vomit on Moore.

If my Fairy Godmother gave me a 4 th wish.

I would bring back the Guillotine.

2 customers,Hollande and a toxic vulgar morally bankrupt French Minister by the name of Marisol Touraine.

I would not want my Fairy Godmother to zap the Guillotine into being.

I would want to build it with my own hands,it would be taller than the Eifffel Tower.

I am so very ill,the medicine I need is not in a Merck.

To achieve a greater quality of life I need somebody to say to me.

    " Get in the car Chris,next stop Italy"

However nobody can give me what I truly crave.

I want my daughter,Anastasia Paris,she was murdered by her own mother,starved to death in her womb,as I could not supply the riches of Croesus.

I also wish an elderly wise mensch would tell me what was the matter with me for being drawn to Moore and expecting her to help.

I was so sure she would have been there that Christmas.

From Phaedrus down they were all wrong.

I talk about her below,I showed her my soul,I cried via email to her about my daughter,about Gracen.

Her actions or rather her lack of actions said fuck off and die Chris.

Christmas Day 2005,I begged on the Blvd St Germain,I was so sure she would have arrived and helped me,she never arrived and 10 years later not even a sorry Chris let alone help.

I just want to go to Italy nail the door closed and never ever be seen again,I want no part of this depraved world.

The medicine I need is to get out of France and to drink coffee with decent moral and ethical people.

I ache to get out of France,I am so utterly disgusted with France, even in my darkest hour could treat no living thing the way France has treated me,I could not be that perverse and depraved.

If anybody can do integrity and decency,help me I would feel like a Jew in 1945 that was liberated from Auschwitz if I could get out of France.

I just want to drink coffee with decent moral people in Italy and wash away all the depravity and perversity France has vomited all over my heart and soul on and off for a decade.

Getting out of France would be spiritually orgasmic,there is a wacko in Norway that murdered over 70 people,they treat him better than how France has treated me.

France has abused and violated me on and off for over a decade.

I am anhedonic and have not known a moments happiness since November 8th 2002 due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

My last day of happiness was November 8 th 2002,taking the chopper across Puget Sound to Victoria and The Empress to meet somebody from PQ.

I never even made it to the helliport in Vancouver due to Gracen.

Not a moments happiness since then due to Gracen,all I have in this world is my hatred of Gracen and a dream of seeing Gracen go to jail.

I would want to file an amicus brief,motion to kiss the Judge.

I would carry around a photo of that Judge for the rest of my life.

I am dead inside,I maintain autonomic function with one driving force,a dream of sitting in a court room and seeing Gracen go to jail.

I once thought I loved Gracen,not thinking I used to talk over its head about classical stage.

I sent Gracen to LA to sell my show,thinking it would empower Gracen being a part of buying an apartment in Paris.

Gracen sold my show to Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer,keep everything and left me to die upon the streets of Paris.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me.

My birthday came and went,another Birthday France stole from me,I could not even go to a bar and get laid.

I could not even find solace in a strangers embrace.

I reference this below,however I will put it here also,it being words of wisdom from Martin Niemoller.

If you hail from that Pariah known as America hopefully a foreign national can explain it to you.

"First they came for the Socialists and I did not speak out as I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists and I did not speak out as I was not a Trade Unionist.
 

Then they came for the Jews and I did not speak out as I was not a Jew.
 

Then they came for me and their was nobody left to speak for me."

Food for thought,hell no,the mindless are busy playing with their I Phones and Facebook.

Think of how many children in the 3rd would could be helped if there was a 20 Euro Moron Tax on an I Phone.

America has infested the planet with ignorance.

I am putting up a preamble here on March 26th in Blue.

I will not be changing this any more,I am so disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed.

I am anhedonic,however I am not clinically depressed.

There is nothing wrong with my SERT metabolism.

I have a cancer upon my soul by the name of Elizabeth Gracen.

The medicine I needed to cure my cancer was so simple.

It is 6 words I AM HERE FOR YOU CHRIS.

Decent honorable people that will always do the right thing and and have a systemic almost spiritual understanding of the word integrity.

That is all I needed,the therapeutic value of a hug from a decent human being that will always do the right thing is immense.

How many years of my life have been taken from me with all of the stress,and nobody stood up and came to my aid,stress is a killer.

Extrapolate from that The Parasitic Entity (America) sentenced me to death so Clinton could could have his putrid pox ridden cock sucked by a 2 bit actress from Arkansas.

It is simple medicine,I would have lived a lot longer had it not been for the 13 years of systemic psychological torture the parasitic entity sentenced me to,13 years of stress.

There is no medicine that can repair what The Parasitic Entity has done to me.

The correlation between stress and heart attacks is well documented,how can I not despise that parasitic nation America,it cut my life short.

Simple medicine I would have lived longer had it not been for that parasitic nation.

I want to go to Italy,nail the door closed and chuckle when something bad happens in America,does that sound sick?,I think not a Jew would have said the same about Nazi Germany.

Granted Uncle Tom (Obama) is not guilty of genocide,however in actuality he is a Black Hitler.

Utterly bereft of honor and integrity,Uncle Tom like Hitler is in the clinical sense a psychopath.

Uncle Tom like Hitler is a psychopath as only a psychopath could choreograph a persons psychological holocaust.

To employ an allegory,America murdered Puff,he was a Magic Dragon,he lived in the hearts of people that still believed in the majesty of Mother Earth.

America murdered Puff in the name of Macdonalds,Starbucks and I Phones.

The abomination of a nation is a pariah.

Also if America was a person and not a country and took a PCL-R it would be considered psychotic.

The medicine I crave is sitting in Italy drinking coffee with decent human beings that will always do the right thing.

Some things in this world cannot be forgiven,I will never forgive those that failed me and the children my late daughters charity would have aided.

I doubt Parisian Jewry would forgive people that stood by and did nothing as Laval,s thugs rounded up their kith and kin during the holocaust.

Hollande has the same lack of moral integrity as Laval.

I noticed something in the kiddy French media,France TV are doing something Tous unis contre la haine,all united against hatred.

The mind boggles,that is like Julius Streicher raising funds to open a mikvah.

France Televisions from Remy Pflimlin (CEO) to the weather girl have displayed a hatred and depravity towards me on and off for over 10 years that even Kafka and SAVAK could not conceptualize.

They practised a news blackout about a woman stealing from charity.

Just last week I emailed a Talking Head there,she is not a real journalist,good diction and knows how to read,

If somebody gave her a Betacam in Sarajevo during the war she would be hiding under the bed at The Holiday Inn.

She has no sense of guilt for her depravity and perversity and lack of moral integrity.

I will never forgive her and her kind,however if she felt some guilt or shame and passed the hat I could get out of France and wash away the stench of a decade of cruelty from my heart and soul.

I would feel like a Jew liberated from Auschwitz in 1945 if I could drink coffee with a decent,moral and ethical human being in Italy and then go home and have decent nights sleep.

That is if I had a home to go to.

The medicine I need is not in a Merck,The medicine I need is a decent human being saying.

I AM HERE FOR YOU CHRIS.

Getting out of France would be spiritually orgasmic.

The chronology of this is all over the place,I cannot do a ramble free re write,I cannot face it.

Yes I do go off on a tangent at times and start to ramble,it is my only outlet,I do not drink I am not popping benzos and I can no longer enchant bored trophy wives for recreational sex.

I ramble it is my only outlet,it is the only way I can let out any of the shit and frankly it does not work,I am wound up inside like a corkscrew.

If I had an omnipotent Fairy Godmother that gave me one wish.

I would wish that Gracen was a prisoner in Auschwitz during the holocaust.

I will never be whole and I will never hear a child say Dad,Gracen killed that man,however knowing that Gracen is suffering would give me the emotional tools to move on.

I am so utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed.

The Parasitic Entity (America) has infested the planet with vulgarity and ignorance,American ignorance is in effect a spiritual cytokinesis that has infested the planet.

I received an email from somebody from AL,I did not even know people could read and write on the WRONG side of The Mason Dixon.

However this man asked my why I hate America,I explain that below in depth,to be concise here.

Why did Jews hate Nazi Germany,answer that question and you will know why I hate America.

America choreographed my psychological holocaust,America stole 13 years of my life and counting from me.

For what?,so Mr Cracker,Bill Clinton could have his putrid pox ridden cock sucked by a 2 bit actress from Arkansas.

The only power Clinton has is the power Uncle Tom (Obama) gives him,it is not Tin Foil Hat time,use thought,embrace a Hegelian dialectic and tell yourself where Clinton's power comes from.

Do not listen to the crazy homeless guy Chris that says he is being abused and violated by The President of The US as a favor to Clinton,listen to yourself.

I hate America from my toe nails up,it is a pariah,a few days ago people were murdered in BXL wackos want to blow shit up,a terrible loss of life.

However America murders that many people daily with unmanned drones.

American ignorance is endemic,look at the mindless vulgar rhetoric on Fox News,look at Trump a man that is uneducated and embraces Falstaffian deportment as if it is a gift from the gods.

His mindless anti Muslim rhetoric is akin to Hitler's rhetoric in 1933,then it was the Jews this time it is The Muslims.

Trump does not even have the education to know Christianity's antecedents and know it has more blood upon its hands than all the other faiths combined.

Uncle Tom (Obama) is no towering intellect,however that excuses nothing,to choreograph a persons psychological holocaust as a favor to an ex President is utterly depraved.

If Dr King or Rosa Parks were still alive history suggests they would be in tears that the first black President is a morally and ethically bankrupt obscenity.

Honour and integrity is the cornerstone of good and moral leadership,Uncle Tom would not know honour or integrity if they punched him on the nose.

The Parasitic Entity does not "do" honour or integrity all it does is vulgarity and ignorance.

I think of France,I once loved France,back in 1997 Paris was my friend,lover and teacher.

However now I am so utterly disgusted with France,she has learned nothing from her darkest hours,Dreyfus,Vichy and now Hepburn.

France has abused and violated me on and off for over a decade as a favor to The USA.

Who is worse the puppet or the puppeteer,behind Notre Dame is a memorial to those that France murdered during the holocaust.

In a just and ethical world Hollande would have his head shaved and he would be placed in a cage behind Notre Dame with a sign "                                                   COLLABORATOR/COLLABORATEUR

There is a wacko in Norway that murdered over 70 people,he is treated better than how France has treated me.

Hollande is the most unpresidential President France has ever known and The Parti Socialiste in France has turned socialism into a dirty word that equals cronyism and nepotism.

Hollande also reminds me of Jourdain from Le Bourgeois Gentilhomme,a man utterly lacking in class,verve or distinction in any field.

Hollande is a disgusting vulgar man,I even swapped a few emails with an ex partner of his that told me he is lousy in bed,Hollande is lousy at everything.

However that excuses nothing the way France has abused and violated me as a favor to the USA is utterly depraved.

Even when I go out,given how vocal I have been quite a lot of people know who I am and want to get a look at me,not one of them walks up to me and says

How can I help Chris?.

There is only one way to help me,give me some money so I can go to Italy and try and finish a book I started 17 years ago.

I think of the total lack of integrity in the media today,re a news blackout about Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity.

I tried to do good in this world,my daughter was murdered by her mother,I wanted her name to live on in deeds and actions.

If Clinton as my only problem this would have been in the media a long time ago,however Gracen sold my property to Mr Celluloid Vomit Jerry Bruckheimer it was aired on CBS and nobody wants to stand up to Sumner Redstone an abomination of a man that is the CEO and has spent his life raping the planet.

There used to be ethics in journalism,I even remember as a child in The UK,The Guardian was the annoying paper with their fake left of center posturing,The Sun was the paper for morons.

The Times used to be special before Murdoch murdered it as was The Telegraph before that colonial buffoon Black murdered it.

I used to freelance a lot for The Village Voice in NYC it was special it was Mailer's baby,now a waste of ink,owned by corp dross and staffed by chimps that lurk in cubicles and play with crayons.

I would never ever step foot into The Parasitic Entity even if Uncle Tom sent Air Force One for me,I will despise that country until the day I die.

If I found the riches of Croesus in my cornflakes tomorrow how many years of my life has The Parasitic Entity taken from me with all the stress.

The Pariah lacks integrity in every walk of life,it could be said that John Hopkins is the top med school in The US.

Just last week I emailed all the Professors of Psychiatry there,one would expect them to be morally outraged at the psychological destruction of a human being.

They were not Quacks,Witch Doctors and Galenists know more about the moral and ethical precepts of medicine than anybody at John Hopkins.

Playing devils advocate,I could be deluded,however all a person needs to figure out I am not deluded is Google to confirm the Clinton Gracen connection.

However if I was deluded who better to help me than Professors of Psychiatry at John Hopkins,alas they were busy uttering the mantra of The Parasitic Enitity,me,myself and I.

The Pariah lacks moral integrity in every walk of life.

I think of France I think of the night when I first arrived in 1997,I was in this wonderful small hotel on the Rue St Merri.

I went out to buy cigarettes,I was pointing to this pretty packet of a brand I did not recognize,I got the French words for left and right mixed up,a fellow customer helped me.

We started talking and ended up spending the night together,she was nice,Paris was special,not any more.

I ache to get out of France,I have no respect for the Italian media or Italian government,however I have never ever suffered on Italian soil.

I just want to go to Venice and try and finish a book I started 17 years ago.

If this broke scumbags from Simon and Shyster and RH would be chasing me for a book,I could write social commentary in the vein of La Comedie Humaine.

There would be a line of bimbo's waiting to fuck the famous author,that may have been fun at 30 but at 51 it is sad and tawdry and would make me a sad old fuck like Jack Nicholson.

I doubt I would be able to finish the Vampire novel I started in 1997.

To create like I did then one needs to feel,one needs to feel the majesty of a butterfly doing butterfly things,Gracen killed that man,I can no longer feel.

I can in theory get back the money Gracen stole from me,however I cannot get back the 13 years of my life that the Parasitic Entity stole from me,I can never be the man I was before Gracen raped my soul.

13 years of my life stolen from me,13 years gone forever,I have nobody,lost every friend I had as I was drunk between 1998 and 2002 after my daughter was murdered.

There is an older educated French Gentleman I swap emails with,he is a really nice decent man.

There was a young guy that was so nice to me at Christmas,however he is now scared to be seen with me after reading about the Clinton stuff.

When I see him in passing he wants to argue to deflect rather than saying I do not want to get involved.

That makes me want to weep,I really like this guy.

I crave honesty and integrity.

CHILDREN IN THE 3 RD WORLD HAVE DIED DUE TO GRACEN STEALING FROM MY LATE DAUGHTERS CHARITY AND NOBODY WANTS TO GET INVOLVED.

That makes me want to weep,he is such a nice guy.

There is also a Jehovah Witness,I do not share his faith,however he is a gentle soul,some people want to kick Jehovah Witnesses,however they have never butchered anybody in the name of their faith GOD INC in Rome has.

I was kicked out of a Monastery in Solesmes that I found a little solace in as I would not blow The Abbott Philippe Dupont.

Nobody does hypocrisy with such aplomb as The Church of Rome.

I have more respect for Jehovah Witnesses than I do for The Church of Rome,Jehovah Witnesses do not have blood upon their hands.

However I have nobody that will stand up for what is right,just and noble.

People hear the name Clinton and then in the metaphoric sense are running for the hills.

I expected better from France it was once a cultured,civilized and educated nation.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me,I will never ever forgive that obscenity Moore,I talk about her below.

However being brief here,I was so sure she would have arrived Christmas 2005 as I was begging on the streets of Paris with an I am here for you Chris.

I once thought she understood Hazel O'Connors "Will You" and Joan Baez's "Diamonds And Rust."

To this day I do not know how she could read my emails and do nothing,or maybe I do she is sick in the head as is anybody that can ignore a fellow human being in pain.

She has millions but no goodness on the inside,no kindness,no compassion.

I carried a torch for her for so many years,something so very wrong with my heart for doing that,however my heart is not cruel and depraved like the hearts of those that have failed me for 13 years.

It was more than carrying a torch for her,I thought she was an emotional,spiritual and intellectual equal.

Renaissance Man Seeks Renaissance Woman.

I was so wrong Moore does not have a single redeeming quality within her heart.

In 10 years Moore has felt no guilt and shame,I would not want to know if she was the last woman in the world,all I would see is the woman that failed me when I lived on the streets of Paris.

However she could throw some money at me by way of a sorry and I would be on my way to Italy,it will never happen,a vulgar woman Trailer Trash is still Trailer Trash even in Channel with millions in the bank.

If she felt guilt and shame and SWIFTED me today I would be on my way to Italy tomorrow and on a horse listening to Bach the next day,it will never happen,it is like saying if a cat barked it would be a dog.

She has my phone number and my email and yet in 10 years nothing went CLICK inside her,she never said sorry Chris and she never will,disgusting woman.

I am so very ill,I am not suicidal however I long for death so the pain ends,however I maintain lower brain function with one driving force my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen and a dream of seeing it go to jail.

However after hating Gracen I hate myself for loving it,I should have known better.

I was watching Ally Mcbeal a few days ago wonderful stuff,one of the few times The Cesspool By The Sea (LA) gets it right.

It is Easter,I was thinking it would be great fun to show Lucy Liu a party trick with a Cadbury's Cream Egg where all she can see is the top of my head.

However on further reflection it would not be great fun as she lacks honour and integrity,she is one of Bruckheimer's Chimps,she never picked up a phone and said how can I help Chris.

If she had I would have said,the fact that you are calling means you are one of the good guys,you can help by getting me the fuck out of France and giving me a hug.

I would have gone on to say in a different life I would have loved to show you my Orgasmatron but in this life I am beyond repair you do not want to see my Orgasmatron,however give me a hug in Venice and let me thank you for standing up for what is right.

Today I would love to share a bed with a stranger,a one night stand with somebody with a brain would be therapeutic,I know just the hotel to find such a person about a 15 min walk.

However I have no money,I can no longer do charming and I am utterly dead on the inside.

What I would truly like to do today is drink coffee with somebody in Ventimiglia that being the first town on the Italian side of the border.

I would not care if they were male,female,old,young,brain surgeon or cleaning lady.

Only one quality I care about,the person I would like to drink coffee with will always do the right thing just because it is the right thing.

I would like to drink coffee with somebody that would march through the gates of hell if it was the right thing to do.

If anybody can do the right thing,start with Get in the car Chris,next stop The Danieli.

I just want to go to Italy nail the door closed,and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney,I am a man of peace,however punching that fake Clooney until he issued me with a certificate stating I am as shallow as he is would be so cathartic.

Depth and compassion got me nowhere,maybe being a Male Valley Girl like Clooney will.

I want no part of this world,a few months ago I noticed this model looked ever so fuckable I had no idea who she was,looked her up somebody called Amber Rose read a little about her,dumb as a bag or rocks,however I am sure sleeping with her would be great fun.

However if I had 2 choices sleeping with her or drinking coffee with somebody that will always do the right thing,I would take the coffee.

If I was whole,sex is easy put on a clean shirt and do charming at the bar in a nice hotel.

However what is hard is finding somebody that will always do the right thing.

Sex is easy to find if I was whole,honour,decency and integrity is rarer than a Unicorn in a world that has been infested with ignorance self obsession and vulgarity by The Parasitic Entity.

Out of words,if anybody can do the right thing get me to The Danieli and give me some NaOH to wash away the stench of cruelty and depravity that France has shown me on and off for over a decade.

This is the best Email   chris.hepburn@laposte.net and this is the best number to reach me by text on + 33 6 6994 2204.

If I ever got my monies back 75 percent of those monies never belonged to me,75 percent would go direct to the homeless in France.

I would have to check with 36 first to see if it is legal,however buying a few lions to chase around people from Secours Catholique would be fun.

The hypocrites tell themselves what good Christians they are for giving a homeless wretch a cup of coffee as they sleep in their warm beds.

Rome's hypocrisy and simony know no boundaries.

The homeless in Paris are poor wretches that the alleged socialist Hollande and the alleged socialist Mayor Puta of Paris leaves to die on the streets of Paris looking like rejects from a Delacroix painting.

I am sure Jean Juares would want to puke on Mayor Puta and punch Hollande,they know nothing about the precepts of socialism.

I can see a Vigoesque like film where Marcel Marceau shouts to Juan Juares in a Brooklyn accent as Jaures is kicking Hollande ass.

Marceau is shouting kick his ass in a Brooklyn accent.

All I want in this world is Justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail,Simon Weisenthal,Captain Ahab and Shylock would understand.

As Shylock said Prick Us Do We Not Bleed,I have been spiritually exsanguinated by that Parasitic Entity known as The USA.

I cry most mornings I am still alive and I constantly have these thoughts in 15 perf about swimming out to sea and when I can swim no more just going to sleep and then the pain will end.

All that keeps me breathing is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen and a dream of seeing it go to jail.

THAT IS ALL I WANT IN THIS WORLD.

As for recovered funds if I ever got my money back,I care about the same number of people on the planet that care about me,that would be ZERO.

However 75 percent of what Gracen stole never belonged to me,originally those funds were earmarked to provide food and meds for children in Africa,however Africa can sink as far as I am concerned.

I have been in touch with African Diplomats in that Big Building in NYC where everybody talks crap (UN) they do not even care about children in their own country that have Gov Issued credit cards and "magic" tags issued by State.

Also here there are a lot of people of African extraction that want to get a look at me,however not one of them walks up to me and says how can I help.

Africa can sink as far as I am concerned.

Why should I care when African Diplomats do not even care about children in their own country.

If I got my funds back 75 percent would go direct to the homeless in Paris in 5000 Euro chunks.

Not to a homeless charity,there is not a single competent homeless charity in Paris,they range from the deluded like Secours Catholique to the morally bankrupt like Restos du Coeur.

5000 to every homeless person in Paris is the first and last thing my late daughters charity will do if I get my funds back.

The homeless need choices,they do not need idiots with Jules Ferry mentality administering funds for them or idiots with Jesus Loves You Drivel and twee Norman Rockwell sensibilities.

The homeless in Paris need here you are this is 5000 Euro,the first and last thing my late daughters charity will ever do if I got my funds back.

If I got my money back today I would be in The Danieli tonight,sitting in the tub trying to scrub away the stench of depravity and perversity that France has puked all over my heart and soul on and off for over a decade.

There are 3 people in this world that were kind to me and if I got my money back I would want to do something LARGE for them that would be shinny red and Italian,a thank you for their kindness.

However if I got my money back there is nobody in this world I would want to break bread with and celebrate getting my money back with.

NOBODY stood up for what is right,just and noble,all I found was cowards that would be playing with their I Phones as Hitler marched into Poland.

Nobody did the right thing.

Getting drunk with Alfredo Germont and kvetching about how utterly depraved the world is would be fun,alas he is not real.

What I truly crave and need to ease the pain and suffering is to be on the back of a horse in Italy and to watch Mother Earth do her thing,peace and quiet in the middle of nowhere.

Horses do not point guns at each other,built heavy water plants or try and fuck over other horses by playing the derivatives market on hay.

Utterly at my wits end.

I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,the one I despise most is Moore,I showed her my soul,I use the word soul to mean a sense of self not Christian Judaic Drivel.

I showed her my soul,she said by her actions or rather her lack of actions,fuck off and die Chris,as I said I will never forgive those that failed me,however I do not want to fight with them I just want to nail the door closed and never be seen again.

I see Gato Barbieri has died,remarkable musician,he was real,not a talentless construct of MUSIC INC  like Lady Gaga or Kane West,thinking about a fellow countryman of Barbieri.

Mercedes Sosa,she was real,she cared about lost souls,sitting on the back of a horse in Italy with Mercedes Sosa on the cans that is what I need not SSRI,S.

This is my last paragraph I will ever write unless RH or Simon and Shyster give me a sack of money.

I am a screwed up intellectual that aches to be a moron,morons are happy.

As a teenager I spent some time in a hick town I had a friend Paul A,he was a really nice guy but as dumb as a bag of rocks.

He never left home and his mother used to look after him,she passed away and he found a lady that could kick the crap out of Rambo,she looks after him,she buys him video games,makes him beans on toast.

Once in a while he has to sleep with her,expects he closes his eyes pro rege et partia.

He gets excited when his football team wins,as I said as dumb as a bag of rocks but a really nice guy.

He will never get hurt as he lacks the emotional faculty,in many ways I am so jealous of him,I want to be a moron like Paul A.

I just want to go to Italy and nail the door closed.

Chris Hepburn March 26 th.

Everything below predates this.

I see the news coming out of The Parasitic States of America.

Madonna exposed her breast,surely somebody should say to her

" Put your tits away granny,you will turn the milk sour"

Children are dying in the world and the mindless consider this news.

In a just and ethical world whoever took over from Steve Jobs at Apple should be forced to work in one of those awful factories in China that pump out I Phones to keep the mindless happy.

The world will never be ethical we can thank America for that.

I am so ill,I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering,however I maintain lower brain function with but one dream,seeing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen suffer and suffer in a jail cell the way it has made me suffer for over a decade.

It is the 20th March I am about 2 days away from running out of people to email trying to find justice,I am so utterly disgusted with cowards.

I am also so utterly disgusted with France,there is a wacko in Norway called Breivik that murdered 70 people,they treat him better than how France has treated me.

My little girl Anastasia Paris was murdered by her own mother,I wanted her name to live on in deeds and actions.

I used to sit by a trig point and look at Mont Blanc,I dreamed of my daughter doing good things,I dreamed of her convincing other kids at school to throw their I Phones in the lake and delete their Facebook accounts with one parting statement " I am not a moron"

I dreamed of my daughter taking other kids to sit under a tree and read,Dickens,Proust and Thoreau.

Anastasia Paris the little girl that never was,murdered by her own mother,I tried to do good in her name,Gracen took everything and left me to die on the streets of Paris.

I am so disgusted with cowards,there is this porn actress I would love to sleep with,therapy sex,however what my heart and soul truly wants to do is drink coffee with somebody that will always do the right thing,somebody with an innate sense of always doing the right thing.

In 10 years that sack of shit Moore has felt no guilt or shame for failing me,she has millions but so ugly and depraved on the inside.

I am so very ill,all that keeps me breathing is my hatred of Gracen and a dream of sitting in a courtroom and seeing it go to jail.

I crave a day of happiness,something I have not known since Nov 8th 2002.

The chronology of this is all over the place,however on the 20th March today I am out of words,so utterly overwhelmed with cruelty and depravity.

This world is just wrong.

One example and just one,those poor souls in Calais should be welcome in the UK with open arms given all the pain and suffering the UK has caused with global land theft,the world is just wrong,I want no part of it.

I also see Donald Tusk The President of The EU talking crap about refugees,Tusk should be ashamed of himself.

He has over 40 Chimps on his staff to make him coffee,press start on the xerox machine and tell him that his shit does not stink and that he has a 14 inch dick.

That money would pay for a lot of food and toys for refugee children,the worst thing about Tusk is he has 4 drivers,not sure why that is.

Either I lack the intellectual faculty to figure out how he can go 4 places at the same time or he is a dumb Polack that at any given time cannot find 3 of his drivers.

I just want to nail the door closed and never be seen again.

I would give an arm and a leg to get my hands on Hollande,another Birthday France stole from me,I just wanted to get on a Horse in Italy.

I would give anything to take on that sack of shit Hollande mano a mano.

A tough guy behind a telephone with Faustian depravity,doubt he is that tough mano a mano.

All I wanted to do for my birthday was take a dog for a walk and emotionally decompress in Italy.

I did not even get a fucking birthday card and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself.

FRANCE STOLE ANOTHER BIRTHDAY FROM ME.

Today is March 15th,I will not be updating this anymore,I am so disgusted with France.

Even walking around I have been so very vocal for over a decade,some people want to get a look at me,not a soul walks up to me and says " How can I help Chris"

I expected better from France,it was a nation that gave the world many thinkers.

I hoped that sack of shit  Moore may have felt some guilt or shame and help me,no rhyme or reason there,10 years she never felt guilt or shame,however I hope it every Christmas and Birthday.

If Moore felt any guilt or shame I could have told myself that somewhere deep down there was some goodness and that is what I was drawn to,no,the woman is vile.

All I wanted to do for my birthday was to take a dog for a walk,that is all,should not be a lot to ask,however it was France stole another birthday from me.

I am so disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,just wanted to go to Italy and get on a horse,France steals another birthday from me.

I tried to do good in this world with my late daughters charity.

There is a song by Edith Piaf " Les Momes De La Cloche" anybody running a charity should understand the people Piaf sings about in that song.

Most charity's "play" at aiding the needy,idiots like Amnesty International,that just author banal report after banal report,also Human Rights Watch,Watch being the operative word.

They do nothing to aid the needy and their head chimp Ken Roth takes a salary of 345,000 USD a year,he should be ashamed of himself.

In France Ligue des droits de'l homme,they posture and they pontificate but they do nothing to help anybody.

Also idiots like Restaurants du coeur,I have issues with their lack of moral and ethical integrity,however forgetting that after 30 or so years one would have thought they would have figured out the homeless need more than a microwaved meal.

My late daughters charity was real,we were not going to talk shit in Lincoln Center or anywhere,we were going to aid the needy,Gracen stole from that charity.

I did nothing wrong to France,she abused and violated me as a favor to the US.

All the pain and suffering France caused me,she has learned nothing from her darkest hours,Dreyfus,Vichy and now Hepburn.

I am so ill,the medicine I need is not in a Merck,the medicine I need is to get out of France and to wash the stench of depravity and perversity from my heart and soul that France vomited upon me on and off for over a decade.

I am so utterly disgusted with France.

Hollande and his entire Cabinet Of The Dammed are a satirists wet dream,in a different life making a Mel Brooks style comedy about the current French Gov would be great fun.

However Hollande's ignorance and lack of intellect or moral fortitude excuses nothing,I could treat no living thing the way France has treated me.

Hollande is the most unpresidential President France has ever known,he did not win,Sarkozy lost,there was such a malaise on France in 2012 that a toasted cheese sandwich would have won over Sarkozy.

It is also worth noting that a Toasted Cheese Sandwich sandwich would make a better President than Hollande.

All the pain and suffering France has caused me on and off for a decade,I have been so vocal not a soul walkes up to me and says how can I help Chris,so many know of my pain and suffering.

I am so disgusted with France.

I will despise those that ignored my cries until until the day I die.

Just as Mr Goldstein would despise those that ignored his cries and the cries of his kith and kin during the holocaust.

I will always despise those that ignored my cries as I lived a psychological holocaust.

All I want in this world is Justice,Ahab,Wiesenthal and Shylock would understand.

I was watching old eps of Ally Mcbeal,Enchanting Stuff,she sees a Unicorn.

I would like to see anything apart from the depravity and perversity that The Parasitic States of America has vomited upon me since November 8 th 2002.

America exhibits moral bankruptcy within every walk of life.

In most places there are ethical precepts to Medicine,not in The Parasitic States of America.

I came across an NGO called Physicians For Human Rights,they sound ever so grand.

One could almost imagine an alarm going off in their office that somebody's human rights are being violated,instantly they don a cape and get in the Batmobile to aid poor souls.

Alas that is not the case,in truth they are utterly pointless,they aid nobody and line their own pockets with donated funds.

They have such a pretty website,however M.R.S.A also looks pretty under a microscope,they posture and they pontificate and I am sure they waste donated funds in nice restaurants in Beacon Hill and Back Bay telling each other how important they are.

However one thing they do not do is Moral Integrity or embrace any of the ethical precepts of Medicine.

They failed to stand up for my human rights,they failed to be morally outraged at the 13 years plus of psychological torture The Parasitic States of America has subjected me to.

They failed to be morally outraged at a woman stealing funds that should have provided food and meds for children in the 3 rd world,However I expect they are ever so busy deciding if they should have the 82 Petrus with their dinner or slum it with the 85.

Playing devils advocate,I could be a lunatic,if that is the case who better to aid me than a Doctor,not in The Parasitic States of America,they are busy uttering the mantra of The Unholy Trinity,ME,MYSELF AND I.

America is morally and ethically bankrupt in every walk of life.

My Birthday,what would I truly like,I would like the same as wanted for Christmas,Elizabeth Gracen's hands in a box,it would never steal from anybody else with no hands.

I would like to weep and kvetch on the shoulder of a good and noble person,somebody that knows right from wrong,somebody that will not sell,rent,lease of offer an easement on their sense of integrity.

It goes without saying such a person will not hail from The Parasitic States of America as that nation does not make such people.

I want to ask the concierge in The Danieli where the nearest animal shelter is,get a couple of Dogs and go for a walk.

In many ways America is like The Emperor with no clothes,nobody will tell The Emperor he is naked,nobody has the backbone to tell America she is a parasite.

I can never get back all the years of my life that have been stolen from me,who came running to my aid,screaming it is perverse and depraved what has been done to you Chris,I am here for you,NOBODY CAME.

Christmas Day 2005,I was so sure Moore would have arrived,10 years later not even a sorry Chris.

I can never ever get back all the years of my life France stole from me,as a favor to scum in DC.

I can never remove the darkness from my heart that France placed there with years of cruelty and psychological abuse.

This world is just wrong.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth,Look at the primary's Clinton V Trump.

Jim Jones would have made a great President,that was a man with a vision,also too quote Dr Spock,the one with the ears not the idiot.

"The needs of the many" and all of that,the planet would be a better place without that parasitoid nation.

Clinton is a  vulgar woman obsessed with power she could be the "poster person" for a pro eugenics lobby

               " No more White Trash"

We also have Trump a man that is as loud and vulgar as his buildings also utterly lacking in education.

Think of Bill Clinton as The First Cracker wandering around DC enunciating in that hick accent,Blow Me and you can have something from The White House.

Surely history should not have to endure 2 Clinton's infesting The White House.

Bin Laden would make a better President than any of the buffoons that are running,lets suppose everything The US Gov said about him is true,he still has less blood on his hands than any US Administration in my lifetime.

No wait,he cannot be The President if you believe The US Mil murdered him,again nice how The US can throw the 5 th and 14th amendment out of the window when it suits them all that pesky stuff about Due Process.

Maybe it never happened and it was part of American ignorance to get the economy moving " Look Darling we won,we killed Bin Laden,lets go to the mall and consume"

However if it did happen typical American bully boy tactics that were even codified in The Monroe Doctrine.

Bin Laden is out then for President what about Kim Jong of North Korea,again Bullies at State are calling him names,he never committed an act of Genocide,Harry Truman did.

My last thought for President,according to mindless chimps that lurk in cubicles,play with crayons and have the audacity to call themselves journalists.

Selma Hayek's dog has died,children are dying in the world and the mindless fucks consider Hayek's dog dying to be news.

However her dead dog would make a better President than Trump or Clinton,it could not fuck anything up,it would just sit quietly in the corner and decompose.

If America was a person it would be considered psychotic using DSM criteria.

I am not going to rant about America any more,however on a personal level how can I not hate that pariah it stole 13 years and counting of my life from me.

All I have in this world and all that keeps me alive is my hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and a dream of seeing it suffer in jail the way it has made me suffer for over a decade.

I will never know love,I will never hear a child say Dad,Gracen killed that part of me.

All I want in this world is JUSTICE and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail.

I talk about this below,however briefly,all the pain and suffering France has caused me.

Hollande is totally lacking in honor and integrity,in another time and place he would have been a functionary in Laval's Vichy Regime and would have sent Jewish children to the death camps with the stroke of his pen.

The worst thing is I did nothing wrong to France,I would have been a friend to France until the day I died,Paris was once my friend,lover and teacher,France abused and violated me on and off for 10 years as a favor to The US.

I ache to go to The Elysee and stand toe to toe with that buffoon Hollande and say you and I "mano a mano"

This Christmas I wanted to be on the back of a horse in Italy,France steals another Christmas from me.

I am so utterly disgusted with France.

I have Emails from people asking if I pretended to be Peter Bart and Bill Keller,Yes I did,I expect somebody in Auschwitz would have pretended to be Julius Streicher to escape.

Peter Bart is a knavish morally bankrupt man that writes like crap and has spent his life doffing his cap to the major studios.

Bill Keller was the PRETEND Editor of The NYT,he was no Max Frankel,The NYT is no longer the august journal it once was,Pinch the publisher cannot fill Daddies shoes.

I would not have needed to pretend to be either of those morally bankrupt buffoons if they had deported themselves with a little moral integrity.

Alas Moral Integrity is forbidden in The Parasitic States of America.

Moral Integrity,America would not know Moral Integrity if it marched down Pennsylvania Ave knocked on the door of The White House and said I have come to see Uncle Tom.

America has infected the planet with vulgarity,ignorance and self obsession.

America lacks moral integrity in every walk of life,just last week I emailed alleged academics within the US,they have no moral center,the blind leading the blind.

All these years later that sack of shit Moore never said sorry to me let alone throw some money at me by way of an apology,to this day I do not know how she could read my emails and do nothing.

Or maybe I do,she is sick in the head,in 10 years she never even said sorry.

My Christmas was spent begging on the streets and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself.

If Santa was real and he told me I could have had anything for Christmas and I mean anything,I would have asked for Gracen,s hands in a box,it would never steal from anybody else with no hands.

I am so disgusted with France,I expected better from France,I expected moral integrity and ethical deportment.

I expect Descrates would be in tears if he was alive today,Cogito Ergo Sum,no more in France it has become a nation of defacto American's locked in consume cycles.

France stole another Christmas from me.

I could not even go to a bar and get laid for Christmas.

I look like crap I have no money,what would I say?,come back to my sleeping bag?.

My Christmas Eve was spent begging on the streets,being harassed by the Municipal Police,a cop with the real police,the police nationale that saved my life over 15 years ago called them glorified security guards.

The Municipal Police are utterly vile.

That was my Christmas,all I got for Christmas was more hatred and disgust at mans inhumanity towards man too install in my heart.

How many people need to be abused and violated until it is wrong,Dreyfus,Vichy and now Hepburn.

France has learned nothing from her darkest hours.

In a moral and just world that morally and ethically bankrupt buffoon The Plastic Socialist,Hollande would be tied to a tree outside The International Criminal Court in The Hague and flogged.

I just want to get out of France,I am so utterly disgusted with France and emotionally decompress in The Danieli in Venice.

Many years ago I tried to pull a movie together about people coming together for the common good.

I am still being tasked by dross that want to be noticed or have MND,they are utterly vile and depraved.

I have no interest in film,I will never act again unless I can do Shakespeare with Sir John,Brando and Schofield.

Film is no longer about art it is about money.

I think of Cannes it used to be special now it is ran by a vulgar sack of shit Gilles Jacob and they have a talentless chimp that directed Mad Max as the President of the jury,even Cahiers du cinema is owned by corporate scum.

I could review Mad Max with 3 words

           " Mindless Fucking Drivel"

Film in France was once about art,not any more that fucking wannebe Besson making mindless drivel about a guy with awful diction driving a car and shooting people.

Godard,Truffaut et al would be in tears at how Film in France is mindless drivel now.

As for The Cesspool By The Sea(LA) it does not impress me.

The Industry is shallow and insipid,I lived in LA for 2 years,the industry is vulgar,about the almighty dollar nor art.

Cahiers du Cinema is now a waste of ink,the trades in LA have always been a waste of ink,they have even got worse.

THR is edited by an ignorant vulgar drunk that edited US Weekly,a vulgar uneducated woman,Variety now owned by PMC and a clone called Penske.

They are both a waste of ink staffed by chimps that lurk in cubicles,play with crayons and doff their caps to the major studios.

The industry in LA is vile and has only one god The Almighty Dollar,The last honest man in the industry was Brando.

I knew him,he was a gentleman,he would not have been doffing his cap to Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer.

Brando would have stood up for what is right,just and noble,he was not a mindless knavish serf like Cobweb Clooney  flogging over priced coffee machines to the mindless.

Brando was a gentleman.

I watched Brando's Mutiny On The Bounty,his RP needed work,however thinking of Cobweb Clooney playing Fletcher Christian

"Would you like me to blow you now Captain Bligh,or would you like to kick me in the head first"

Brando turned an Oscar down when maybe it was worth having.

Not even worth having anymore,and hosted by an alleged comedian Chris Rock.

He is about as funny as syphilis,he is no George Carlin or Lenny Bruce,however he is a good little boy,he does what he is told by Corporate America.

Rock comes across as if Dr Frankenstein and Norman Rockwell constructed him in the good Doctors basement.

Sad indictment of the times when Corporate Scum hand out entertainment to The Great Unwashed,according to the Chimps that lurk in cubicles and play with crayons Kane West has a new album out.

In a just and moral world of thought surely somebody should say to West give me that microphone you are a talentless twat,K Mart are hiring and take Lady Gaga and the rest of the talentless chimps with you.

Sad Sad World,America has infested the planet with ignorance and vulgarity.

America has infected the entire planet with ignorance and vulgarity.
 

The industry is vile,not a soul has the moral backbone to stand up to Mr Celluloid Vomit Jerry Bruckheimer,in effect Bruckheimer has stolen bread and meds out of the mouths of children in the 3rd world.

He knew 75 percent of my property was meant to fund my late daughters charity when he bought it from Gracen.

The only thing I would like to do in LA is punch out a piece of shit talent agent called Richard Lovett,I am a man of peace,however my blood and t the blood of children in the 3rd world that my late daughters charity would have aided is all over Lovett,s hands.

I have no interest in anything apart from justice and nailing the door closed and never being seen again.

The vile and vulgar dross that still think I am trying to pull a movie together are utterly depraved not, one of them walks up to me and says how can I help you Chris,the only way anybody can help me is to give me some money and drive me to Venice.

I want to check into The Danieli in Venice.

I want to wash away the stench of depravity and perversity that France puked all over my heart and soul.

I want to close the door in The Danieli and listen to Pachelbel,s Cannon,hold onto the ostinato and let my mind wander with the other voices.

France owes me.

France did not just fail to pay her debt,France stole another Christmas from me.

I just want my money back,75 percent would go direct to the homeless in France and I would go to Italy and try and finish my book.

I just want to go to Italy and nail the door closed and chuckle when something bad happens in The Parasitic States of America.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me and the children my late daughters charity would have aided,the one I despise the most is Moore,all these years later not even a sorry Chris let alone how can I help you.

I am so fucking disgusted with Moore,I am also fucking disgusted with myself,I should have known better than to have been drawn to such a vulgar woman.

In 10 years no guilt or shame,something so wrong with me for being drawn to such a cruel,vulgar obscene woman,such an ugly heart.

We live in such vacuous and self obsessed times,a gift (SIC) to the world from The Parasitic States Of America.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth.

I am so ill,I just want to go to Italy and get on a horse that I would call Ronnie Laing and never be seen again.

I will never know love,Gracen killed that part of me,no it was in a coma,I waited and waited for somebody to arrive with spiritual epinephrine and say I am here for you Chris.

NOBODY ARRIVED,All I found was cowards and the self obsessed.

I know when I died in the spiritual and emotional sense,I died on Christmas Day 2005,I was so sure Moore would have arrived with stop talking like that I am married,get in the car,cry your heart out,that is like expecting the bitch of Buchwald to open a mikvah.

10 years later she has not even said sorry to me let alone how can I help,only one way she could help me,give me some money and fuck off,I will never forgive her.

Even Students today lack moral and ethical fortitude.

Students were once the voice of dissent,Kent State,Brown V Board of ed,Danny The Fake,et al.

I also think of Credence Clearwater Revival and their song Sweet Home Alabama.

WE ALL DID WHAT WE HAD TO DO,in response to George Wallace,s vile and vulgar deportment and rhetoric.

If that happened today at best Students would be posting on mindless drivel like Facebook and change.org

Today students are a poor facsimile of their contemporaries of yesteryear,mindless automatons clutching their I Phones and doffing their cap to Madsion Ave.

Children in the 3rd world have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity,the ethical and the just should be screaming from the rooftops.

All I want in this world is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail,I want to go to Italy,find my own Waldens Pond,be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney,nail the door closed,try and finish a book I started 18 years ago.

A lady told me by text that my website is angry,I expect if Ahab,Wiesenthal or Shylock had a website it would be angry,prick us do we not bleed and all of that.

Yes it is angry,my daughter was murdered,the woman I thought I would grow old with stole millions from my late daughters charity and myself and left me to die on the streets.

Angry is an understatement,I am utterly livid,all that keeps me alive is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen and a dark primal need to see it suffer the way it has made me suffer for over 10 years.

This lady also told me that my website scared away friends of hers that would have offered me a job,in a just and ethical world people should be running towards me or anybody that has been abused and violated the way I have.

All that keeps me alive is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen and a need to see it suffer the way it has made me suffer day in day out since Nov 8th 2002.

All I want in this world is JUSTICE I am so very ill,Gracen did not just take my money,Gracen took my health.

If anybody can grow a backbone or develop moral integrity my bonna fides are if I recovered what Gracen stole 5000 would go to every homeless person in Paris.

Those are my Bonna Fides,where the fuck are your bonna fides.

I despair of a world where people do not do the right thing as a matter course.

I am so ill,I cry most mornings that I am still alive,all that has kept me alive all these years is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen,I have never hated anything the way I hate Gracen,all I want in this world is to sit in a court room and see it go to jail.

That abomination Gracen took every penny I had and left me to die upon the streets,after hating it I hate myself for loving it,I should have known better.

10 years out of the last 13 living on the streets,the other 3 years in hovels or homeless shelters at the hands of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen,hatred is all that has kept me alive.

I will never ever forgive those that failed me and  I ache to vomit on that sack of shit Moore that read my emails and did nothing as I cried myself too sleep on the streets of Paris.

I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed that do not want to get involved,cowards that are cut from the same cloth as those that cowered under their beds as Hitler murdered 6 million,children have died due to an abomination by the name of Elizabeth Gracen stealing millions from my late daughters charity.

I use humor and satire as a hook in a similar manner to George Carlin,however I have not known a single day of joy or happiness since November 8th 2002 due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

I am disgusted with a sack of shit Moore she is worth millions and yet would not even give me a sandwich as I cried myself to sleep under bridges in Paris,all these years later not even an apology.

I was so sure she would have been there for me Christmas 2005 with a stop talking like that Chris I am married but cry your heart out Chris.

I have no hidden agenda,all I want is justice and to nail the door closed,never be seen again and to be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney.

SCROOL DOWN UNTIL THE TEXT IS BLACK THE TEXT IN RED, AND BLUE IS FOR OLD FRIENDS.  

I just removed a lot of text where I babble and repeat myself.

I will  make one last update here on 26th December,I am utterly livid,another Christmas stolen from me.

My Christmas Dinner was a bag of French fries,I cannot even go to a bar and get laid,I look like crap and have no money,also I can no longer do charming.

I cannot even find solace in a strangers embrace.

Christmas Eve I was hasseled by The Municipal Police,my heinous crime,being Homeless,in another time and place being Jewish or being Black was considered a defacto crime.

The Municipal Police are vile,they cannot even find kindness and integrity on Christmas Eve,they harass the homeless,where they want us to go is beyond me,maybe our graves.

My Christmas was spend watching the self obsessed consume in the name of Christ,very few could spare a coin for the homeless wretch in the gutter.

I spent Christmas hoping that vulgar WT Moore may say sorry Chris  let me help,no rhyme or reason to my hopes she felt no guilt or shame and helped me for the last 9  years no reason why this one should be different.

I am so very ill,if she was not one of Bruckheimers Chimps and I was not a basket Case I would love to sleep with Jeri Ryan,therepy sex.

However in truth all I wanted to do this Christmas was to take a dog for a walk in the middle of nowhere so far away from the mindless that have an almost psychotic need to consume in the name of Christ.

The text below predates my Christmas Thoughts,What Christmas,My last Christmas was 2001 in The Beverly Wiltshire,I have not known a Christmas since then.

I just wanted to go to Italy and try and finish a book I started 18 years ago but I rot on the streets as Gracen spends my money,Another Christmas stolen from me gone forever.

[This in red and blue and in parenthesis is out of and for any old friends that may be reading this,I ask that you find it in your heart to forgive what I became between 1998 and 2002,I could not help it,my daughter was murdered,I became a walking disaster area.

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It is now November 1 st 2015,I am almost dead,I cry most mornings that I am still alive,I want one person on the planet to do the right thing,I need help I am so very ill,will not be updating this any more,all I want is JUSTICE 13 years of my life stolen from me,gone forever.

I just removed text trying to find an old friend,I will consolidate everything here.

I am so fucking disgusted with France on and off for over 10 years they have abused and violated me,I return hoping somebody will feel some guilt and shame and help me,however utterly pointless.

Dreyfus,Vichy and now Hepburn,in a just and ethical world that sack of shit Hollande would be tried for crimes against humanity at The ICC.

Hollande always reminded me of Jourdain from Le Bourgeois Gentilhomme,love them or hate them French Presidents had a certain aristocratic air,Hollande has no class,verve or style.

If you can be party to the psychological destruction of one you can be party to the death of 6 million the dynamic is the same.

How many need to be abused and violated until it is wrong.

France placed my heart in Drancy and gassed me with Zyclon B in the metaphoric sense every time I returned and NOBODY said this is wrong let me help you,no fucker even has the decency to give me 40 Euro so I can go to a cheap hotel and get cleaned up.

I loved France once,she was my friend,lover and teacher,now I despise France from my toe nails up.

I expected so much better from France She was once a cultured and civilized nation,today most of her youth come across as French speaking American,s. and embrace self obsession and vulgrity as American,s do.

Diametrically opposed political views but I expect De Gaulle and Mitterrand would be in tears that France,s heart and soul has become so vacuous and necrotic.

Peoples depravity here is even worse than not having the decency to give me a  poxy 40 Euro to get cleaned up,if I get a meal ticket it is nice to get a warm sandwich in the morning.

However people here do not even have the decency to see I have a meal ticket the last one I got for 10  Euro from a nice lady.

France was once a cultured and civilized nation but France is becoming as vulgar as America with mindless consumerism and self obsession.

What would Charles Swann or The Vicomte de Valmont say at what France has become,France has become as vulgar and self obsessed as America.

France no longer even has a real President it has Mr Magoo,s Twin Brother Hollande The Pretend Socialist and his plastic cabinet of the dammed.

Hollande comes across as a self assembly President they got from IKEA totally and utterly lacking in honor and integrity.

All the pain and suffering France has caused me and nobody says this is perverse let me help you Chris.

I could treat no living thing the way France treated me.

I long for death so the pain ends but I need to live to bring that abomanation Elizabeth Gracen to justice,I am so fucking disgusted with France.

I want to go to Italy and try and finish my book.

For 10 years on and off I have been watching the self obsessed consume,no hope for this world,a few days ago a cute little girl about 4 gave me an apple,however over a 99.9 percent chance she will grow up to be self obsessed dross,I have had 10 years to do the math.

I have watched the self obsessed for a decade from the gutter

The human race prove beyond all doubt their is no God we are vile,vulgar and self obsessed.

All these years later that sack of shit Moore feels no guilt or shame,she could throw 20k at me.

My late daughters charity was flawed frankly the best charity would be we will give you an I Phone if you go and get sterlized.

However if I got my monies back 5000 Euro to every homeless person in Paris except for people from Romania,they have no code of honor,one wants to beg 30 yards from me and no honor,no integrity they come to France and see begging as a job in essence they are taking food out of the mouths of the real homeless in France.

I am so fucking disgusted with the homeless charities in France the low life cunts play at aiding the homeless just a few days ago I encountered morally bankrupt scum from Restros du Coeur they wanted to get a look at mer and see what I am all about but they lack the backbone to stand up for what is right,FUCKING COWARDS

EVERYTHING below predates this,out of fucking words just want to go to Italy and finish my book?would love to fuck this porn actress called Nessa Devil but would settle for taking a dog for a walk

I am so fucking disgusted with France,I am also dealing with depraved scum that seem to think I am one of Pavlovs puppies and scum that still think I am trying to pull a movie together and want to be noticed.

ON A POINT OF PRINCPLE IF I WAS RUNNING A MAJOR STUDIO I WOULD NEVER EVER CAST A FRENCH ACTOR.

Right now I just want to go to a cheap hotel and shower not a single French actor has the decency to give me 40 Euro.

A nice young guy gave me an old phone after mine was stolen by Romanian scum and then told me how much his org has done for me,he did not join me to fight for justice,giving Mr Goldstein a phone to have his Rabbi say Kaddish as the Nazis are taking him away is not enough.

PLEASE CAN ANY OLD FRIEND FORGIVE ME? PLEASE I AM SO FUCKING ILL I JUST WANT TO GET OUT OF THIS CRUEL DE

All I needed all these years to achieve a greater degree of functionality was for SOMEBODY to CARE ANYBODY,about my well being,for 13 years all my heart has been engulfed with is peoples cruelty,vulgarity and ignorance I NEED HELP.

My life is spent on the Streets begging watching the self obsessed locked in consume cycles,totally lacking in kindness,compassion and empathy.

Arms full of shopping, however they cannot spare a coin for the wretch.

Having said that I am so jelous of them,the ills of this world will never touch them as they lack the emotional faculty.

I want to be screwed up the way they are not the way I am.

They do not even know they are broken,I know I am broken,every day I think more and more about ending my life.

I could treat no living thing the way France treated me,so many knew of my pain and suffering in so many walks of life and they did nothing to aid me just as people did nothing to aid Jews that were rounded up under The Vichy Regime under Laval.

6 Million or one person,the dynamic is the same in the philosophical sense,if you can be party to the psychological destruction of one you can be party to the death of 6 million.

I searched all over France for people with a heart like Jean Moulin,I found none,I found plenty with a heart like Pierre Laval.

I want to go to The Danielli and emotionally decompress,in the metaphoric sense the hotel is a hypobaric chamber.

I want to close the door,listen to Puccini,eat lasagne of Claris Cliff and nice silverware,I want to sleep in a nice bed with nice bedding.

OVERWHELMED WITH CRUELTY AND DEPRAVITY.

All THAT KEEPS ME BREATHING IS MY HATRED OF ELIZABETH GRACEN AND A NEED FOR JUSTICE.

I JUST WANT TO GO TO THE DANIELLI AND TRY AND WASH AWAY THE STENCE OF OVER  DECADE OF DEPRAVITY?PAIN AND SUFFERING AT THE HANDS OF THAT ABOMINATION ELIZABETH GRACEN.

WILL ANYBODY DO THE RIGHT THING? GET ME TO THE FUCKING DANIELLI AND LET ME WEEP ON YOUR SHOLDER.

ONE DECENT PERSON THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT,SOLD,RENTED,LEASED AND WILL NOT OFFER AN EASEMENT ON THEIR SENSE OF INTEGRITY AND DOING WHAT IS RIGHT.

LAST SENTENCE EVER?I WANT ONE DECENT PERSON TO SAY GET IN THE CAR, OR GET IN THE PLANE A WEIGHT WOULD LIFT FROM MY HEART AS WE HIT VLOF, NEXT STOP THE DANIELLI.

This in red predates the text in blue.

I am so very ill,I want one old friend to forgive me and say get in the car Chris,next stop The Danieli.

It is July 2015,I am back on the streets,I was kicked out of a Christian Hostel by an ignorant sack of shit that has the audacity to call himself a Christian whilst behaving appallingly.

He kicked me out as I was not running around like a bunny on coke shouting hallelujah and using the word as a noun,verb and adjective.

The sack of shit that threw me out onto the streets is called Jean-Guy Thomas,of St Joseph's Village in Plounevez-Quintin,these people are scum.

The DST (Domestic Intel department of the police) called them a cult over 10 years ago.

This man is scum,he bought himself a new Volvo with donated funds whilst feeding people in the hostel with donated food that has gone off.

I am so sick of trash,cowards,and the self obsessed.

Hypocrites masquerading as Christians make me want to puke,no faith on the planet does hypocrisy with such aplomb as Christianity.

I am so fucking ill,I just want an old friend to forgive me,take me somewhere maybe The Danieli and think for me.

99.9 % of the human race are no good.

As for aiding people if I got my monies back,I would say what everybody has said to me for 13 years.

FUCK YOU.

If I got my money back I would open an animal sanctuary,from a cute little Ladybug to an Elephant,they would all be welcome and loved.

There is a spiritual syphilis upon the Western World called mindless consumerism and self obsession,America's gilt to the world.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth,it lacks moral integrity in every walk of life.

I have gone grey with all the stress The Parasitic States of America has puked all over my heart,I am a heart attack waiting to happen,I do not want to know what my systolic is.

America choreographed my psychological holocaust,I despise that nation and Uncle Tom the way a holocaust survivor would despise Nazi Germany and Hitler.

America Raped My Soul for 13 years.

Please any old friend reading this,forgive me,I cannot take any more pain and suffering,all that keeps me breathing is my hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen

Please somebody forgive me and hear my " Desperately  Seeking Portia" come and help me please,I just want one decent person to help me.

I just want one old friend to forgive me and say get in the car,I am here for you,just one,I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,I will also despise that pariah,The Parasitic States of America until the day I die.

That pariah The Parasitic States of America raped my soul for 13 years by denying me justice.

To quote a fake from Montreal .

" The homicidal bitch that goes down into every kitchen to decide who will eat and who will serve."

America is that Homicidal Bitch.

I am out of words,utterly at my wits end.

I am so very ill,all I want in this world is justice and a roof over my head.

Not  a soul walks up to me and says how can I help Chris,if I ever got my money back and anybody looked to me for funding 2 words,

FUCK OFF,where were you when I needed help.

I am so ill,I need help,I need decency and integrity. 

EMAIL chris.hepburn@laposte.net

I just want to nail the door closed,never be seen again and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney.

Disgusted will all and sundry that failed me,your actions cannot be forgiven.

Today is 18th August,I will make one last update,summer is almost over,another summer stolen from me.

My last words ,summer is all but over,every summer I hope somebody will feel some guilt and shame and help me.I

I think of my last day of happiness,Nov 8th 2002,heading to meet somebody in The Emperess Hotel in Victoria BC.

I talk below about buying a house in Amsterdam if I got my money back,no more,Holland is not for me anymore,it has become a cold self obsessed nation that embraces an my I Phone is bigger than your I Phone mentality.

The Dutch Media has also been party to a new blackout.

I am sure they will say they were just doing what they were told.

I am sure Julius Streicher`s staff at Der Sturmer said the same also

" Folgende Bestellungen" did not fly at Nuremberg either,it is a morally bankrupt position to take it also negates personal responsibility.

The help I needed was somebody saying I have somewhere you can go and try and finish your book,it never happened.

Maybe Italy,however all I need is one decent person to say get in the car with money a person has options.

Doing the right thing,an utterly alien concept in the Parasitic States of America,I could be lying,however I know I am not,I once had a Sig stuck in my face for going to a strangers aid in Boyle Heights.

Doing the right thing,I just want one person on the planet to do the right thing by me.

I am so dead inside,there is a woman 20 years younger that I that I would love to call and ask her if she has ever made love to Albinoni,s Adagio and lets do Much Ado as foreplay.

I am so old cannot do Benedict at 50.

You know what I would really like to do with the woman I talk about above,we do not know each other,I am sure somebody has told her I think she is enchanting,I would like her to call me up and invite me to dinner.

I would say,you do not want to dine with me I am fucked up,however thanks for asking,one person standing up to scum in The Cesspool By The Sea (LA) would be orgasmic.

However if I was the richest man in the world I would not call her,I am damaged goods,I am no good to her or anybody,Gracen destroyed me.

I say again if I had 3 wishes not one about money.

1 Gracen grows old and dies in a jail cell.

2 I punch Clinton out.

3 I puke on that sack of shit Moore.

I am so ill I just want one person to do the right thing.

Nothing left to say

One decent person to say get in the car,next stop The Daneili is what I need.

I am so ill,I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,I just want one decent person to do the right thing and say get in the car Chris.

If I could have any job in this world,I would be a jail guard in the jail that housed that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and I could watch it suffer the way it has made me suffer day in day out for 13 years.

Out of words,I am so fucking ill,I just want one person to do the right thing.

One person that knows how moral integrity works and to say get in the car Chris is what I need,ONE DECENT HUMAN BEING IS WHAT I NEED

I am all but dead,all that has kept me alive all these years is my hatred of Gracen and a need for justice.

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I will say this to any morally bankrupt buffoons that  masquerade as Journalists that are reading this,there is only one ethical Journalist left in this world and that is myself.

I know defacto dirty words such as ethics,honor and integrity.

Such words are forbidden in The Parasitic States of America,I know those words,however to speak Southie,I do not have a pot to piss in.

America is a cancer upon Mother Earth,a cancer that has abused and violated me for 13 years,I am not a great believer in Hare's PCL-R it is an indicator nothing more,however if America was a person and not a country and took a PCL-R it would be considered psychotic.

I received an Email last night from an elderly librarian from Boston,this lady had retired and she asked me why I hate her,her tone was conciliatory,I explained to her,I do not hate you,how can I when I do not know you.

I went on to explain to her that surely as a well read woman you must understand why I hate your country,America has stolen 13 years of my life from me,how can I not hate America.

Holocaust survivors hated Nazi Germany,I hate America.

America choreographed my psychological holocaust,I am sure there were "nice" Germans in Germany during 39-45,however Holocaust Survivors were too outraged at what Germany had done to their kith and kin to give much thought to the "nice" Germans,I am too outraged to give much thought to "nice" American's.

For so many years I have attempted to bring Gracen to justice and all I find are cowards that do not want to get involved,from inbreed Sheriffs that took all the awards for polydactylism,to The FBI,Just a few weeks ago I had an Email from an FBI S.A.C  messing with my head he said

 "I would like to help",hearing that is like Himmler talking about opening a Mikvah.

There is only one thing I want from any L.E.A in The US and that is Justice and Gracen behind bars,when it comes to investigative prowess and behavioral The FBI are the best of the best,however when it comes to honor and integrity they are the worst of the worst.

America does not do Integrity and Honor.

The C.R.S in France has a bad reputation,however I have more respect for The CRS than I have for The FBI ,a cop with The C.R.S risked his life to save my life in 1998 or 1999,The C.R.S could teach The FBI a lot about decency and integrity.

Even alleged academics in The US do not want to get involved,such people have no moral center,they are the kind of people that cowered under their beds as Hitler murdered 6 million.

They are the kind of people that did hand wringing ever so well at Evian,such people are not equipped to teach,they are pumping out mindless self obsessed consumers.

I despise America the country stole 13 years of my life and counting from me,kindness and compassion lived within my heart,America destroyed that,how can I not hate America?.

I was looking up something a few days ago a pointless charity called Human Rights Watch that wastes 50 million a year talking crap,staffed by limo liberal wanna be's.

Their Head Chimp Ken Roth takes 345,000 USD a year to talk crap.

He should be ashamed of himself purporting to care about the abused and violated whilst lining his pockets with 345,000 USD a year to talk crap.

My late daughters charity was real,we were going to feed hungry children,we were not going to talk crap at The Lincoln Center or Gracie Mansion,we were not going to talk crap anywhere,we were going  to feed hungry children in the 3rd world,we were not going to tick boxes and play with clipboards like UNICEF.

That abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole from children in the 3 rd world.

America lacks integrity and morality,it always has it is a poorly educated country,so please if any sweet little old retired librarians are reading this,I do not hate you,I hate your country.

I am so very ill,overwhelmed with cruelty,if one wanted OT drivel what The US has done to me is evil,a clinical term would be sociopathic.

I have searched for integrity and kindness within America for 13 years I have sought help,a vile woman from Idaho that I once carried a torch for that is worth millions would not even give me a sandwich as I cried myself to sleep under bridges in Paris,9 years later she has not even said sorry.

American mentality is Fuck You,Fuck Everybody,I am going to the mall to consume,Norman Rockwell will be pissed if I do not engage in mindless consumerism.

If any sweet little old librarians would like an encyclopedic knowledge of how utterly vile,vulgar and ignorant most American's are,I suggest you sit on The Blvd St Germain as if you are homeless.

You will encounter a legion of vulgar self obsessed American's that will not show you any kindness.

The MINDLESS VULGAR FUCKS are locked in consume cycles,their tiny vulgar self obsessed brains cannot even make the synaptic connection,give the wretch a coin,ask the wretch if they are hungry.

One can almost hear every beat of their heart shout ME ME ME ME ME.

Nothing goes click in their toxic vulgar hearts,I am on vacation the wretch in the gutter is not.

The homeless problem in Paris could be fixed if tourists were charged a 20 Euro Asshole Tax,they are like fucking rats in a maze in the 5 eme and 6eme,mindless vulgar consumerism,clutching their I Phones and uttering look Macdonalds,look Starbucks.

I ask sweet little old librarians the mindless fucks want Starbuck's not Proust,Americans in Paris like Americans in most places are VILE.

If somebody was selling bags of dog shit decanted by a Parisian poodle of impeccable breeding mindless vulgar Americans would be buying it whilst walking past the wretched in the gutter.

Either I am a lunatic or I am telling the truth,either way I would need help,America does not DO help,they drop bombs on innocent children and call it acceptable collateral damage.

I say again to sweet little old spinster librarians and such people,how can I not hate America?.

All that keeps me alive is my hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen,I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering,however I long to sit in a court room and see Gracen go to jail,that is all I want in this world.

I am back on the streets,I talk about this below however this " Good Christian Man" kicked me out of a Christian Hostel as I was not running around like a bunny on coke shouting hallelujah and using the word as a noun,verb and adjective.

I was also told by another lady there that as soon as he found out I used to be a Journalist he was worried and wanted me to leave as he thought  I would start digging into his background and what he is doing with donated funds.

I was walking around today in 90 degree heat picking up cigarette ends none of these " Good Christian Folk " said would you like a cigarette,plenty have said can I have a cigarette.

The guy that runs this hostel is disgusting,he used donated funds to buy himself a 50-60 k Volvo whilst feeding people with donated food that is past it's sell by date.

If these people are Christian thank fuck I am a stinking atheist

DEO GRATAIS (SIC)    CHRISTIANITY = HYPOCRISY.

Frankly how anybody buys into the Jesus Drivel is beyond me,however live and let live,maybe there was a guy called Jesus, that had a great grift going on.

God is Daddy,I expect he would be disgusted with those that use his name to justify being an asshole.

However the whole " I am a  Christian" is a code word for I am an ignorant hypocrite,I have only ever met 2 real Christians,a British pianist and an Italian nun.

I am a man of peace,however I am dealing with this vulgar ignorant guy over 15 Euro for my train,he calls himself a Christian and behaves appallingly,again a man of peace,in 13 years a living death at Gracen's hands never hurt a soul.

However punching out this guy would be so cathartic,he is young only 26,not educated,however that excuses nothing his hypocrisy makes me want to puke.

Again in closing my musings for sweet little old librarians and their kind,I am a man of peace and yet if they would re open Spandau just for me.

I would punch out this toxic "Christian" to get there,an entire prison to myself,I struggle reading Novalis and Goethe in German,an entire prison and prison library to myself sheer bliss.

Little old librarians I do not hate you,I hate your country,I can never ever get back what your country stole from me,namely 13 years of my life.

I am on the streets so very ill,there is a man in this country that owes me money,if he would just pay his debt I could leave and work on healing,however he has had 3 years to pay his debt,it is a debt that will never be paid,he is a disgusting man that I will always hate,however if he paid his debt I would be thinking of throwing a ball for my dog not my hatred of him.

I am very ill,I will never know love,I will never hear a child say Dad I Love You.

Your country made me ill,I can never get back what America has stolen from me,namely 13 years of my life,I can never sprinkle happy dust on my heart to remove what is a defcto Level 4 Bio-Haz that America puked all over my heart by the name of depravity.

However if I had justice,I could pick up supplies in Amsterdam that include a puppy with issues and play on the beech in Zandvoort with that puppy,want to sit on the beech and listen to the waves and Andre Hazes tunes.

I want something else I can never have,I want to give the person that came to my aid a hug and say thank you for doing the right thing,in 13 years of searching I have not found such a person,all I have found are cowards and the self obsessed,I will never ever forgive such people,I will never ever forgive a disgusting woman worth millions from Idaho that failed me.

Lastly for sweet little old librarians,something wrong with me,I should have seen through Gracen,also the only woman my heart ever craved never existed,in her place lived a toxic vulgar woman that would not even give me a sandwich,yes something so wrong with my heart however my heart is not depraved in the way that America's heart is depraved.

I say in closing to sweet little old librarians how can I not hate America.

Back to idiots masquerading as journalists.

I would only even talk with one Journalist and I have no interest in going on cam with scum like Letterman or Leno,if a single media outlet broke this it would go global quickly,that is not ego,I have no ego,that is fact.

I am nobody,Gracen is nobody,however Gracen is sucking Mr Cracker,Bill Clinton's putrid pox ridden dick so it is not prosecuted,also my grandmother was an icon.

If one journalist broke this,you would be globally syndicated.

I will only even talk to one Journalist,you will be able to dine out on this for 20 years in a similar manner to how that sack of shit Bob Woodward dines out on Watergate.

Children in the 3 rd world have died due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen stealing funds from my late daughters charity that should have provided food and medication for them.

If one media outlet broke this,I would have more media than Cobweb Clooney for a while.

I would not use the media the way that self obsessed  semi literate buffoon Cobweb Clooney does,namely to inspire the great unwashed to bask in his ego and and self perceived importance or to try and convince the terminally confused to buy overpriced coffee machines.

As I said I do not have a pot to piss in,however I have one thing Clooney does not have,honor and integrity.

I am also a Gentleman,Clooney is not.

The last Gentleman in The Cesspool By The Sea (LA) was Brando.

I knew Brando and if he was alive today he would not be doffing his cap to the likes of Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer,he would have stood up for what is right.

I would use the media to right a great wrong.

All I want in this world is for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in jail,I want to look at Mont Blanc,listen to Bach and know as I am doing that Gracen is suffering in a jail cell.

That abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole millions from my late daughters charity and myself,the abomination also raped my soul and left me homeless on the streets of Paris.

Years on the streets due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

When I say millions I am not exaggerating,I explain below,however to be concise Gracen sold a Television Show that I developed to Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer and kept everything.

75 percent of those monies belonged to my late daughters charity and should have been used to provide food and medication for children in the 3 rd world.

My daughter was murdered by her mother,I wanted her name to live on in deeds and actions,Gracen stole from that charity.

I want nothing to do with this world,I just want to nail the door closed and never be seen again,just take 3 things that are in the kiddy media today,it speaks volumes of how fucked up this world is.

1  That vulgar self obsessed sack of shit Angelina Jollie is in a DP camp in North Africa,using hungry children for photo ops,utterly disgusting,she will then get in her chopper and go to a 5 star hotel suite as Children scratch in the dirt.

2 I see Laurent Fabius is in Tel Aviv,talking shit,really somebody should say to him,shut the fuck up dullard,if you want to make yourself useful make the coffee.

3 I also see Widow Twankey,The Pope talking shit about refugees,how many has he taken back to The Vatican to house,they are the same refugees that the church ignores however the Church of Rome wallows in vulgarity,self obsession,hypocrisy,piety and simony ever so well.

Great Idea would be canceling The Lateran Treaty,The Vatican would make a great homeless shelter,once they washed away the stench of hypocrisy and ignorance.

Actually 4 things,Hilary Clinton is running for office,just what the world needs more WT in 1600,The Clinton's could be the Poster People for a Pro Eugenics Lobby "No More White Trash"

One day in the world speaks how utterly screwed up this world is.

All I want is a little peace and quiet,I have not had a single day of emotional rest since Nov 8 th 2002,there was an album that got me through a lousy childhood,Hunky Dory,cannot even find solace there as Bowie is an asshole.

I came across an enchanting version of Life On Mars,Jessica Lange is doing this Dietrich wannabe thing with the song,it works well,all that is missing is Frans Bieberkopf and a smoke filled cabaret on the Ku,Damm.

Lange can act,however shame she cannot do integrity and stand up for what is right.

I have a lot in common with The Girl With The Mousy Hair,we are both saddened about the banality of the times we live in.

Talking about songs.

I thought that sack of shit from Idaho  understood Hazel O'Connors Will You and Joan Baez's Diamonds And Rust,that is like thinking a dog is a cat or Cobweb Clooney or Mustard-Seed Cruise could do Lear.

I will never know what was wrong with me for being drawn to such an obscenity,I poured my heart out to her via Email as I was on the streets,about that abomination Gracen,about crying myself to sleep under a bridge,she would not even give me a sandwich.

9 years later not even a sorry Chris.

If anybody wants to donate to my real estate fund that currently stands at about 48 cents,feel free.

I only ask those that I have not reached out to,those that ignored my cries cannot buy forgiveness,I would not take a cent from such people,the house would stink of depravity and perversity. if I used any money from those that ignored my cries to buy it

Look at www.27huis.nl and the property for sale at Prisengracht 378.

I want to buy that and nail the door closed and never be seen again.

I am so very ill,utterly overwhelmed with cruelty and depravity,I found some peace in a Solesmes Abbey  however Abbott Philippe Dupont  of Solesmes Abbey  kicked me out as I would not suck his cock.

There was one Monk there that I liked he was no towering intellect or theologian,an American called Father Micheal Bozell,he is the brother or an American Redneck Media Pundit called Brent Bozell.

Brent Bozell disseminates ignorance as if it is currency.

I liked Father Micheal Bozell,I felt sorry for him,wasting his life with Puppy Dog Christianty,however he lacked the moral fortitude to do the right thing.

He threw me out of the streets as Abbott Philippe Dupont told him to as I would not suck Dupont's cock,The Church of Rome is an abomination awash with depravity and hypocrisy.

I contacted The Abbott Primate of The Order Of St Benedict a Notker Wolf,he told me he could not do anything,maybe he was busy talking shit or maybe busy saying to Choir Boys Bist du geil?.

Disgusting  people bereft of any vestige of moral or ethical integrity.

Bronte said it better "God is not with Rome".

I am not being Anti Catholic,so many have died over the years due to the my God is bigger than your God.

Live and let live is my motto,however The Church of Rome is an abomination awash with depravity and hypocrisy.

Solesmes Abbey in a den of depravity,hypocrisy and ignorance.

43 Monks live in a monastery that could house over 500 homeless wretches and wallow in Puppy Dog Christianity.

Mindless servile platitudes lacking any foundation in learned theology whilst behaving in a disgusting manner that lacks any of the decency,kindness and compassion that Christ allegedly displayed in The Gospels.

Mindless Puppy Dog Christianity,wagging their tails in mindless supplication,what a good God you are,

That is all the monks do,no thought,no intellect just mindless supplication,if their God existed and he wanted that surely he would have just made puppies.

The monks waste the lives that they believe their god gave them wagging their tales and behaving appallingly.

We also have an Abbott who's paraphilias include wanting his cock sucked by a middle aged basket case such as I.

Where the fuck is Tom Cruise when you need him?,Tom likes a little cock.

Shame Mustard-Seed Cruise was not around,he could have given a Lecture at UCLA on Comparative Cock Sucking,secular cock versus monastic cock,it is the kind of drivel that would go down at that kindergarten that masquerades as a University.

I am sure they could have got him a box to stand on so he could be seen from behind the podium,he could expound on David Geffen's cock V The Abbots cock,I am sure his audience would be enchanted hearing his whimsical musings.

I am old enough to tell The Abbott to fuck off.

Young boys that have been sexually abused by RC Clergy all over the planet cannot,live and let live,however how anybody with a modicum of common sense gives any credence to any single utterance that comes from the Church of Rome with the exception of Pope Adrian calling the Irish a barbaric race of people is beyond me.

I must have tried 100's of Church people from Parish Priests to Cardinals to Widow Twankey AKA The Pope in The Theater Of The Absurd,The Vatican,trying to find another monastery.

The Vatican,live and let live,however however how people believe anything that citadel of hypocrisy The Vatican has to say is beyond me.

Out of the 100's of church people I emailed not one would help,too busy being important?,busy talking shit or maybe buggering young boys,I am disgusted with them,they have the audacity to call themselves Christians,disgusting people.

I found one place to take me in a bunch of nice friendly Jesus Freaks,however missionary mentality,7.45 AM they are singing Jesus Wants Me For A Fucking Sunbeam, have to go to be allowed to stay here,it is fucking psychological torture.

S.A.V.A.K  could not come up with a greater psychological torture than Jesus wants me for a sunbeam at 7.45AM.

It is offensive telling people what time to pray,however typical of Rome as the self professed guardians of the faith,Juvenal works better and talks of Rome's depravity and perversity " Quis custodiet ipos custodes"

No intellect at work within Catholicism,Sheep Mentality.

My belief system is based on empirical data, SCIENCE that can be quantified and qualified,The Jesus Drivel is based on a false epistemology.

I want to give the mindless fucks a copy of the periodic table and scream evolve and meet God.

I never get to sleep before 3 or 4 AM,and then I have the alarm set for 7.30 for Deluded 101 at 7.45 AM,Jesus Wants Me For A Fucking Sunbeam.

That is what I have been reduced to by that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

The Jesus Freaks are kicking me out as I do not share their delusion,nobody does hypocrisy,bigotry and a lack of tolerance with such aplomb as The Church of Rome,they have turned such things into an art form.

If one extrapolates from the actions of that guy that never existed,Christ displayed in the gospels,he preached tolerance.

For 2000 years The Church of Rome has been preaching hypocrisy and intolerance towards people that do not share their delusion.

I could have pretended to share their delusion,I can even quote scripture in Latin,I am ex R.A.D.A and could do Hamlet on my head whilst knitting a scarf and fucking Pamela Anderson and Serena Williams.

I prefer Yiddish to Latin,Gutskeit iz besser dan frumkeit,such things are lost of The Church of Rome.

Even Cannon Law is dull,plodding and pedantic,Roma Locuta Est,causa fini est,at least with Halakhic Law there is always a Get Out Of Jail Free Clause if you look hard enough.

Pretending to be one of Rome's sheep would not be hard,however why the fuck should I have to pretend to be something I am not to be accepted.

The man that kicked me out could be an inspiration for satire about The Church of Rome,he reminds me of Ned Flanders from The Simpsons,mindless platitudes lacking any depth or meaning.

There was only 1 educated person there an art teacher that I liked,however 2 people I liked that were kind to me,a man in a wheelchair gave me a shirt and an older lady took me to get some clothes,I will always remember these people fondly,if they had maintained kindness I would have done something nice for them if I got my money back.

However in the end they failed,they did not stand up to for what is right,they did not tell the guy that kicked me out that he is a hypocrite saying he is a man of God and kicking out a wretch to live on the streets.

They did not put their hands if their pocket and give me a few euro,they did not even say goodbye to me,I expect they were so ashamed of their cowardice.

I am a man of peace but I came so close to punching out this scum bag that purports to be a Christian whilst kicking me out to live on the streets,buying himself a 50-60 k Volvo with donated funds and giving people in the hostel donated food that has gone off.

He is a disgusting man that has no honor or integrity,people think they are helping wretches and they are buying a disgusting man a Volvo.

He kicked me out,do you not just love Christianity,I came close to punching this man out,I also came close to " Scrap The Volvo Clyde" however I do not want to fight with scum that call themselves Christians,I just want to go to Amsterdam and try and finish a book I started 18 years ago.

There is a disgusting man in this country that owes me money,if he paid his debt I could could work on healing,he has owed me for 3 years.

I need Spiritual Epinephrine,that does not come in an auto injector,that comes by somebody saying get in the car Chris,have a hug,have a puppy,want to see my tits or should we start an international incident between Lichtenstein and San Marino.

I need to laugh I need to cry on the shoulder or a decent person.

I just want peace and quiet,no Jesus Drivel.

I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,no forgiveness is possible,the hatred fester's within my heart,the one I hate most is that scum from Idaho,Christmas Day 2005 she murdered me spiritually by her inaction,I was so sure she would be there for me,the emails I send her from under my bridge in Paris would have a toaster in  tears.

I am so very ill,I need decency,I need compassion and I need to get out of this country that has crapped on me day in day out for so long,nobody has the decency to walk up to me and say how can I help Chris?.

I just wish an old friend would forgive me and say get in the car,where do you want to go,failing that I wish somebody I have not reached out to would reach out to me and say get in the car,where do you want to go?.

So many people here know of my pain and suffering and yet not one has the moral backbone to walk up to me and say how can I help?.

I am so very very ill,so dead in my heart,I think more and more about ending my life,however if I do Gracen has gotten away with it,I exist with only one purpose in this toxic world bringing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to justice.

Watched a cute movie last night,Larry Crowe,thought to myself the years have been kind to Julia Roberts,looked up her age only 2 years younger than I.

I expect sleeping with Julia Roberts would be a Kodak Moment,no it would be a 15 Perf moment,yet if she knocked on my door and said I am really into Basket Cases,will you show me your orgasmatron,all I would do is go on and on about that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

Actually thinking about it sleeping with Julia Robert's would not be fun,she did not stand up to be counted,she did not come to a wretches aid,she did not aid the children my late daughters charity would have aided,she was however a good little chimp doffing her cap to Jerry Bruckheimer,she lacks honor and integrity.

I want to sleep with somebody that does not exist,I want to sleep with the person that came running to my aid as I was crying myself to sleep under bridges in Paris,I want to sleep with the person that came running to my aid as I was being abused by Fenian Scum.

Ireland is the asshole of the planet and Donegal is the asshole of the asshole,I was told by Liam Ward the head of Donegal County Council housing we do not want your kind or niggers here,I contacted his boss Sheamus Nealy and was told Ward is right we do not want your kind or niggers here.

Nealy also had his buddy a corrupt Chief Super dispatch his men violate me,they took my laptop and my I Pod,looking for

                                        "Unauthorized Thoughts".

2.5 years later I still do not have them back,now The Irish have a genetic disorder,they are stupid,however nobody can be that stupid it takes 2.5 years to mirror a hard drive.

There is an Irish Occam's Razor,if there is a way to fuck it up,Paddy will find it,genetic depression due to inbreeding,limited variation of allele's and the gene pool is further reduced as most people good at anything in Ireland leave.

The Garda, The Irish Police are a bunch of ignorant thugs.

2 years later they stole another computer from me as the powers that be did not like a play I wrote that was a modern version of The Playboy Of The Western World that addressed Irish ignorance and vulgarity.

I want to sleep with the person that came running to my aid when Fenian Thugs in Uniform stole my computer 1700 Euro and kicked the crap out of me,I want to sleep with the person that arrived with a legion of attorneys as I was being judicially violated by a bunch of fucking yokels in Manitoba in 2002.

A decent human being that came to my aid,I want to weep on her shoulder and fuck like bunnies and pour scorn all over the vile,the vulgar and the mindless,such a person does not exist,all these years later nobody stood up for what is right,nobody came to my aid.

I am an old man that has become embittered with rage and hatred towards Elizabeth Gracen,cowards and the self obsessed.

I just wish I could go back to The Rue Au Maire in Paris,circa 1997 I was so alive then Paris and I were working on a Gothic Novel that would not have been out of place next to Stoker of Le Fanu,them came the first Gold Digger,The Mennonite,I had a brief respite and then came the 2nd Gold Digger That WT from Arkansas Elizabeth Gracen.

I sit here alone,no family,not a friend in the world as I lost them all due to my drunken years after my daughter was murdered,so utterly overwhelmed with a cruelty and depravity that even Kafka could not have penned.

Just last week I emailed a few 100 Professors of Law,not one of them has any integrity within their heart,they are pumping out mindless consumers,the smart guys will do IP Litigation for Corp Dross and the dummies will be chasing ambulances.

This world has become so very dumb,one last example.

Cannes Film Festival used to be something special,Andre Brezin will be spinning in his grave at what it has become,in effect a Mutual Masturbation Society for dross from The Cesspool By The Sea (LA),I see they have that fake Jane Fonda,talk about mutton dressed as lamb,if they want to clear the room remove her make up,and have her start uttering

"Where Hast Thou Been Sister"

Should she not have married Denver Pyle by now and fucked off to a cabin in the woods in New Hampshire so as not to scare young children and cute little kittens.

I want no part of this world,I just want to nail the door closed in Amsterdam and know Gracen is in pain in a jail cell,knowing it suffers the way it has made me suffer for 13 years is the only thing in this world that would give me any solace and  clarity of thought.

Part of the ignorance America has infested the planet with sharing is wrong,however,decency is wrong,integrity is wrong.

HoweverThe American Department of Terrorism,The Pentagon share their bombs with innocent children in 3rd world countries,Yes The American Dream,How fucking vile.

American Ignorance has infested the planet,the latest drivel The WT Father of The Kardashian's now wants to be a woman,shame he did not become a woman before he sired his quintet of trash.

This is the news coming out of The Parasitic States of America.

America is a CANCER upon Mother Earth,a CANCER that has taken 13 years of my life from me,as for Clinton,what a big tough guy he is,it takes a tough guy of Clinton's ilk to rape women,it takes a tough guy of Clinton's ilk to drop bombs on non combatant journalists in a TV station in Belgrade.

I am a man of peace,I do not want to blow anything up,however embracing pure Kantian logic,the planet would be a better place if the crazies blew America off the map on 911.

I came across something this morning that speaks volumes about American ignorance,The Chief Redneck of the state of Wisconsin,Scott Walker believes guns should be legal and cannabis should be illegal.

What a fucking ignorant utterly American statement,it poses the question would he prefer Risperdone or Olazzapine with his cornflakes.

I watched the Jurassic World last night,the last Jurassic Park movie,crap no script,rehashing the same old theme,will work for an American audience as they are MORONS.

However one thing that was spot on in that movie was a guy from The D.O.D turns up and wants to train the dinosaurs to eat the enemy,that is American Ignorance for you.

Uncle Tom,Obama is no towering intellect and is morally bankrupt,however a shame he cannot get out FDR'S chair and have a Fireside Chat with the nation along the lines of " We are a nation of vulgar ignorant morons,maybe we should do something about it" however the asshole does not even have the balls to sign an EO to ban guns as he would loose the ignorant vote of rednecks that want to play with guns.

All the drivel about God Bless America,God Fuck America works better,lets pretend there is a God,surely he would be disgusted with such a vulgar pariah as America.

I am so fucking ill,utterly burned out with cruelty and depravity,I just want to buy that place in Amsterdam and nail the door closed and know Gracen suffers in jail.

Utterly at my wits end.

This world has become so very dumb.

America has infested the planet with ignorance,Vanity Fair is no weighty tome on anything,a waste of paper produced by Conde Nast a corporate whore,The Editor Graydon Carter is a dull plodding pedantic buffoon that writes like shit.

However how can anybody that works for that rag take themselves serious when they have a cover of White Trash that sired more White Trash,The Father of The Kardashians that now wants to be a woman,a waste of ink,children are dying in this world and chimps masquerading as journalists are puking up ink about such drivel.

As I said I can never ever get back the 13 years that have been stolen from me,if The Ethics Pixie was slumming it on Pennsylvania Ave and throw some pixie dust on that sack of shit,Uncle Tom that infests The White House,I cannot get back the 13 years of my life that have been stolen from me.

So  utterly at my wits end,all that keeps me breathing is my HATRED of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and a dark primal desire to know it suffers in a jail cell.

I am so fucking disgusted with The Parasitic States of America,it is a CANCER upon Mother Earth.

Wits end with everything,I will never ever forgive those that failed me,the one I despise the most is that sack of shit Moore,the emails I send her would have had a washing machine in tears,she read my emails and climbed into a warm bed as I was crying myself to sleep under a bridge in Paris and did nothing.

13 years later no fucker has done the right thing by me,that sack of shit Moore has not even said sorry for failing me,I look at my life never hurt a soul,the worst thing I have even done is freelance for Ad Agency's and made good money trying to convince morons to buy crap,nobody ever lived under a bridge due to my actions.

All I want in this world is for that abomination Gracen to rot in jail.

ALL I WANT IS JUSTICE AND PEACE AND QUIET,NO FUCKING JESUS DRIVEL AT 7.45 AM.

NOTHING LEFT TO UPDATE ,DISGUSTED WITH EVERYTHING,everything below predates my update.

I have made a few updates above,I will not be making anymore,I waste my time saying this,however if anybody can find kindness in their heart get me the fuck out of Dodge,my shrine is on Prisengracht 378 Amsterdam.

SO UTTERLY BURNED OUT WITH DEPRAVITY AND PERVERSITY,WANT TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF DODGE.

What a disgusting world,all I WANT IS JUSTICE AND GRACEN IN JAIL.I AM SO VERY ILL.

I say again if I had 3 wishes not one about money.

1 Gracen in jail.

2 I punch Clinton out.

3 I puke on that sack of shit Moore.

Will anybody in this world do the right thing?.

Using Miranda V AZ In the allegorical sense you do not have the right to be silent during acts of depravity,perversity and crimes against humanity,you do not have the right to embrace cowardice and self obsession,you do not have the right to cower under your bed when your voice should be speaking for those that can no longer speak for themselves.

All and sundry have the right to stand up for what is right,what is good and noble,what is ethical,what is just.

We live in a world where the mindless clutch their I Phones to their breast whilst saying bah bah bah,I am a good little sheep whilst doffing their cap to Madison Ave.

Shortly the I Morons will be standing in line to buy their I Watches,The children that Gracen stole from did not want overpriced crap from Apple,they wanted to eat,they wanted to live,they wanted to prosper.

Children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity,good and noble men and women have the right to scream from the rooftops over injustice and inequity,if the mindless that did hand wringing ever so well at Evian had stood up for what was right maybe 6 million would not have died.

How many need to die until it is wrong,how many children have died due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity?.

That abomination Elizabeth Gracen did not just steal from me but from children in the 3rd world,Gracen in effect has a " Get out of jail free card" issued by Mr Cracker,Bill Clinton,it is not tin foil hat time,just Google the name Elizabeth Gracen and it will confirm the Clinton connection,Gracen first shared a bed with Bill Clinton to obtain a Miss Arkansas crown,Gracen is still sharing a bed with Clinton now so that it is not prosecuted.

I see  how dumb this world has become,America has infested the planet with ignorance,Level 4 Bio Haz,ignorance is everywhere.

I see a talentless chimp Miley Cyrus has murdered Melanie Safka song "Look what they have done to my song",What a world,Safka has a wonderful voice,now we have talentless chimps murdering her song,I knew Fairlight's with more talent than Cyrus,what a world ignorance is endemic.

Even countries that used to work no longer work,Sweden gave the world Raoul Wallenberg,a man that did the right thing.

Now Sweden has given the world a pointless buffoon by the name of Jan Eliasson,The Deputy Secretary General in that big building where everybody talks shit,The UN,The Buffoon struts around like a peacock on cocaine enraptured by his own self importance,however in truth a waste of space lacking moral integrity.

This world has become so very dumb,I want no part of it,I  want to nail the door closed and be as shallow as Cobweb Clooney.

I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,no forgiveness is possible just as Mr Goldstein could not forgive those that stood by and did nothing as Hitler murdered his kith and kin.

I no longer care about anything or anybody,it has been kicked out of me,also not a soul on the planet cares about me,however if I got my monies back 75% would go direct to the homeless in London and Paris,those monies never belonged to me,the homeless in London and Paris have nobody,charity's that are meant to aid the homeless do not have a clue,staffed by inept middle class buffoons,5k to every homeless person in London and Paris would come close to fixing the homeless problem.

If I got my money back my late daughters name would come close to fixing the homeless problem in 2 cities,the first and last thing The Anastasia Paris Foundation will ever do,that was my late daughters name Anastasia Paris,she was murdered by her own mother,that abomination Elizabeth Gracen stole from The Anastasia Paris Foundation before we even got it off the ground..

I had a dream a few nights ago about hanging that abomination Elizabeth Gracen from the Chrysler Building,however in truth I do not want Gracen to die for if it is dead it cannot suffer,I want it to rot in jail where it can reflect on all the pain and suffering it has caused me.

Summer is almost upon us again,every summer for over a decade I have craved a bullshit free adventure with somebody with a good heart that can count past 10 and fuck to the Gypsy King's,I knew such people,I lost them all due to my drunken years after my daughter was murdered.

They were what I would call a Fuck Buddy Plus,somebody you can also call up at 4 am and say Richelieu's men have kidnapped my kitten,a friend that knows the works of Dr Kegel that can go from Homer DOH to Homer KALISPERA.

Somebody that can go from a campfire and a tent to The Coco Chanel Suite in The Ritz,somebody to break bread with,share bon mots,laughter and orgasms,somebody I would maintain a friendship with,she could marry an accountant from Westchester or rework Euripides into a contemporary setting,whatever she did we would remain friends,I lost them all due to my drunken years.

Every summer for over a decade I have craved such an adventure,however I scratch in the dirt,homeless,I could find a fellow Basket Case and we could do mutual loathing and make little Basket Cases,however Renaissance Man Seeks Renaissance Woman for summer fling is no more,he was murdered by that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

I maintain lower brain function with but one dream knowing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen rots in jail,I want no part of this world,it has become so very dumb,thinking about British Comedy,used to be something Monty Python,The Young Ones,Comic Strip,now alleged comedians like a Ricky and Russell,they are about as funny as syphilis,this world has become so very dumb,I just want to nail the door closed and never be seen again.

All I want in this world is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen rotting in jail.

I am utterly disgusted with cowards that do not want to get involved,the kind of people that in a different time and place cowered under their beds as Hitler murdered 6 million,children have died due to Gracen stealing from my late daughters charity,there is only one acceptable response,that is moral outrage.

Allow me to share words of wisdom from Martin Niemoller,if you hail from The USA hopefully a foreign national can explain it to you.

I am utterly disgusted with that pariah known as the USA,as soon as people hear the name Clinton they do not want to get involved.

" First they came for the Socialists and I did not speak out as I was not a socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists and I did not speak out as I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews and I did not speak out as I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me and there was no left to speak for me."

I am also utterly disgusted with the morally bankrupt,I talk more about this below,however at one time I was trying to pull a movie together about people coming together for the common good,I was a fool no such thing of the common good,the clarion call of most people is,me,myself and I.

I am still dealing with idiots that think I am still trying to pull a movie together and want to be noticed,they make my skin crawl,firstly I have no interest in film or stage,I will also never act again unless I can do Lear with Brando and Gielgud or skin with Jennifer Lopez.

Secondly the way to be noticed is to open your mouth with an Hello Chris,how can I help.

If somebody gave me a hug it would remind me I was still alive,if somebody gave me a job it would give me a sense of purpose,if somebody gave me a euro I could buy a coffee from a machine,if somebody gave me 300 euro I could spend a week in a cheap hotel,if somebody gave me 1.3 mil I could buy this wonderful house in Amsterdam,however if somebody opened their mouth and said Hello Chris,how are you?,the answer would be I am screwed up,however thank you for taking the time to ask,that is how to be noticed.

My late daughters charity would have been ethical,I talk more about this below,however so many charities that are not ethical,I lived in the doorway of the most uncharitable charity in the UK, Age UK Tavistock Square for 3 months,their chimps would walk past me  as if I was not there when I was homeless wretch in their doorway and return to their cubicles and "play" at caring about the elderly,there must have been a 100 chimps in their offices,however only one decent guy,a black guy in his 20's he always had a smile and a cup of coffee for me.

1 decent guy out of about a 100,that is Age UK for you,my first encounter with Age UK was being woken up at 6.30 am in their doorway by a security guard,not good morning wretch care to use the toilets,would you like a coffee,I was told to go to hell and leave albeit in polite language.

Age UK are not fit for purpose,Tom Wright their CEO is a disgusting man that is morally and ethically bankrupt,he takes a salary of 190k Sterling a year and has the audacity to say he advocates for the elderly,some old people cannot even afford to turn the heating on in the winter as the UK has the lowest state pension in any EU15 country,The Greedy Party are in power in the UK with that toxic greedy buffoon Cameron at the helm that could not care less about the needy.

Another one that is meant to aid the homeless called Crime Reduction Initiative,I liked a few people I met from that charity as people,they were friendly and nice,however they were also totally ineffectual,they "play" at helping the homeless,also their CEO David Biddle is scum,he takes a salary of 170k Sterling and has the audacity to say he cares for the homeless,he is in effect taking bread out of the mouths of the homeless.

During the siege of Sarajevo some people risked their life to help other people,others profited from the spoils of war,David Biddle profits from the suffering of the homeless,a disgusting man.

Another disgusting man that profits from the plight of the homeless is John Bird,that publishes The Big Issue,He has homeless wretches lurking on street corners selling his mindless twee rag,he says he is helping them by allowing them to keep half,I am sure a pimp would say the same thing,the homeless should write for the big issue.

However Bird has Guardian(Annoying left of center British Newspaper that pontificates and have turned hypocrisy into an art form) wannabe's lurking in cubicles and playing with crayons,he calls them journalists,they have never been homeless,Bird lives in one of the most expensive areas of London and the homeless paid for his house,he should be ashamed of himself.

The charity I despise the most is RSF,Reporters Without Borders,it is personal they are vile,they do not help journalists,they pontificate and line their own pockets,I begged a mile away from their offices for 2 years and they did nothing to help me,maybe they do not help journalists called Chris.

These were just drunken thoughts that would run around my head,I am not an arsonist,however in my drunken stupor I would sit in a park near their offices and wish for a TI camera to make sure nobody was in the building and an accelerant.

They are disgusting people,they stink of vulgarity and fraud,they have a new head chimp that took over from a racist called Robert Menard,their new head chimp is called Christophe Deloire,a disgusting man bereft of any sense of guilt or shame,36 should investigate them for fraud,I can feel a rant coming on so I will leave it at that,I will despise them until the day I die,all their mindless drivel about protecting journalists,they failed to protect a journalist that lived under a bridge a mile from their office.

My late daughters charity would have been ethical,I would not even have taken a cup of coffee out of donated funds,that cup of coffee could have paid for ORS and saved a life.

I am so very ill,however you will not find my illness in an ICD10,I am utterly overwhelmed with cruelty and depravity,I have not known a day of happiness since Nov 8th 2002 due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

I have no hidden agenda,all I want is justice after that I want to nail the door closed and be as shallow as George Clooney,depth and compassion got me nowhere,maybe being an air head like Clooney will.

I cannot nail the door closed at the moment as I am living on the streets and somewhere in this world that abomination Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself.

It is very hard for me to find the energy to press keys on a computer,I want to pull the covers over my head and never wake up,I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering at Gracen's hands,however there is one thing I want more than death,I want to sit in a court room and see Gracen go to jail.

There is a trig point about 5 miles away from St Nicholas La Chapelle,I want to go there look at Mont Blanc,I want to listen to Pachelbel's Cannon and hold onto the ostinato and let my mind wander with the other voices,there is no anger in his cannon,just a mathematical precision of harmony.

I want to know Gracen is suffering in a jail cell as I am doing this,that is all I want in this world.

I am already dead in the spiritual and emotional sense and I have been since Nov 8th 2002 due to that abomination Elizabeth Gracen,however I maintain autonomic function with only one dream seeing Gracen go to jail and know that it suffers the way it has made me suffer for over a decade.

I have in the metaphoric sense been climbing up and down Mount Purgatory since Nov 8th 2002 due to Gracen,however I do not have Virgil or Beatrice with me,I am alone in the darkness and sadness,the despair is all encompassing,I am not clinically depressed,I am overwhelmed with cruelty and depravity at the hands of the woman I thought I would grow old with.

Gracen did not just take monies that belonged to my late daughters charity and myself,Gracen took my health and raped my soul.

I have moved my old website to www.chrishepburn.net 

It is 2 years of anger and disgust where I rant and rave about that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and cowards that do not want to get involved,I express myself with a Joycean stream of consciousness that is hard to read,this revision will be easier to read.

I shall attempt to be concise and maintain a linear narrative,however such things are very hard for me,I am so very ill utterly overwhelmed with cruelty,I am also so utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,the kind of people that cowered under their beds as Hitler murdered 6 million,people utterly bereft of moral faculty.

I am also disgusted with a sack of shit from Idaho that I used to pour my heart out to her via Email as I lived on the streets of Paris,the emails I sent her would have had a washing machine in tears.

The washing machine would have felt my sadness and despair and have come to my aid,the sack of shit from Idaho has a lot of money but would not even give me a sandwich as I was crying myself to sleep under bridges in Paris looking like a wretch that escaped from a Delocroix painting.

This website is the concise version and I and I will attempt to limit my anger and disgust and use language that the Headmistress of Cheltenham Ladies College would approve off,however it is very difficult for me to speak Daily Mail ( An awful British Newspaper for the terminally confused lower middle classes),I want to rant and rave,I want to scream,I want to verbally eviscerate cowards and the self obsessed,however that is what I do on my other website, www.chrishepburn.net

Today is 6th January 2015,another year of my life that abomination Elizabeth Gracen has stolen from me,I am living on the streets in tears that I am still alive,I have only one friend in this world,death,however I shun her with but one dream sitting in a court room and seeing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.I have never hated anything in this world the way I hate Gracen,however after hating Gracen I hate myself as I once loved it.

I have never ever laid a hand on a woman,domestic abuse is one of my pet hates,only a coward would hit a woman,however I have had this recurring dream for years where I shoot Gracen 102 times,firstly I never ever had violent dreams in my life before Gracen,I want to dream about monkeys that can talk and play Brahms,I want to dream about Lucy Liu demonstrating the works of Dr Kegel,I want to dream about nice things,I used to before Gracen raped my soul.

Secondly I do not want Gracen to die,death is to good for it,I want it to rot in a jail cell so it can reflect on all the pain and suffering it has caused me.

I will start this by explaining what Gracen did and then go on to who I am,what my late daughters charity was all about and then move on to my 12 years of hell I have endured with a cancer by the name of Elizabeth Gracen upon my soul.

I am dead in the spiritual sense,my spiritual death occurred on Christmas Day 2005 as I begged on the streets of Paris,I was waiting for somebody from Idaho to arrive and say Hello Chris,stop talking like that I am married,however this is my shoulder,how can I help?,hindsight is a wonderful thing,expecting her to help me is like expecting The Bitch of Buchenwald to open a mikvah.

I turned White Trash into a Renaissance Woman in my heart,White Trash is still White Trash even in Channel with a sack of money,10 years later she has not even said sorry to me,I showed her my soul with Proustian precision,she could not show me hers,it was removed to make way for Juvederm and other fillers.

I am sure she knows I am back on the streets,nothing goes click in her heart and tells her to help,she did not just fail me she also failed children in the 3rd world that my late daughters charity would have aided.

What is bizarre is she was the only woman my heart truly craved,or rather I craved a version of her that never existed,a version of her that was a construct within my heart but never existed,to this day I do not know how anybody can read the emails I sent her and do nothing,I will never forgive her until the day I die,I wish I knew what was the matter with me for being drawn to this woman,first time I ever saw her was at an award function.

I wanted to crawl under the chairs,bring her off with my tongue,then meet her eyes and say Marry Me,I expect my tongue would have melted,I just wish I knew what was the matter with me for being drawn to her in a way that I have never been drawn to anybody,it was not her money,she looks wonderful,I have had my share of women that look wonderful,I have no idea what was the matter with me for being drawn to such a cruel toxic woman.

How anybody can be so cruel and depraved is beyond me,how anybody can go through life without a moral center like her is beyond me,for all her money not an modicum of decency or integrity within her heart.

I have given her the chance to redeem herself and she failed,not even a sorry Chris,I would never accept her sorry or break bread with her,however if it was offered I could have told myself that somewhere deep down there was some decency and goodness,she is morally and ethically vacuous,the worst thing is she knows I would never have failed her

She was the only woman I ever truly wanted,Gracen, a Canadian gold-digger by the name of Poetker and a legion of others from my Gentleman Slut Days were all substitutes as I could not have her,of course I could not have her she never existed.

Gallows Humor,in my next life I want to be a Lesbian Dolphin,I no longer look up things,I want to take things out of my head not put things in,I am a basket case intellectual that wants to be a moron,morons are happy their intellectual eco system is so small.

I was watching a show called Boardwalk Empire that surprised me as the production company that made it normally makes drivel,Boardwalk Empire was very well made,except for CCU's of violence,however violence sells in America and that goes back to Emma Lazarus and " Throw Me Your Rejects".

A quote from Brando about that."We got a lot of scum and dummies,we got people from the lowest echelons of society".

That is why as a nation America is a retard that has never evolved,it was a recipe that used left overs that had gone off.

America is a pariah,what are her gifts to the world,they make nice bombs that they drop on innocents,they infest they destroy communities with McDonald's and Starbucks,they are turning children into morons on a global level with drivel like Facebook and Twitter,the first time I ever saw Fox News I did not know if I should laugh or cry,American Ignorance broadcast 24 hours a day.

I was not always a homeless wretch,I knew Brando,he was a gentleman,the last honest man in the industry,he was also the only man with goodness in his heart that could count past 10 on Mullholland.

If he was alive today he would have stood up for what is right,he would not be doffing his cap to toxic talentless trash like Mr Celluloid Vomit,Jerry Bruckheimer,he would have been there for me or anybody in pain.

To rewrite the man himself,"Lets Sit Upon The Ground And Tell Tales Of Scumbags" Brando would have been there,as would have been John Gielgud,Terry Thomas and Marlene Dietrich,as I said I was not always a homeless wretch,I knew them,they had class,honor and integrity within their hearts,that is something that cannot be bought.

They were people with personalities that were real and decent,their personalities lived in their hearts they were not constructed by publicists from The Cesspool By The Sea,LA,look at toxic self obsessed cowardly  dross like Cobweb Clooney who's personality was constructed by publicists and has the audacity to call himself a Human Rights Activist at the same time he is trying to convince morons to buy over priced coffee machines.

John Gielgud would not have been trying to sell overpriced coffee machines to confused 30 something Vanity Fair readers, the people that are Nextpresso target demographic are almost as fake as Cobweb Clooney.

Back to Boardwalk Empire somebody in it I thought to myself,she can act,looked enchanting so I looked her up,seems she dated Jack Nicholson,typical of my screwed up heart I think somebody who's paraphilias include quasi necrophilia is interesting.

Moving on I am starting to ramble.

I developed a television show called " The Amazing Race" it was mindless drivel,however mindless drivel is what people want,all one has to do is turn on a television and one is greeted by mindless drivel,X Factor,Big Brother,American Idol,hours and hours of moronic edification for those with the intellectual faculty of a Mars Bar.

America's gift to the world,a systemic dumbing down of society,even in literature or rather alleged literature,mindless schlock like 50 shades of grey sold about a zillion copies,mindless drivel in effect Anais Nin for morons.

People want drivel,there are more morons in this world than smart people,one can use the media to illustrate that,in the USA The New York Post and in the UK The Sun have the largest circulation of any newspaper,they are mindless drivel a waste of ink,they are penned by people with the reading age of a 16 year old to be read by people with the reading age of a 14 year old.

I finally decided if you cannot beat them join them,I lived in LA for 2 years,I would write crap so I could pay my rent in LA and my mortgage in NYC but not shit,there was a limit as to how much I would prostitute myself as a writer.

I wanted a huge old apartment on the Ill De Cite or the Ill St Louis in Paris for Gracen and I,one can find a huge old apartment with cathedral ceilings on the top floor that needs renovating,a labor of love and trips to the basement of The BHV on the Rue Du Rivoli and the DIY department

The easiest way to get this was to sell out and write shit,so I sold out and wrote shit,my logic was sound the end justifies the means,I would whore myself to LA and it would pay for our apartment,it would also secure funds for my late daughters charity.

When we got to Paris I would try and finish a Vampire Novel about a nice Philosopher Vampire that did not take life,my book would not have been out of place next to Stoker or Le Fanu,Paris would have been my co author,parts of Paris have been destroyed,it is criminal what they did to Les Halles and we have that monstrosity that should be shot The Pompidou Center, however as a writer one can find inspiration everywhere.

There are exceptions to the rule starting in The Elysee with Mr Magoo's twin brother Francois Hollande,the pretend Socialist playing at being President,Jean Jaures will be spinning in his grave at the thought of that buffoon calling himself a Socialist.

However on the whole the French are civilized,2 years of my life France took from me,Paris was my spiritual home,I am still waiting for an apology from Hollande,I would not meet the man and I would not accept his apology.

I would however take his cheque,however what price do you put on abusing and violating somebody for 2 years,I would have been a friend to France until the day I died,it was where my soul belonged,however France abused and violated me for 2 years,Clinton pulled strings in The Elysee and I was subjected to 2 years of hell under a bridge in Paris,as I said earlier,it is not tin foil hat time,just Google the name Elizabeth Gracen and it will confirm the Clinton connection.

Talking of decency, a man that I do not really know,sent me 225 Euro today,we met by accident I was homeless on the streets,he has more goodness in his little finger than that buffoon Hollande has in his whole body.

Hollande is a good example of what is wrong in this world,surely deep down he must know he does not have a clue what he is doing,if he cared for his nation more than he cared for power he would resign for the good of his country.

America is eroding French values,mindless dubbed violent American drivel on French television,mindless American style reality TV in French,ads for a disgusting video game called Grand Theft Auto,Cocteau and Brassens would be in tears at how America is poisoning young peoples minds in France.

I also see that has been Besson making mindless drivel like Transporter,Andre Bazin will be spinning in his grave at what has become of the French film industry.

France is loosing her intellectual spark due to American ignorance infesting France,I have talked with people in France and they talked of their children screaming for Mcdonald's,who in their right mind would want Mcdonald's in France. 

However on the whole France is a civilized nation and it was where my soul belonged I even used to have a great time drinking with a few guys that would sweep the streets of Paris.

I have been all over this world,however Paris was my spiritual home,Paris was also my friend lover and teacher,I have never been as alive as I was in 97 and this small apartment on The Rue Au Maire.

If I could live in just one moment of time it would be 1997 The Rue Au Maire,Paris,every morning a knock on the door and there was Hirschem,we would go exploring,quite often we would never get out of the 3 eme as we would find ladies to share laughter wine and orgasms with,D.R.C or cheap wine,it did not matter.

Hirschem and I would always find decent people,the summer of 97 in Paris was the happiest time in my life,alas it was not to last due to a Canadian hobby writer by the name of Audrey Poetker,I talk about that more below.

I loved Hirschem like a brother,he made me feel welcome,North African's have a strong sense of brotherhood,I was drinking in his bar on the Rue Vertus the next street to where I lived ,he made me feel welcome everybody in that bar did,The owner a French Algerian seemed like the happiest man in the world.

I wish I could find Hirschem today,alas I do not even know his last name,he lives in a HLM in the 13eme or he did,I cannot find it,only went there when it was dark,his Mother was also a sweet little old lady,North African's know how to make guests feel welcome.

Being made to feel welcome is something I have not known for many years,I was subjected to years of hatred and sectarian abuse in Ireland,I return to my own country and was treated like shit.

Paris is what I needed to try and rekindle my pen,so I sold out to LA so Gracen and I could buy that apartment,it is also worth noting that 75% of monies I made from selling out never belonged to me but to my late daughters charity.

Paris is a writers dream,keep away from things like writers workshops and poetry readings at places like Shakespeare and co where one can listen to an alleged poet drone on with "Ode To What A Talentless Wannabe Twat I Am".

Keep away from the idiots and the wannabe's Paris is a writers dream,Paris was my co author in 97,I wanted her to be my co author again that is why I sold out to LA and wrote shit,It would pay for our apartment,however Gracen had other ideas that involved taking everything and leaving me to die upon the streets of Paris.

I was a writer that could act not an actor than can write,there was a time when I could go from Hamlet to Stanley Kowalski mid sentence and even throw in a little Dorothy Squires.

I used to chuckle at actors verbal masturbation with that buffoon James Lipton on Inside The Actors Studio,excuse me whilst I vomit kind of thing,good acting is intuitive,you either have it or you do not,people like Meisner,Adler and Strasberg made millions selling metaphoric snake oil,namely watering down Stranislavski as if it was a magic spell.

I had it I was good,however I never ever took acting seriously,it was too easy,also as an actor one exists in a world created by a writer,as a writer I could create such worlds.

I was a classical stage actor,I would use different names as I did not want to be known,I valued my anonymity.

According to Murdoch's Chimps I used over 10 names,it was more like over 20 names,however this was not as Murdoch's Chimps suggest to facilitate criminal enterprise.

It was because I did not want to be known,I have committed 3 crimes in my life,punched my adoptive Father back at 16 after years of abuse,got into a bar room brawl at 17 or 18 over a girl,bounced a check on Sony Broadcast for a Betacam and a couple of 2800's,that is it.

There were times when I was not thinking and I would talk to Gracen as if it was an acting equal,I thought I was in love I did not stop to think,very different how one becomes an actor in the UK and the USA,in the UK one comes up through rep and a good school,I was kicked out of RADA but I was good enough to get in to get kicked out,also one learns a lot from the elderly gin sozzled darlings that tread the boards,one becomes well rounded with a British background in acting.

America is so very different every day kids get off the bus with dreams and LA eats them alive,in America the road to acting is sadder and more tawdry than the British road,in LA one gets a S.A.G card,tries to loose a regional accent or learn ATS,flips burgers and attend Cattle Call after Cattle Call and along the way get ripped off by a legion of dross promising to turn Hollywood Hopefuls into the next Cobweb Clooney or that elderly has been hag Sharon Stone depending on gender.

Gracen is no great actor,it only ever had one role with more than 3 lines and Clinton got it that role to keep it quiet,Gracen is from "The oh my good like I think like I have a pretty face like,I think I will become an actor like school of acting".

I used to talk over Gracen's head about stage,not thinking I felt bad when I realized that I was talking over its head.

I wanted to empower Gracen,I thought I loved it at the time,I asked Gracen to sell my show in LA,dealing with producers in LA is an exercise in self control,the way they go on and strut around like peacocks one would think they are somebody important like Aid Workers in the 3 rd world,at times their behavior is enough to make Gandhi want to rip their heads off and crap down their neck.

I thought it would empower Gracen if it sold my show,I should have given it an EP credit,such things do not mean anything to people that can count past 10,however I expect it would have empowered Gracen,hindsight is a wonderful thing.

I wanted Gracen to see itself as an equal when it came to funding our apartment,Gracen is from the south,women are not equals there,in Good Ol Boy Culture (SIC) (RECTE IGNORANCE ) women are seen as something between blood hounds and pick up trucks.

I wanted to do something nice for the woman I thought I loved,Gracen's thanks,taking every penny I had and leaving me to die on the streets of Paris.

Trying to do the right thing by Gracen cost me everything,nothing left inside,I walk around in a daze,DSM drivel,PTSD,a pretty acronym that means nothing,to use language from Owen and Sasoon I am shell shocked,I long for death and a release from all the pain and suffering Gracen has caused me,Kubler-Ross acceptance.

I have no fear of ending my life and in my heart of hearts I know that is how everything will end,however so far all that has stopped me from ending my life is something I want more than death,I want to sit in a court room and see Gracen go to jail.

Even if I got back every penny that Gracen took today,I will never know happiness,I will never know love,I will never ever hear a child say Dad,I want a pony and a bottle of Jack Daniels,Gracen killed that part of me.

A bored educated cultured trophy wife,somebody else's trophy wife that is, from the 16 eme or Nuilly Sur Seine would go down well about now,however it would just be sex,Gracen killed the part of me that knew how to love.

I cannot even have what I used to have what I would call a Fuck Buddy Plus,somebody you have some kind of emotional and spiritual connection with,somebody you can call up at 4 am sobbing my goldfish has died,firstly I can no longer do charming,secondly what would I say come back to my sleeping bag under a bridge,also I would send anybody nuts going on about that abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

Providing she did not catch anything from that self obsessed old slapper Jack Nicholson,I would love to sleep with that woman I talked about above from Boardwalk Empire,I am sure it would be great fun,however I would prefer to drink a cup of coffee with somebody with a moral backbone than sleeping with anybody,drinking coffee with somebody with an innate sense of decency within their heart would be spiritually orgasmic.

I want a woman that does not exist,I want somebody that screamed this is perverse,this is a mans life that has been destroyed as she came to my aid.

Nobody came to my aid,all I ever found was cowards that do not want to get involved and a toxic woman from Idaho that is worth millions and yet she would not even give me a sandwich.

At 49 as a broken down wretch I tend to think love was made up by French poets during syphilitic rages,however at one time I believed in love,being faithful to the person you loved even if Ford and Elites list turned up on your door naked.

Loving each other until you are old and grey,I knew an elderly couple just outside Albertville in France,they had been married over 50 years and yet they still loved and cherished each other,that is how it should be,I will never know that kind of love Gracen took that from me.

Alone or with somebody I found in a bar a few hours earlier,The Eiffel Tower is just a lump of steel,with the person one loves it was almost as if Gustav Eiffel made the tower for 2 people that would arrive over a 100 years after his death,one can almost hear Brel's Ne me quitte pas in the wind.

The ability to love and to trust is the one thing Gracen took from me that I can never get back.

At the moment I am eating mashed potato and I am using a prepaid visa card that has 17 pence on it in place of a fork,as I am doing this that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending funds that belonged to my late daughters charity and my self.

I think of all those that have failed me,I will despise such people until the day I die,just as I am sure Mr Goldstein would despise those that stood by and did nothing as Hitler murdered his kith and kin,there are no words or actions that could be offered that would facilitate forgiveness within my heart,if I was a little old man of 103,just the thought of anybody that failed me would make my blood run cold.

Just 20 minutes ago I receive bullshit from the PA of a woman in Monaco,not sorry Chris how can I help?,I would not meet this woman and I would not accept her apology,however she owns property here there and everywhere,she could have lent me a place to rest my head and weary soul but she does not,bullshit from her PA,this woman now looks like ET'S Grandmother,back in the day she looked wonderful,however she has never looked wonderful on the inside,another cruel self obsessed person.

I remember as a teenager,my friends and I experimenting with alcohol and benadryl,it contains diphenhydramine a sedative and a potentiator of alcohol,I must have been about 16,messed up after a couple of glasses of this cocktail,told my adoptive father he had to take me to Monaco to go dancing with her,my adoptive father said I will teach you to dance and pushed me down the stairs,I wanted this woman to be a good person,she could have made a difference with my late daughters charity.

I am thinking about a man an ex French cop at the moment this man risked his life to save my life in 1998 or 1999,we became friends,his telephone number is in my head,must be over 2 years since I called him last,I owe him money,I could call him up and tell him my life is still a living death,I could lie to him and tell him life is wonderful,both pointless so I do not bother calling,however a part of me wants to call him up and weep down the phone and say why the fuck did you save my life,it was not worth saving,you should have let me die.

I am dead on the inside that abomination Elizabeth Gracen made sure of that.

Who was I ?,we need to go back to 1997,I was in the back of a cab charging down the Van Wyck leaving NYC behind me,I needed the Old World to work on a novel.

I knew Paris and France well since running off from London to Agen at 15 to be with a girl I met on a school exchange visit,however this was my first time living in Paris,at 15 I got all the way from London to Agen with no money and no passport,all I had was my wits and a backpack full of sandwiches,at 49 even going to the store is difficult due to that abomination Gracen.

I found my apartment on the internet,15 Rue Au Maire Paris 75003,The summer of 1997 was the happiest time of my life,as a writer there was inspiration everywhere,Paris was like a magical kingdom.

I hate using any electronic device to write on,my book was on scraps of paper,beermats and serviettes,as thoughts came to me,a Mini Disk player, Rollerblade's adventures were to be had,Paris and I were writing a Gothic Novel.

I would tidy it up and put it on a computer,but I would not write using one,I also have a pet hate of things like E Book readers but that is another story.

One night,feeling run down,also a call from somebody that was married with we should not see each other anymore,I went into an internet chat room for writers,that was the 2nd worst mistake of my life,however I did not know that at the time.

The 2nd worst mistake of my life was a Canadian Mennonite hobby writer by the name of Audrey Poetker,this little voice in a writers chat room,a woman that wanted to be a writer,live and let live and all of that,however Mennonitism is a theological abomination thrust upon an uneducated people by an excommunicated Dutch Priest.

This woman and I started to talk,she told me tales of woe,she also wanted to be a writer,different faith and only a movie,however a lot of parallels between Mennonite society and Yentl.

Mennonite women are meant to have strong child bearing hips to produce menfolk to toil in the fields,they are not meant to be writers or anything more than child bearing preserve making people.

She told me tales of a husband 30 years her senior that she married as she felt sorry for him,she also told me tales of psychological abuse at his hands,again hindsight is a wonderful thing,she married her husband as he had a 5000 CDN a month pension,she could sit on her ass and play at being a writer with her husbands money,I knew none of this at the time.

My heart went out to this woman,looking back I expect the only honest thing she ever told me was the time,Jack her husband was not abusive,he was one of  her victims,this woman was sexually abused by her Father and all men on the planet had to pay for that,again I knew none of this at the time.

My heart felt for this woman,also Manitoba is Hick Central,in many ways the way young native kids are treated is like the American South before Brown,Civilization stops in Thunder Bay and does not return until you get to BC,I exaggerate,however Manitoba is grim,

Poetker and I swapped more and more emails,we finally met up in Paris,as I said the 2nd worst mistake of my life,we spent a week together,she then returned to Manitoba,more and more emails,we decided to find a place in the countryside and live there.

I found a place in Normandie to rent,cute little cottage in a village,so many warning signs,on my birthday she told me forgot,all the time tales of woe from this woman,family members need this,family members need that,I became familiar with John Deere products,that I ended up buying or thought I was buying for one of Poetker's family members or another,in truth I have no idea what Poetker did with that money.

We moved to this picture perfect village in the Alps called St Nicholas La Chapelle,Poetker became pregnant with my child,again so many warning signs that I ignored,I would not smoke close to her when she was pregnant and yet she would smoke 40 a day.

I even had a name for my Daughter,Anastasia Paris,She was conceived in Paris and I liked the name Anastasia from the Romanov's,I had so many things I wanted to show her in this world.

Anastasia Paris,the little girl that never was,her own Mother starved her to death in her womb,Poetker would lay in bed all day and demand money,when I could not supply the riches of Croesus she would refuse to eat,if she was not eating,my daughter was not eating,no nourishment would cross the placenta.

Poetker starved my daughter to death in her womb,intellectually I know there was nothing I could do to save my daughters life,emotionally I blame myself for not doing something,you cannot tie a person to a chair and IV LRS,you cannot force feed a person.

I was lucky if she would drink a glass of water and eat a slice of toast.

Not a day day goes by when I do not think of my daughter,I have also had recurring nightmares when I am visited by my Daughter and she asks me why did you let Mommy kill me.

The last time I ever saw Audrey Poetker was when I was getting into a taxi to Albertville and the train to Paris,her last words to me was do not forget to send that money,just shy of 200k USD,the equity I had in my apartment in NYC,she wanted to buy a farm for us in Manitoba or so she said.

Again so many warning signs,she had a bank account in Luxembourg,why would a farm girl have a bank account in Luxembourg,she told me it was in case anybody left her any money,I believed all this drivel.

I went to Paris a few times on business or to see friends that were in Paris from overseas,there are about half a dozen grand old hotels in Paris,the kind of hotel that is an adventure with somebody special,I always invited Poetker when such an hotel was on offer at somebody else's expense,she never came.

I used to tell myself it was because places like The Ritz and De Crillion would have intimidated the farm girl in her,again hindsight is a wonderful thing,she never came as she was concerned that my friends would see through her.

The sad thing is I expect friends would have seen through her,however I would not have listened to them,I returned to our rental and Poetker was gone,everything was gone,even a fax machine that I hard wired into the socked as I did not have the right plug and CD'S of punk bands that Poetker did not even like.

The next few days I was drunk screaming insults at Mont Blanc and the cat,weeping to Edith Piaf tunes,I got a phone call from a cop that I knew,she told me Poetker left the morning after I SWIFTED funds, flight out of Lyon into Frankfurt and onto Toronto.

Much of the next 4 years were a drunken blur,everybody from the man that swept the street to the Tunisian Ambassador told me that Audrey Poetker was no good,my drunken reply " You do not understand" alas I was the one that did not understand,maybe I did not want to understand.

I never ran utility's in Canada looking for Poetker,I thought her parents convinced her I was a bad guy and had her tucked away in a Mennonite colony somewhere,such things are common in Mennonite society,sending off somebody who is pregnant.

Those 4 drunken years ranged from living under bridges to sharing orgasms with bored trophy wives in De Crillion,however all I wanted was my daughter,Anastasia Paris,it was 4 years before I found out there was no daughter.

I was in Frejus and Poetker's cousin called me and told me there was no child,my daughter Anastasia Paris,straved to death in her Mothers womb as I could not supply the riches of Croesus.

Everybody got it that Poetker was no good,everybody apart from me,during those drunken 4 years I alienated every friend I had on the planet and that is why I do not have a single friend in the world today,however I could not help it,I just wanted my little girl Anastasia Paris.

I was 32 years of age running around Paris having a a ball,now I am an elderly burned out man knocking on the door of 50,the only thing I ever wanted in this world never existed,namely a woman from Idaho that makes Lady Macbeth seem like a Sunday school teacher,as a broken down wretch that cries most mornings as I am still alive all I want in this world is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen behind bars.

I found myself in Vancouver a few months after I found out there was no child,not sure why,for a few months all I did was weep for my little girl and drink.

I have no idea why,however one day I stopped drinking and I could hear the birds sing again,I could feel Mother Earth doing her thing,it was like waking up from a sleep.

Gracen and I met up and we started talking about Paris,that is where we were going to go,starting over,I should have known better,Gracen is not the kind of woman anybody should be thinking happy ever after with,Gracen is the kind of woman one spends the night with,however again my screwed up heart was playing up.

Gracen headed off to LA to sell my show and I was Emailing realtors all over Paris,I was not drinking alcohol,most days were spent in a cafe on Robson St drinking coffee,I would meet up with this Canadian guy that I liked,he was funny,first time we ever met he said to me " I was in Mcguyver,can you buy me a drink" he then pulled out of photo of himself and Mcguyver.

My days were spent drinking coffee with Kevin,and reading him descriptions of properties I had found in Paris,life was good or so I thought,however it was not to last.

I think of a man that worked with Gracen,he is an American but lives in Vancouver,one night we were standing next to each other peeing in the restroom in this bar on Denman St.

I would not have listened to him and I should have known better from past experiences with Gracen,however this man did not even open his mouth and try and warn me about Gracen.

That speaks volumes of what a cruel self obsessed world we live in,this man has no legs he walks with prostetics,he must know about pain and suffering,yet he did not even open his mouth and try and warn me about Gracen.

A few days later I am arrested and bundled off to Manitoba for harassing Audrey Poetker the woman that murdered my daughter and cost me over 350k USD,I was waiting for Rod Serling to step out from behind a tree " Chris Hepburn has entered The Twilight Zone"

Manitoba is Hick Central,Gracen was behind my arrest or rather Gracen got into Clinton's ear and he was,as I have said before it is not tin foil hat time,just Google the name Elizabeth Gracen it will confirm the Clinton connection.

Gracen had the money from my show and wanted me in a jail cell out of the way.

I did not know any of this at the time,I kept calling Gracen on its cellphone but it never picked up,I was such an idiot I thought Gracen had an accident driving to fast to get to me with a legion of attorneys that could have had the Macbeths acquitted on Regicide.

Years later I had the LUD pulled on Gracen's cellphone,it was alive and well spending my money as I was dealing with a bunch of hicks in Manitoba.

I was numb,I was being charged with harassing the woman that murdered my daughter,and took 350k USD from me.

I was told by the Public Defender to plead guilty and that I would get a fine and be deported,I had no money to hire an attorney,16K USD just vanished stolen by a corrupt cop,also one is not going to be able to find Atticus Finch or Joyce Davenport in Manitoba.

I was also told that if I did not please guilty I would be held in custody waiting for a trial as I was a foreign national,I played alone plead guilty,pay the fine and get out.

It stuck in my craw pleading guilty before a bunch of hicks to a crime that I did not commit,however I had to get out of Manitoba,I was such an idiot that I thought Gracen was in a hospital bed after a car accident,there was no other explanation in my heart as to why Gracen was not there for me in my hour of need.

I committed no crime in Manitoba,I send angry Emails to all and sundry trying to find Audrey Poetker and my daughter,I was so sure her parents had her hidden away,I made no threats,most certainly my emails were angry,I committed no crime within Manitoba,if anybody is that interested look for yourself and decide if I committed a crime in Manitoba,those Emails are now Public Record.

I pleaded guilty,I was sentenced to 2 years in jail,again Public Records,I received the longest sentence ever under the section of the act I was charged with,even wackos that were Fed Exing their ex's puppy back to them in bits only got a sentence of 6 to 9 months.

For the first 3 or 4 months I was so sure Gracen had died in a car accident,driving to fast to get to me,that is what an idiot I was,my heart could accept no other reason that it was not there for me in my hour of need.

I had lost all my friends during my drunken years,I had nobody,I finally convinced an ex friend to run its credit cards,it was alive unless ghosts use credit cards.

I was numb,I thought of suicide,however if I ended my life Gracen will get away with it,all these years later,my only driving force is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen,that hatred is all that keeps me breathing.

I survived jail due to the kindness of young native kids,not really kids late teens and early 20's nice kids.

I still remember to this day,my first birthday sitting in a jail cell as an innocent man, Lenny arrived,early 20's native,he had the mind of a child, (F.A.S),however he had the heart of an angel,he gave me a packet of cigarettes and said Happy Birthday,speaks volumes about this world,a young native kid with nothing wanted to put a smile on my face for my birthday,a disgusting woman from Idaho with millions would not even give me a sandwich.

Disgusting the way native kids are treated in Manitoba,they need love warmth and understanding and all they get is racism and jail,Lenny would steal beer,no violence,he would just liberate beer from the supermarket,if somebody was to give Lenny a couple of crates of beer a day and the cartoon network he would never commit a crime again,beer would cost less than putting him in jail.

Those kids were good to me,they kept me sane as I endured 16 months of hell as an innocent man in a jail cell due to Gracen,I am still waiting for a sorry from 24 for all the cruelty and corruption I endured in Manitoba,only been waiting for over a decade.

My sentence was coming to an end,I was going home or so I thought,I was extradited to Australia for allegedly writing a bad check,I could have fought it,however I would have been fighting it from a jail cell in  Manitoba and the thought of a Judge in Manitoba understanding Somerset V Stewart filled me with dread,so I did not fight it and went to Australia.

Australia,gallows humor,the only thing wrong with Australia is Australians,on the whole the country has never managed to cast off that rough and ready convict mentality,Skippy is cute that's about it.

I am not saying I have never written a bad check,however in this case I did not the 12 year old teller at the bank pressed the wrong button on her computer,the check was for about 20k,that is all,I expect I am the only person ever to be extradited for a bad check.

Again Gracen got into Clinton's ear,also all of this is public record,they kept moving me from jail to jail so I could never get a parole date set by a court,after 16 months as an innocent man in a Canadian jail I was to spend 12 months as an innocent man in an Australian jail,are you getting it,can you feel my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen.

I got out of jail and begged until I could get out of Australia,I got a flight to New Caledonia,never been before,at least I was out of that vulgar nation Australia.

New Caledonia is paradise even with no money,I could live there tomorrow if I had money,it would sink into the ocean if it was not for all the money the French Gov put into New Caledonia,however the way things are New Caledonia is wonderful,it was nice to be around decent people after my years of hell as an innocent man in jail in 2 countries.

I was lucky,I had less than a 100 AUD when I arrived,however I was hitch hiking into Noumea,somebody stopped,we started talking,nice guy worked for Meteo France took me into his house gave me a bed,all his family were nice,his Mother a school teacher,his Father a fireman,I stayed with him for about 8 weeks,every Sunday I would dine at his Mothers house,large family at the table,after years of hell it was nice to sit at a table with decent people,they were wonderful people they made me feel welcome.

They got me a ticket into Paris,that is where I wanted to be,I wanted to try and finish my book and try and get back the monies Gracen stole from my late daughters charity and myself,I had been sending a lot of Emails to people in Paris some people I knew,other people,we just knew of each other,however after what I have been through,I was sure somebody would find some kindness within their heart.

My first night back in Paris was spend sleeping outside the market of The Rue Magenta,I was not worried,I thought somebody would wake me up in the morning with a coffee,so many people knew about my late daughters charity,I was sure somebody would find kindness within their heart,I was waiting for somebody to wake me up in the morning with ha ha ha,welcome back to Paris Chris.

2 Fucking years under a bridge and nobody came.

That was not to be,that first night outside the market on The Rue Magenta was the start of 2 years crying myself to sleep under bridges in Paris looking like a reject from a Delocroix painting,as I did this that abomination Elizabeth Gracen was spending my money,that is my hatred of Elizabeth Gracen.

Can anybody wonder why I despise that abomination Elizabeth Gracen?.

I am also utterly disgusted with the French Media,they did nothing as a fellow journalist,namely myself cried himself to sleep under a bridge for 2 years.

I see all of this drivel at the moment Je suis Charlie,the French media practised a news blackout about a woman stealing from charity,donc je ne suis pas Charlie,my heart goes out to the family's of the cops that were shot,however as for the journalists at Charlie Hebdo,I say good riddance to them,does that sound sick?,1 they had my blood of their hands and the blood of children in the 3rd world that my late daughters charity would have aided,2 I expect Holocaust Survivors would say good riddance to staff at Der Sturmer,1  person or 6 million the dynamic is the same.

2 years begging on the streets of Paris,I would email that toxic woman from Idaho,however at the time I did not think she was a toxic woman I thought she was decent.

The weeks leading up to my last Christmas on the streets of Paris,I was very prolific and loquacious in my emails to her,I thought if I just found the right words,there were no right words,trying to elicit kindness and compassion from her would be like somebody writing to Hitler from Auschwitz and saying the beds are not very nice.

However at the time I thought she was a good and decent person with compassion within her heart,Christmas Day 2005,I was begging on the streets,I had a bottle of brandy,I was drinking,however I was not getting shit faced,I wanted to be more or less sober when she arrived.

I stayed there until about 19.00 then walked to St Germain De Pres Metro Station,when it got very cold I would sleep on the station,RATP the company that run the metro and the cops leave you alone as long as you are not being an idiot.

I was so sure she would arrive that Christmas,I told myself when she did not arrive in the days leading up to Christmas she wanted to surprise me on Christmas Day,my last words on Christmas Day were to a fellow homeless man I knew of the other platform,I shouted to him,demain un bon jour pour tu,I thought she would help me,I had to help him,he was my friend.

Even as I climbed into my sleeping bad and went to sleep I thought she wants to surprise me and she is close and will wake me up shortly,yes I would have made a gentle gentlemanly pass at her,however if it had been rejected I would have kissed her goodnight on the cheek the way one kisses a sister.

It was not until about 4 am that I finally got it into my head that she is toxic without a vestige of decency or compassion,the station was locked, however the trains were running all night,it was the small hours of 26th December,only some stations were open,Odeon or St Sulphice were only a short walk away I expect one of those was open.

I came so close to going under a train in the small hours of 26th December 2005,all that stopped me was the thought of Gracen's laughter at the news of my death and the thought of Gracen getting away with destroying my life.

The next few months were a blur,I can still remember the price after all these years,the cheapest bottle of brandy at Monoprix was 9.69,There was a triangle that I lived in,Monoprix at Republique,Monoprix at St Germain Des Pres,Monoprix on Blvd Sebastabol.

Thoughts of ending my life were becoming more frequent,one day I was begging and a man gave me some coins,I thanked him in French and he replied I do not speak French in English,he was Irish we started talking,he told me that there were homeless hostels in Ireland for anybody that wanted one,he forgot to tell me that Ireland is a backwards nation of xenophobes.

Before I move on to the cruelty in Ireland,I am in a nice cheap hotel at the moment due to the kindness of a man that sent me 225 Euro,it is a shame he cannot explain kindness to that sack of shit from Idaho.

I had a shower bought bread and cheese,then my Blackberry beeps,bullshit from a French talking head,this man is not a real journalist,he lurks in a studio and reads from an autocue,he has no understanding of the news,however typical of the world we live in,not sorry Chris I wronged you,more bullshit.

I am a man of peace,however if this man and I ever met I would knock him on his ass,I would be defending myself,this man has attacked me in a psychological manner,that is worse than a punch on the nose,that would hurt today but not tomorrow.

Psychological scars take longer to heal,what I would like to do with scum like this man is drop them in a war zone with a Betacam,a lesson in journalism.

After talking with the man from Ireland I decided to leave for Ireland,I was hoping beyond all hope that somebody in France would feel some guilt and shame and help me,my soul belonged in Paris,I wanted to try and finish my book,I could not do that without my co author,Paris.

I caught a ferry from Cherbourg and wept as Cherbourg got smaller and smaller,I knew I would never be able to write in Ireland,every Irish writer of note left the country as soon as they could to find inspiration.

Ireland has no culture,however at least I would have a roof over my head,I gave up on France if nobody could find kindness in their hearts at Christmas they never will.

2 years of my life under a bridge in Paris,2 years I can never get back,so many knew of my suffering and nobody came to my aid,can anybody wonder why I despise the media in France and I say good riddance to the morally bankrupt trash at Charlie Hebdo,they did nothing as a fellow journalist cried himself to sleep under a bridge,just as certain journalists did nothing as The Vichy Regime rounded up Jews to be slaughtered.

All that will ever live in my heart to those that failed me as I was on the streets of Paris is hatred and the one I hate the most is that sack of shit from Idaho,how anybody can be so depraved is beyond me,how anybody could read the emails I sent her and climb into a warm bed and do nothing as I was crying myself to sleep under a bridge in Paris is beyond me.

Hatred is a learned response,there is a vile racist politician in France the leader of The National Front,her Father taught her to hate,if her Father gave puppies away to inner city kids I am sure she would have been a different person,I expect she would have had love in her heart rather than hatred.

I was taught to hate by those that failed me and all that can ever live in my heart towards such people is hatred.

I am always polite to strangers,I could be talking with the rarest of the rare a nice person,however the hatred in my heart towards those that failed me is a hatred from my toe nails up.

The hatred that lives in my heart towards the French Media is a hatred in 15 perf,nothing will ever change that,they cannot give me back what they were party to stealing from me namely 2 years of my life.

Lets use an analogy think of a news story like a rat in a cage,it is contained,however once it got out everybody would be chasing it.

The story would have gone global very quickly,I am nobody,Gracen is nobody,however Gracen is sucking Clinton's putrid pox ridden dick so it is not prosecuted and I may or may not be related to somebody that was very well known,a lot of ink would be wasted speculating about that.

If just one journalist had done the right thing justice would have been done,how can I not hate the French Media,holocaust survivors hated Der Strumer and Streicher,Journalists in the French media in the metaphoric sense have been taking lessons in ethics from Julius Streicher.

Moving on I am starting to ramble.

I arrived in Ireland,if Ireland was a color that color would be grey,if the walls could talk in Paris they would have so many interesting things to say,if the walls could talk in Ireland,alas they would be screaming at grown men kicking around bags of air and shouting look at the tits on that.

I went to The Department of Social Protection,sounds ever so grand,alas it is not,they are the Government Department that administer welfare payments,they treated me like crap and that was the start of over 5 years that I was abused and violated in Ireland.

My background Journalism and Theater I could have done neither in Ireland,they are both Amateur Hour,I could not even secure a job counting paper clips,it is the only country is Europe where the entire Police Department is entirely white,the same goes for their Civil Service and Parliament,no ethnic diversity.

Ireland as a nation never had a Jonathan Livingstone-Seagull moment,on the whole the Irish do not do philosophical introspection.

Ireland was abused and violated by the UK and Rome,they lived in poverty,Ireland as a nation never had the chance to evolve into an educated self aware nation,now mindless consumerism and over 100 channels of drivel that Murdoch spews out of Astra is modern Ireland.

Ireland is the antithesis of Descartes," We do not think therefore we are not,however would you be wanting a beer now Paddy".

Racism,ignorance and vulgarity is everywhere you look,I spent my time in homeless hostels or hovels.

I was in Donegal and had to register with city hall for accommodation that they do not have,I was told by Liam Ward of Donegal County Council "We do not want your kind or niggers here" That sums up Ireland in one sentence,Donegal is like something from Deliverance,the movie.

I stood up to Liam Ward verbally,the cops arrive and took my computer and I Pod,2 years they have had them know,bunch of thugs in uniforms,it does not take 2 years to inspect anything,the cops stole my computer and I Pod for daring to verbally stand up to Liam Ward,his boss is friends with a corrupt senior cop,do not take my word for it,read The Morris Report,that speaks about policing in Donegal.

I was told they were looking for any threats that may be on my computer to Liam Ward,they also wanted to fine me for upsetting him,The Garda,The Irish Police are a bunch of thugs.

It was all a blur,I gave up trying to find a job in the end,close to 5 years of being abused and violated by Ireland,I was not responsible for the plantation of Ulster,I was not a member of the Black and Tans,my name is not Cromwell,however the way they treated me you would have thought I was all of those things,I hate that country,they abused and violated me day in day out for over 5 years.

Even in my darkest hour I could treat no living thing the way Ireland treated me,things do not work very well in Ireland as most people good at anything leave,there is a defacto Irish Occam's Razor,all things being equal Paddy will find a way to screw it up.

What they called The Celtic Tiger was in actuality The Psychotic Tiger,Take Macmillian"s "You have never had it so good" and junkie mentality.

It was a flawed economic policy,it could never self sustain,one does not need to be Milton Friedman to see that,their children will be paying for the ignorance of their forebears for generations to come,things have never worked well within Ireland,however nothing excuses how they abused and violated me day in day out for over 5 years.

They have no sense of guilt or shame for those 5 years,when they abused and violated me day in day out.

I still do not have my computers or 1700 Euro or even my play back that the Irish Cops stole from me.

I have been in touch with politicians in Ireland,from scum like Higgins and Kenny down to everybody in their Toy Town Parliament,guilt and shame is beyond Paddy,I gave up trying to get my things back,Ireland is truly a disgusting morally bankrupt vulgar nation.

I hated Ireland from my toe nails up,I ached to leave,however I had nowhere to go accept under a bridge in Paris or London.

Ireland was such a cruel vulgar nation,they do not even care for their own,few nights ago I received an Email telling me that a friend from Ireland had died,a man called Ray Manning,he was the rarest of the rare,an Irish Gentleman,he made me feel welcome when I arrived in a homeless hostel.

His own Government told him to sit in a room the size of a jail cell and wait for old age and death,he never even got old age he was 52 or 53.

He did what he was told and died in his sleep in a room the size of a jail cell in a Hogarthian hovel of a hostel on Tuesday night.

That is Ireland for you,he spent the last years of his life in a room the size of a jail cell in a hovel waiting for death,I expect somebody else will be in that room now waiting for death.

I could ramble about Ray for pages,he was a decent human being in a depraved cesspool of a nation.

I am not going to rant and rave here about Ireland,I do that on my other site,however Edna Kenny The PM or Ireland and Micheal Higgins The President of Ireland are vile and vulgar ignorant men,in a just and ethical world they would be tied to trees outside The International Criminal Court in The Hague and flogged.

Moving On before I start to ramble about Ray.

I was staying in a homeless hostel in Dublin,the hostel was grim,however the staff were decent,that is quite an accolade for Ireland and I met a few nice guys there,I wrote a play in the vein of Synge's ,Playboy Of The Western World,my play was an honest but scything attack on Irish society.

It was the first creative thing I have done in over a decade,the powers that be did not like my play,the next thing I know the cops arrive,steal my computer,4 telephones,1700 Euro,my play,they also kick the crap out of me.

Allegedly they were investigating an Email fight I had with another journalist,seems they are claiming extraterritorial jurisdiction of all the ills in this world,this journalist was not even in Ireland,this was just an excuse to take things off me for writing my play.

I could not take their shit any more,I went home to London,it would have made more sense if I had gone to my grave,I arrive back in my own country,I never had any love for the UK and I have spent more of my life out of the country than I spend in the country.

However I hoped to find compassion and decency,when I was younger we used to squat Loony Left Boroughs,people looked out for each other,how things have changed,London now has a spiritual syphilis upon it,it is a city that has turned self obsession into an art form,there is no moral leadership.

I noticed the mindless walking around with their heads down over a telephone,bah bah bah bah,they said to Madison Ave as they consumed,I watched the mindless line up to give money to corporate dross for overpriced sandwiches and coffee,if London was a Dog it would be put to sleep,no kindness,no compassion,no decency.

The London I knew from the 80's was so very different people used to look out for each other.

London now has a vulgar greedy self obsessed Mayor that would not know honor,integrity or compassion if it fell out of the heavens and landed before him.

There was a Weekly I used to do a lot of Freelance work for in NYC,now a waste of ink as it is owned by corporate dross,however at one time it  had some great writers,a journalist older and wiser than I once said to me,even if you disagree with a persons point of view or you dislike them personally,try and say one nice thing about them.

There is not a single nice thing to say about Boris Johnson The Mayor of London,he does not have a single redeeming quality,he is vile,vulgar and self obsessed,yet he did not take power with a gun,he was elected in a democratic manner,that speaks volumes of what London has become,his opponent in the election for Mayor was a buffoon,however surely a buffoon is better than self obsessed dross like Boris Johnson.

3 months I spent of the streets of London,I am sure that sack of shit from Idaho knew I was back on the streets,no guilt no shame for failing me and children my late daughters charity would have aided when I lived under a bridge in Paris.

Before I move on and talk of London,I am in a really nice cheap hotel at the moment thanks to the kindness or a man called Carl,I do not want to leave here,however I have to as I am broke,I was walking around today and noticed a Suzuki GT750 old 2 stroke water cooled triple,I would prefer the Kawasaki 750 2 stroke triple,however they are rarer than the Suzuki.

At one time I would have looked at this bike and smiled,thinking of adventures to be had,I used to have his little brother a GT 380,today I am looking at this bike and thinking of running that abomination Elizabeth Gracen over with the bike,hit the nitro and take that bitch out at 140 MPH.

I expect it would blow the rings,however who cares Gracen would be dead as would I,that brought a smile to my soul for a moment,however I do not want Gracen to die,I want it to suffer and suffer in a jail cell.

I can never ever get back one thing Gracen took from me,I can never ever get me back from Gracen,I just want to be the man I was before that abomination Elizabeth Gracen raped my soul.

If I ever got my money back I do not know where I would go,3 choices I think Amsterdam,Menton or Venice,Italy not 90291,I would never step foot in the USA again even if Uncle Tom sent AF1 for me.

I would never be able to write in France,I endured so much cruelty and depravity at France's hands,however I doubt I could write anywhere,I just want to call up a realtor and say "That one please,how can we close yesterday".

I will still be screwed up,however at least I would be screwed up with a roof over my head.

There was a time in my life I wanted to do things,I wanted to do Lear,I wanted to a couple of hard climbs in the alps,I wanted to get Grace Jones into bed,I will never act again,now it is all I can do to climb the stairs and Grace Jones must be 103 by now.

Now all I want to do is nail the door closed and never be seen again, a spiritual Faraday cage.

Back to my 3 months of hell in London.

Those 3 months on the streets of London destroyed what little humanity I had left within.

I arrived in London with just short of 200 Euro and went into a cheap hotel for 3 nights,even that was sad,seeing property developers raping Kings Cross,back in the 80's The Caledonian Rd was grim,however it was a nice grim,now it has infestations upon it Mcdonald's and Starbucks.

I tried to get in touch with an Inspector I knew with The Metropolitan Police,he worked with a special team that aided the homeless,nothing as grand as The Brigade Sans Abri in France,however about half a dozen guys that worked out of Agar St that would help the homeless.

How things have changed in the UK at one time the cops helped people,now they just arrest bad guys.

If The Metropolitan Police needed a slogan " We Cannot Be Bothered" would be perfect.

It seems the unit that helps the homeless has been disbanded at a time when there are more homeless on the streets than there have ever been,I thought for a moment The Metropolitan Police may have an Irish Commissioner as nobody in their right mind would disband such a unit when it is needed more than they have ever been needed.

No not an Irish Commissioner,another cop told me what happened, that scumbag Boris Johnson The Mayor of London happened,a cost cutting exercise by City Hall.

It is fair to say not a single cop bothered me when I was on the streets,however it is also fair to say not a single cop helped me with the exception of a cop called James that gave me some change and another cop from The British Transport Police called Rachel bought me a meal.

There used to be a television show called Dixon of Dock Green,Dixon was a Gentleman,nobody wanted to upset Dixon,not because he would break your head,because he was a Gentleman.

There used to be cops like Dixon in real life in the UK,alas no more,Police Departments through the UK are micro managed by bean counters.

What is sad is that given how vocal I have been about that abomination Elizabeth Gracen,I have over the years Emailed every Chief Constable and DCC and ACC of every Police Department in The UK,some cops wanted to get a look at me,trying to figure out if I am for real or a lunatic,however the sad thing is most of them knew I was not a lunatic,however they did not want to get involved.

There are 2 words for that,psych babble,diffusion of responsibility,however cowards works better,Gracen committed no crime in the UK,however it has committed a crime against humanity on a global level by stealing from my late daughters charity.

However all any cop had to do was say I get off at blah blah blah would you like to get a coffee,Dixon Types would have said that rather than trying to play cloak and dagger badly.

I left my hotel after 3 nights and spent my last money at Argos buying a sleeping bag and at Ryman's buying a notice board and card to write on,I made a sign that said.

" Work Wanted,M.A,However I would clean crap out of toilets.

No Drugs,No Drink,A Gold-Digger made me homeless."

I walked around Central London with that sign for 3 months,I would return to my doorway at Age UK The most uncharitable charity in the land at 21.00 and I would stay close to there until 12.00 the next day,I would then sit on a paved park on Tottenham Court Room from about 17.00 to 20.15,I watched the vile and the vulgar for 3 months,I watched the self obsessed for 3 months,I watched the mindless for 3 months,nobody gave me a job.

I think the saddest thing was people that would walk past me that had their spawn in tow,they are teaching their children to be vile,vulgar and self obsessed,when they should be teaching their children decency and compassion.

Only about half a dozen parents used the homeless wretch as an example of compassion,a hand full of young children handed me things from 10p to a sandwich.

2 degrees,few languages,the last time I took an IQ test I scored 187,yet nobody even had the decency to give me a job cleaning crap out of toilets.

London has become the personification of ignorance and self obsession.

I think back to the London I knew,S.N.O.W,Squaters Network Of Walworth,362 Old Kent Road,we looked out for each other.

We also squatted The Old Fire station on The Old Kent Rd,we had bands,we had people sharing skills,people cared for each other back then.

I have not read the legislation,I expect it would reduce me to tears,however Squatting is now illegal in the UK,some Tory backbencher got that legislation passed,it poses a question what kind of sick perverse mind could conceptualize such legislation.

People have died from hypothermia due to this perverse legislation,the kind of mind that could conceptualize such legislation is the same kind of sick  mind that conceptualized The Enabling Act in Nazi Germany.

No ethical or moral Parliament would pass such depraved legislation as making squatting illegal,it speaks volumes of how self obsessed and depraved London has become.

Those 3 months of hell on the streets of London destroyed what little humanity I had left within,I am sure that sack of shit from Idaho knew I was back on the streets,however nothing went click in her heart,I could have rented a little cottage if I had 800-1000 Euro being the first month and the deposit,after that welfare would pay for the rent,yet that sack of shit from Idaho did not even feel enough guilt and shame for failing me in Paris to give me a sandwich.

I remember when I was a student also history tells us that students stood up for what is right,I was very close to a morally and ethically bankrupt kindergarten that masquerades as a University by the name of University College London.

The students there are a poor facsimile of their contemporaries of yesteryear,mindless little drones that would walk around with their heads down over an I Phone,I talked with a few students,however they did not want to get involved,nobody wanted to strike up the band and play "We Shall Overcome"

A few students gave me something to eat,I will always have a brotherly love in my heart towards them for that,however I will never have any respect for them,giving Mr Goldstein something to eat as the Nazis put him on a train to be murdered is not enough,1 person or 6 million the dynamic is the same.

The students at UCL are mindless automatons lacking moral integrity,however they would embrace cowardice and self obsession as if it were a gift from the Gods,people were murdered at Kent State for standing up for what was right,today students at UCL are mindless automatons looking to Madison Ave via an I Phone for spiritual guidance.

Before I move on I wish there were 2 tablets,the first would make me forget that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and the 2nd one would make me a moron,morons are happy,I could then return to Paris,it was where my soul belonged before that abomination Elizabeth Gracen raped my soul,alas no such thing as Star Trek medicine,there is however an interesting allegory there,the writers of Star Trek codified cowardice with The Prime Directive,however in the real world there is something systemically wrong and depraved with anybody that does not stand up for what is right.

Back to the kindergarten,University College London,the blind leading the blind,I contacted her simian brethren,they prefer to be called Professors,I would call them morally and ethically bankrupt,how such people are tenured speaks volumes of what London has become,the blind leading the blind,the morally and ethically bankrupt teaching the morally and ethically bankrupt,however I am sure they all have nice I Phones.

The alleged Professors at University College London are cut from the same cloth as those that cowered under their beds as Hitler murdered 6 million,in Nazi Germany some Professors risked their lives speaking out against the Nazi regime,Sophie School a German student was murdered by the Nazis for standing up for what was right,she was only 21.

I cannot help but wonder what Professors that stood against the Nazi regime at Heidelberg and Marburg would have to say about the Tenured Chimps at University College London that masquerade as Professors.

I cannot help but wonder what Sophie School would have to say about the cowardly self obsessed students at University College London.

People that do the right thing are becoming fewer and fewer in this world,alas the mindless,the self obsessed and the cowards cannot get an app for their dummy/pacifier manufactured by Apple or Samsung to facilitate moral and ethical deportment.

I had a few Emails from the Chimps playing at being a Professor at University College London saying,I would like to help but Clinton is powerful,excuse me whilst I vomit,Chimps attempting to justify their cowardice.

I am sitting here now pressing keys,such an awful headache,I feel as if I have The Irish Vienna Circle in my head screaming at men kicking bags of air around,in hurts from my toe nails up having to remember all of this,I just want to crawl into bed and never ever wake up,however I do not have a bed to climb into and if I die that abomination Elizabeth Gracen has got away with destroying my life.

I am already spiritually and emotionally dead,I died in the spiritual and emotional sense in the small hours on the 26th December 2005,I was so sure that sack of shit from Idaho would have arrived with metaphoric bandages and a hemostatic agent as I was bleeding to death in the spiritual sense on the streets of Paris.

All these years later not even an Email with a Sorry Chris,if this woman turned up on my door doing the dance of the 7 dildo's and crapping 500 Euro notes I would not want to know,all I would ever see is the woman that failed me when I lived under a bridge in Paris,all I have wanted from this woman since 26 TH December 2005 is a sorry Chris as her heart told her to say sorry,it will never happen this woman is depraved.

I just wish I knew what was the matter with me for being drawn to her,I will never ever know that,I will also never ever know how anybody can be as depraved as this woman,how anybody could read the emails I sent her and do nothing.

As I am talking about depravity,let me finish off by talking about the most depraved person I came across when I was in London,that was Sarah Hayward The Leader of Camden Council,Hayward is a vile and vulgar morally and ethically bankrupt sack of shit.

Camden Council or rather Camden Councillors have always been Village Idiots,going back to the 80's and the Loony Left,when the libraries were only open 3 days a week,yet the council was spending money so British Lesbians of Jamaican extraction could go on holiday to Jamaica to discover their ethnic identity,Care Bear books were also banned in schools in Camden as Mrs Care Bear was making the beds not splitting the atom.

There was a remarkable dry British Sci Fi writer called Douglas Adams,in The Hitch Hikers Guide To The Galaxy,it was thought that the kindest thing to do with assorted buffoons was to put them on a space ship that was programed to fly into the sun.

The first people on that space ship should have been Camden Councillors,utter buffoon's that do not have a clue about the real world,the kind of people that would be angry with Hitler for not recycling as he marched into Poland,they can also make scale models from tofu of the Taj Mahal and look for spiritual subtext in Joni Mitchell songs,utter buffoons,however harmless for the most part.

However Sarah Hayward is not harmless,the woman is an obscenity that could cost people their lives.

When I was on the streets of London,I contacted all the Councillor's at Camden my Email was polite,I did not expect any help from them,alas I was not a one armed lesbian from a 3rd world country that nobody can find on the map,however a drowning man can only hope even when logic says that hope is pointless.

I got a few blah blah blah's and a few people that speak Daily Mail,oh what a shame,of what a pity,that is so sad,only one friendly Councillor,to employ a metaphor,the friendly Councillor would not have stood up to The Nazis,after all those Nazi's are scary,however she would have been friendly to The Jews as they were being put on the trains.

Well that sack of shit Sarah Hayward told the friendly Councillor she would help me,Hayward did not have to wrestle bears,she did not have to parachute into a 3rd world country with an MP5 and a copy of Von Clausewitz or blow Strom Thurmond,all she had to do was pick up a phone and call the Department Of Box Ticking at the Council.

Back in the 80's I have seen Councillors at Lambeth and Southwark do it,they would call up the box tickers with a stop fucking around and house the wretch,that is all Hayward needed to do,granted sitting in a Council Flat waiting for old age and death is grim,however not as grim as living in a doorway.

Hayward could not even be bothered doing that,however she was ever so busy trying to score brownie points with the friendly Councillor by playing the Concerned Elder Statesman,Sarah Hayward is a vile and vulgar obscenity that could cost people their life.

Suppose some wretch was sitting in a doorway thinking things are going to get better,the leader of the Council said she would help,what would happen if the person in the doorway ended their life due to Hayward's fake posturing,would she choke on her tofu or her organic fair trade coffee,or would her response be oops as the poor wretch was being put in a paupers grave,people like Sarah Hayward make my skin crawl.

The abomination should be fired,she has no honor,compassion of decency within her heart.

Those 3 months on the streets of London destroyed the little remaining humanity I had within my heart,however she does mindless fake left of center posturing ever so well,I expect she also knows a lot about tofu.

Journalism  is no longer an honorable profession,I am no longer a journalist,the only peole I would like to interview within this world are the prison guards from the jail that housed that abomination Elizabeth Gracen,being crude I would love to interview Lucy Liu's pussy,that is it.

As a metier journalism lacks honor and integrity,all it has in this day and age are morally bankrupt chimps that doff their cap to corporate dross.

I would never ever doff my cap to corporate dross,such knavish deportment lacks honor and integrity,honor and integrity are the only things nobody can take from me.

3 Months on the streets of London and not a single journalist felt a sense of guilt and shame and came to my aid.

Journalism is no longer honorable, it lacks integrity,one cannot help but think of scum like Reporters Without Borders,they lie and pontificate to collect funds but do nothing to help journalists,the journalist that disgusts me the most is Christiane Amanpour,she is not one of Murdoch's Chimps,she has seen the blood,she should know the difference between right and wrong,however she does not as she is party to a news blackout about a woman stealing from charity.

The weeks leading up to Christmas on the streets of London,I hoped somebody would have a moral epiphany and come to my aid,it never happened.

I awoke about 6.15 am on Christmas Eve outside Age UK the most uncharitable charity in the land,even on Christmas Eve nobody came out to me and said these sandwiches are left over from our Christmas Party,enjoy.

A lady that I have seen at least 3 times a week gave me a coffee and 10 pounds and wished me Happy Christmas,she was pretty a part of me wished she would have taken me home and fucked me senseless,however she was kind and does not need what I have become in her bed.

I waited for Mohammed,one could set their watch by him,for the last 3 months he always arrived between 09.00  and 09.15 and gave me 2 sandwiches,he was a Gentleman an Egyptian man that has been living in London for 20 years.

He gave me 2 sandwiches,back to sandwiches,that sack of shit from Idaho never gave me a sandwich,however Mohammed gave me 2 and he gave me 20 pounds and wished me Happy Christmas,his English was perfect,however I uttered a few pleasantries to him in Arabic,I left Tavistock Square,I was in tears on the inside at what London has become.

It is now a month since I have seen Mohammed, I miss him,he was a Gentleman,he had an innate sense of kindness within his heart.

I had 200 pounds in my pocket thanks to Carl,he is such a Gentleman a man of faith that carries decency and compassion within his heart.

I went  to a nice cheap hotel in Kings Cross that was owned by Italians,they were good to me,I am sure they knew I was homeless,they upgraded me to a better room,My Christmas Day was spent alone weeping,I ate cheese sandwiches for my Christmas Dinner.

Italians were good to me,an Egyptian man was good to me,however my fellow countrymen treated me like shit,that speaks volumes about what London has become,she embraces the ethos of The Unholy Trinity,Me,Myself and I.

I am utterly disgusted with my own country,I would like to puke on that German Hag known as The Queen of England.

However is it my own country,I hope not,how does one define ones own ethnicity,My biological Mother was Swiss,she just happened to drop me in London and I was placed for adoption there,if she had dropped me in Amsterdam or Berlin I would have been Dutch or German.

As a nation Switzerland has always had a problem with ethics,if the gold in the vaults of C.S or U.B.S could talk it would be weeping in Yiddish.

However I have never suffered on Swiss soil,Switzerland would have been a good place to heal,I would like to stick my British Passport up the ass of that German Hag,The Queen of England.

However Michele Calmy-Rey,The Swiss Minister of Foreign Affairs is morally and ethically bankrupt and is doing the bidding of The US State Department and will not give me a Passport.

Legally the UK is my country,the way they treated me for 3 months makes me want to puke.

I sat in my cheap hotel on Christmas Day when my phone did not even ring then with a sorry Chris,how can we help I realized it would never ring,if people cannot find decency and compassion within their hearts at Christmas they never will.

There are things in this world we will never know,what came first the chicken or the egg,who does Chelsea Clinton's husband think about when he is having sex with her,who makes the bag he places over her head when he is having sex with her,philosophers from pre Socratics down have wrestled with such questions.

However,ethics,decency and morality should not be an abstract concept.

I left the UK a few days after Christmas utterly disgusted with the morally bankrupt pariah.

The world that we live in has become so very dumb and self obsessed,I blame The Parasitic States of America for that,it has infested the planet with ignorance.

I think of France,think of that buffoon Francois Hollande that "plays" at being The President,The Parti Socialiste in France have turned Socialism into a dirty word,The Parti Socialiste in France have turned nepotism and cronyism into an art form.

A good example of that is a toxic fake by the name of Jack Lang,he is the director of The Institute of The Arab World in Paris,the man is a fake,not very well educated and I doubt he speaks Arabic,however in the metaphoric sense he  has sucked the right cocks in The Elysee,200k a year to play at being the director.

America has infested France with ignorance,20 years ago Hollande could never have been elected,the man is a buffoon,a caricature of a caricature,his entire cabinet are buffoons,a terrible indictment of the world we live in.

I am not getting Jules Ferry on anybody,however Hollande and his cabinet are not fit for purpose.

Love them or hate them,French Presidents have always come across with a certain aristocratic air,Hollande comes across as a manager of K  Mart in Iowa,no class,no integrity,a fool that plays at running a country.

I did not know him,I however I  met Mitterrand once,we shook hands are shared a few words, he came across as an interesting man,all that was missing was a case of Petrus and a couple of cute 30 somethings with a degree from Sciences-Po,he was an interesting man.

Hollande comes across as a dullard,a terrible indictment of the times we live in,the whole world is becoming so very dumb.

There is no hope for this world,I just want to go somewhere and nail the door closed and never be seen again.

I know something nobody should know,there are more bad people than good people within this world.

I want to nail the door closed and never be seen again and be as shallow as Cobweb Cloney,this world will only get worse.

America has infested the planet with ignorance and self obsession.

When I was on the streets of London,I must have contacted 20 people from this hick town I spent a few years in as a teenager,the place was grim,the old adage,its grim up North is true.

I kept in touch with a few people there,at times I would joke with women there,when are you joining me for a dirty weekend,some I actually took on a dirty weekend,I was a great guy when I could send them an airline ticket,local men do not do that,they are simple folk,their mentality is blow me in the parking lot,I was a gentleman,however when I needed help nobody wanted to know.

I had an old school from my teenage years,dumb as a bag of rocks,he gets excited when his football team wins,he used to collect Pringle and Lyle and Scott jumpers,dumb as dirt but a nice guy,I want to be dumb as dirt also,one can never be hurt emotionally.

The place is grim and most of the people that stayed there are as dumb as a bag of rock's,people good at anything leave for the most part.

As I said must be over 20 people I contacted there,I asked if they knew of anybody with a room to rent,not one could be bothered helping,however if I got my monies back and they read about it or watched it on the news,I would have a slew of Emails,along the lines of,remember me I lent you my pogo stick when we were kids,can you buy me a 911,I would not piss on them if they were on fire.

Such people make my skin crawl,ethics,decency and morality is  lost on such people,they are not educated,however that is no excuse,right and wrong,decency,kindness and compassion are not about education,they are qualities that live in a persons heart.

This is almost finished,I am in a cheap hotel due to a Gentleman called Carl,he is such a kind decent person,there is a shortage of decent people within this world.

I go on and on at times on my other website about that abomination Elizabeth Grace,however I can explain my hatred of Gracen in one sentence,I just spent my last 10 Euro buying a pair of shoes,the holes in my shoes were getting bigger and bigger,I have 3 Euro and 42 Cents to my name and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending my money.

I never knew that such hatred could ever live in my heart as the hatred I carry in my heart towards Elizabeth Gracen,that hatred is all that keeps me breathing.

I will despise those that failed me until the day I die,the one I despise the most is that sack of shit from Idaho,she has to be worth over a 100 mil,she would not even give me a sandwich,how anybody can be so depraved is beyond me,how anybody could read the emails I send her and do nothing is beyond me.

I want no part of this world,I just want to nail the door closed,I want an open fire that burns wood or coal and I want more critters than Noah.

I would also like to go to The Elysee and knock Hollande on his ass,I doubt The Republican Guard will let me,Paris was where my soul belonged,however even if that buffoon Hollande had a moral epiphany and  gave me The Eiffel Tower Paris is lost to me,so much suffering at France's hands when I lived under a bridge for 2 years.

Paris was once my friend,lover and teacher,how things have changed.

I am always polite to strangers,I also remember something a wise old man once said to me,he said call a King an asshole and the man in the supermarket that stacks the shelf Sir.

Polite to all and sundry was who I used to be,I however have so much hatred in my heart towards those that failed me,the one I hate the most is that sack of shit from Idaho.

I want to close this talking about love,I once had so much love in my heart towards my fellow man,however that has been kicked out of me,also my fellow man does not deserve my love,they show me no love or compassion,where I am now a lot of people know of my pain and suffering,however not a soul walks up to me and says how can I help Chris.

I want to close this by talking about 2 people I do love as a Brother,I want to talk about Carl and Mohammed,they showed me kindness and compassion,if Cobweb Clooney and I ever met I would knock him on his ass,however if I ever got my money back I would buy Carl and Mohamed something shiny red and Italian that goes over 200 MPH,quid pro quo,they showed me kindness I would reciprocate if I could.

I had something once that was shiny and red of Italian extraction,a birthday present from a girlfriend,now I do not even have a pair of socks or a toothbrush due to that fucking abomination Elizabeth Gracen.

That's it out of words unless a bunch of shysters such as Random House or Simon and Shyster give me sack of money.

All I want in this world is JUSTICE and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen growing old and dying in a jail cell.

The only thing I ever wanted in this world never existed in her place was a toxic depraved woman that would not even give me a sandwich,as a broken down wretch that cries most mornings that that I am still alive,all I want is justice,nothing else will ever matter,I have a cancer upon my soul by the name of Elizabeth Gracen.

Justice is all I want in this world,as for the cowards and the self obsessed that failed me,Captain Ahab said it better than I ever could,"For hates sake I spit my last breath at thee.'

Right and wrong should not be an abstract concept even in this day and age.

I could invoke words of wisdom of secular Greek gentleman with beards,however I will not except to say Phaedrus was wrong about love,love cost me 12 years of my life,now all that keeps me alive is a hatred of that abomination Elizabeth Gracen and a need for justice.

I could invoke the words of Thomas Aquinas or Maimonides,however I will not do that either,I will invoke the words of Homer,the yellow one not the Greek one,DOH.

Homer was a beer swilling schlub,however he knew right from wrong even if he could not intellectualize it with $3 words.

A terrible indictment of the world that we live when a yellow cartoon character knows more about right and wrong than anybody I have encountered for years.

I will not be updating this,if anybody chooses to do the right thing get in touch,I no longer care about anything,it has been kicked out of me,secondly not a soul on the planet cares about me,however 75 percent of recovered funds would go direct to the homeless in London and Paris,those are my bona fides and they are carved in stone upon my heart.

I never craved the riches of Croesus or fame,the only thing I ever craved in this world never existed,namely a sack of shit from Idaho,I turned White Trash into a Renaissance Woman in my heart,however in truth this woman is vile,not even a sandwich when I lived under a bridge,not even a sorry almost 10 years later.

As a broken down wretch all I want is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen in jail.

JUSTICE IS ALL I WANT IN THIS WORLD

Chris Hepburn

January 29th 2015

I will make one last update here a few days shy of my 50th Birthday,I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,I will despise those that failed me and failed children that my late daughters charity would have aided  until the day I die,the one I despise the most is that sack of shit from Idaho,all these years later not even a sorry Chris.

If anybody has her cell number let me have it,insulting that woman would be so cathartic.

My Birthday,what would I like to do,I would like to be woken up by The Pretend Attorney General,Mr Affirmative Action,Eric Holders Tipstaff.

I would like his Tipstaff to hand me a box containing Elizabeth Gracen's hands,lets see it steal from anybody else with stumps where its hands once were.

I think I would be so happy I would write Holder a note explaining the philosophical dynamic of equality before the law going from Pericles to Anatole France even throwing in a little of the 64 Civil Rights Act.

I expect I would throw it away before I gave it to his Tipstaff and give him a John Wayne movie where Wayne shoots Indians and a bottle of Thunderbird,more in keeping with Holders level of intellect.

I cannot help but wonder what Dr King would have to say if he was still alive about scum like Holder that practise selective prosecution and make a mockery of the law,I also wonder what an idealist like John Jay would have to say about scum like Holder?.

I also wonder what Rosa Parks would have to say about Holder using his office to judicially violate people as good ole crackers used their offices to judicially violate black people.

The moral dynamic of Browder V Gayle would be lost on Holder,what a disgusting morally bankrupt vulgar man.

Even if Uncle Tom found the ethics fairy in his cornflakes he cannot sign an EO and give me back the 13 years of my life that have been stolen from me.

What else would I like to do for my Birthday,I would like to put a Porsche Flat 6 Air Cooled Engine into a Citroen Deux Chevaux.

I would also like a tablet that would make me as shallow as George Clooney,like totally dude,I would love to be a male valley girl like Clooney,such a safe eco system lacking depth and integrity.

I also wish that little French guy that used to work for Ricardo Montalban would drive me to The Danieli in Venice where Jeri Ryan and Denise Richards would be waiting for a 3 way.

Lastly as I am about to fall asleep I catch the news some aliens from Pluto tested out their new ray gun on DC and DC  is no more all that is there is a big hole between MD and VA,it would be quite poetic if aliens from Pluto did to DC what DC did to Hiroshima,alas no aliens.

In a just and ethical world Harry Truman would also have been tried for War Crimes,however this world will never be just and ethical,however I digress.

What a wonderful birthday that would be.

That would be a lot to hope for,however I would settle for taking a dog for a walk,one that barks not that elderly has been hag Sharon Stone.

I would also like all my cats in the same country,I have 9 cats in 3 countries,I would hope my French and Italian cats could teach my Irish cats social graces,cats I left with people,should not be a lot to expect for my 50th have them all in the same country.

An apology from that sack of shit in the Elysee would be too much to hope for,however having my cats in the same country should not be a lot to ask,one cannot expect any better from the Irish,however I expected better from France.

I disagree with de Gaulle's politics a little pompus,however I think he was a man of honor and integrity,he would not have been doffing his cap to scum in DC the way that knavish sack of shit Hollande does.

De Gaulle stood up to scum in DC,Hollande doffs his cap to DC like a knavish supplicant.

In a just and ethical world Hollande's head would be shaved and he would be placed in a cage behind Notre Dame at the Memorial Des Martyrs.

Hollande has the moral integrity of Pierre Laval,The Vichy Regime rounding up Jews or Hollande abusing one person as a favor to The Department of Thuggery (State) in DC is the same,one person or 6 million the depravity is fundamentally the same.

50 years of age,so fucking old,I can never ever get back the years that abomination Elizabeth Gracen has stolen from me.

I will never know love and I will never hear a child say Dad,that abomination Elizabeth Gracen destroyed that part of me,however all I needed to get well or rather to achieve a greater degree of functionality was decency,kindness and compassion.

Decency should not be an abstract concept,I spent a few years as a teenager in a hick town,a couple of weeks ago I was joking with a hick there,when are we going somewhere,I was joking with her trying to make her feel good.

I feel sorry for her,she has spend her life being punched out by asshole partners,I feel for her,she deserved better than assholes,who the fuck feels for me?,no fucker,who the fuck came to my aid,no fucker,that scum from Idaho has millions and would not even give me a sandwich,all these years later she has not even said sorry Chris.

50 years of age,I was 32 running around Paris doing The Gentleman Slut,now 50 years of age,I would love to jump into bed with the woman I talked about above from Boardwalk Empire,what would that make me a sad old fuck trying to live my life vicariously through younger eyes.

I have not dome Much Ado for over 20 years,I think she would make an enchanting Beatrice,however I am much to old to do Benedict,I can never get back all the years Gracen has stolen from me.

50 years of age,can never get back all the years that abomination Elizabeth Gracen has taken from me.

However the only thing I truly want in this world is justice and that abomination Elizabeth Gracen rotting in jail.

I am disgusted with the morally bankrupt,rather that ramble I will just give one example of my final emails looking for justice,26 pointless relics Lords Spiritual,relics of a bygone era Charles 2nd,s Clergy Act late 1650's,

They are mindless morally bankrupt relics that have the audacity to call themselves men of god,I am not being anti clerical,I met a very nice man of the cloth a few weeks ago that has kindness within his heart,however the scum in the Lords have the audacity to call themselves men of god whilst in the metaphoric sense cowering under their beds and not wanting to get involved,not caring that a truly perverse woman stole from my late daughters charity.

Again I am not being anti clerical,I met a very nice Priest a few weeks ago that has kindness in his heart,if I ever got my monies back I would like to do something nice for him,however 1000 miles away from London lives a morally bankrupt man that does not want to get involved by the name of Giovanni Maria Vian the editor of L'Osservatore Romano,Vian calls himself a man of God,however he has no honor or integrity within his heart.

At one time The Lords was the domain of the inbreed,pour brandy into them get them to take their shoes and socks off and talk about polydactylism,however The Lords after a reform is like The Canadian Senate,an Elephants Graveyard of the establishments sycophants.

 A 2 bit soap opera actor,professional bores like Bragg,toxic hags like Williams,television presenters from children's shows,they also throw Letters Patent at people walking past Parliament from The Commonwealth as way of an apology for land theft,The Lords is a gallery of the inept,not one of them has the moral backbone to stand up for what is right.

I have ran out of people to Email looking for justice,I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed.

That is it,50 years of age nothing left to update,all I want in this world is for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in jail where it can reflect on all the pain and suffering it has caused me.

I am so fucking ill,all that stops me from ending my life is a dream of sitting in a court room and seeing that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail,however I long for death and a release from all the suffering,the only thing I want more is to see Gracen go to jail.

The only thing I ever wanted in this world never existed in her place was vulgar White Trash that would not even give me a sandwich as I rotted under a bridge in Paris,9 years later not even a sorry Chris.

As an elderly broken down homeless wretch all I want is for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in jail,I would also like to puke on that sack of shit from Idaho,I would like something I can never have,I would like to be the man I was before that abomination Elizabeth Gracen raped my soul and left me to die on the streets of Paris.

In closing I must have an exceptionally rare mental illness,so rare it is not even listed that drivel the latest DSM.

I truly believe the world would be a better place if people were nice to each other,go shopping for a little old lady,give Mustard-Seed Cruise acting lessons,carry dog biscuits around in case one comes across Tina Brown or Anna Wintour and they are felling hungry.

However it will never be that way,ME,MYSELF AND I is the credo of most people on this planet,I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed.

I found a wonderful house for sale in Amsterdam,granted Amsterdam is not what it once was,they even paved paradise in Amsterdam and put up a parking lot or rather a shopping mall where the post office once was.

I have no respect for The Dutch Government,they are no longer cute and cuddly and they do not understand Andre Hazes songs, however I have never suffered on Dutch soil,I would like to buy that house and try and finish a book I started 18 years ago,however I cannot that abomination Elizabeth Gracen has my money.

I doubt I can really write again,I could write shit,like Twilight or 50 shades of grey,however I doubt I will ever be able to really write again,a wise old writer once told me,a good writer needs to be able make a blind man feel the majesty of a butterfly doing butterfly things,I will never be able to do that,Gracen took that from me.

Journalism is no longer an honest career from Murdoch's Chimps to buffoons like Fisk and Kristoff that masturbate in ink journalism now lacks integrity and honor.

I no longer have any interest in journalism,back in the Olden Days I used to do quite a lot of freelance swork for The Village Voice.

It is a waste of ink now owned by corp dross from AZ and staffed by chimps that lurk in cubicles and play with crayons,sad it used to be something special once with real journalists,so very sad how corp dross has destroyed the press.

The New York Times,last 3 editors out of their depth also Pinch cannot fill Daddies shoes,WA Post owned by corp dross,north of the 49th Canada's grown up paper owned by the phone company,I wish we could go back to the days of hot metal when journalists had integrity within their hearts.

I doubt I can do it however I just want to try and finish a book I started 18 years ago.

If anything could help me write again it would be this old house I have my eye on in Amsterdam built in 1690,maybe those walls could help to rekindle my pen,I doubt it,however at least I would have a roof over my head in a city that I like.

Walden's Pond on The Prinsengracht,a door to nail closed is what I want.

To quote Spinoza from the days when there was thought in Amsterdam,before the mindless would spend their days throwing money at Corp Dross on the Kalverstraat.

"Nature is satisfied with little,and if she is,I am also"

I want very little I just want to buy that house and mail the door closed.

All I want in this world is for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in jail where it can reflect on all the pain and suffering it has caused me.

I will state again and for the last time,I no longer care about anything in this world,it has been kicked out of me,also not a soul on the planet cares about me,the only woman my heart truly craved never existed,in her place was Vulgar White Trash that would not even give me a sandwich as I cried myself to sleep under bridges in Paris.

However 75% of what Gracen stole never belonged to me,if I recovered my money and kept that I would in the moral sense be as vile as Gracen.

75 percent of recovered funds would be given direct to the homeless in London and Paris in 5k chunks,that is enough money for a homeless person to rent and furnish a place,once they secured a tenancy Housing Benefit would cover the rent in the UK and R.M.I would cover the rent in France.

I would give nothing to any homeless charity,just direct to the homeless,I have come across so many pointless inept homeless charities,one that springs to mind in the UK is Emmaus,from what I understand Abbe Pierre the founder of the charity in France was a genuine man that truly cared for the needy.

However there are a lot of idiots and buffoons that use his name to "play" at charity,Emmaus UK are not fit for purpose,I was refused entry into one of their hostels as my website is angry,if Saint Cleopas had a website and it  was angry Emmaus UK would have refused him entry.

They are idiots that play at caring,I contacted Emmaus UK CEO,an Arvinda Gohil,"Danger Will Robinson Idiot Approaching",Gohil told me she does not set policy,DOH,what is a CEO meant to do if not set policy,Gohil could be replaced with a goldfish.

Their President is Terry Waite,he is a dullard and professional bore,these are not the kind of people that should be involved with aiding the needy,they lack the moral and emotional faculty to aid the needy.

The homeless need a roof over their head not idiots playing at aiding them,those are my bona fides,the first and last act of my late daughters charity,housing the homeless in London and Paris.

After that I just want to nail the door closed and bask in the knowledge that Gracen is suffering in a jail cell,that is all I want in this world that abomination suffering in a jail cell.

I am utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,me,myself and I,I see Apple are bringing out a watch starting at 349 US,how difficult is it to take that overpriced piece of crap an I Phone out of ones pocket?.

A watch with blue tooth connectivity utterly pointless,a child in the 3 rd world can be eat for a dollar a day,all that child wants is to eat,that child does not want overpriced crap from Apple.

I expect an I Watch will keep the I-Morons happy,if Apple was a person and not a corporate monstrosity it would be considered psychotic using DSM criteria.

I remember when Apple were a cool company the 2e with a 6502 chugging along at 2mhz,a breath of fresh air compared to CP/M or DOS,now a mindless vulgar company that sell overpriced crap to the mindless their business model is the same as a guy standing on the corner at 161 st and Broadway selling crack.

One can buy 4 laptops for the price of a Mac Book,get rid of that thing Widows 8 and install Linux,4 for the price of one,however people no longer think,the mindless say bah bah bah to Apple,terrible indictment of the world we live in.

The mindless consume,however the lack of moral integrity in this world makes me want to puke,a woman stole millions from charity and in the metaphoric sense the mindless and the self obsessed are cowering under their beds and playing with their I Watch.

All I want in this world is for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in jail where it can suffer and suffer and suffer the way it has made me suffer for 13 years,I would also like an apology from that sack of shit from Idaho,I would never accept her apology,however if it was offered at least I could tell myself that somewhere deep down she has some goodness and that was what I was drawn to,expecting her to apologize is like expecting Hitler to open a mikvah.

I am so very ill,I cry most mornings that I am still alive,I long for death and a release from all the suffering,however one thing I want more than death,I want to sit in a court room and see that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.

50 years of age I can never get back all the years that evil bitch Elizabeth Gracen has stolen from me.

I went into the supermarket today to buy a bottle of soda,the lady that served me was pretty,however I no longer notice such things,pointless I am a homeless basket case,however what I noticed about her was she was so cheerful,I was also cheerful before that abomination Elizabeth Gracen raped my soul.

I also noticed a small apartment to rent furnished for 318 a month,I cannot even rent that and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending my money.

Lastly shame on you Moore,you make my skin crawl,you cannot even find Sorry Chris in your vile and vulgar toxic heart.

If anybody wants to let me have her cell number please do,insulting that woman would be so cathartic.

CCU Norma Desmond.

OUT OF WORDS March 11th 2015 NOTHING LEFT TO SAY,DISGUSTED WITH COWARDS,THE SELF OBSESSED AND THAT SACK OF SHIT MOORE.

It is the 14th and I will make my final update,I am utterly livid,pressing keys is so hard,I would like to take Gracen's hands off with an axe and peck at the keys with its distal phalanges,therapy,lets see it steal from anybody else with no hands.

I am 50 today,not even a FUCKING BIRTHDAY CARD and somewhere in this world that abomination Elizabeth Gracen is spending my money.

An apology and a check from that sack of shit in The Elysee would be nice for my birthday,one cannot expect and better from The Irish a race of ignorant vulgar drunks,I expected better from France,France owes me for all the years under a bridge in Paris.

I had a dream a few nights ago about lowering Gracen from a chopper into the rotor of another chopper below and selling the bits to Santeros as pure evil.

Watching that evil bitch die would be therapeutic but only for a short time,if it is dead it cannot suffer,I want it to rot in a jail cell where it can suffer and suffer and suffer the way it has made me suffer.

50 years of age,looking at my phone hoping for an apology from that sack of shit from Idaho,it will not come,however if it was offered it would help at least then I could tell myself that somewhere deep down there was some goodness and that is what I was drawn to.

Looking at my phone and hoping somebody will find goodness and kindness within their heart and help me,hoping somebody can find the moral fortitude to stand up for what is right,pointless hoping.

I am fucking disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,I am fucking disgusted with that sack of shit Moore.

I long for death and a release from all this suffering,however the only thing I want more than death is to see that abomination Elizabeth Gracen go to jail.

5O years of age,I cannot even go to a bar and get laid,firstly no money and secondly I can no longer do charming.

I am out of words,utterly disgusted with cowards and the self obsessed,utterly disgused

My birthday came and went,I only get one 50th birthday,that evil bitch Gracen stole it from me as it stole my 40th birthday from me,my day was spent looking at my phone hoping for an apology from that sack of shit from Idaho.

All I want is this world is justice and for that abomination Elizabeth Gracen to rot in a jail cell,I can never get back all the years that evil bitch has taken from me.

I have some new sim cards but no fucker to call,I want to call somebody with decency and integrity withing their heart,somebody that will help me,I guess I can call myself put on an accent and ask myself how I am and wish myself happy birthday,cannot even do that as they are not active on The HLR,besides I do not want a phone,I want justice and nails to nail the door closed and never be seen again.

ALL I WANT IN THIS WORLD IS FOR THAT ABOMINATION ELIZABETH GRACEN TO GROW OLD AND DIE IN A JAIL CELL.

March 14th OUT OF FUCKING WORDS,DISGUSTED WITH COWARDS AND THE SELF OBSESSED.